My Ugly Wife Season 2
Chapter 113 Warning! Prepare a tissue before reading.

The first time Raydan saw there was a notebook. Where after Raydan opened it, there was written a date that Raydan remembered exactly the first day he entered the new school in Jakarta.

I knew him without knowing who he was. I even hit him when he asked me to meet. Really, I didn't mean it that way. Before, no man dared to approach me, then suddenly he came closer to his hand, then called his name "Raydan."

To me, a woman who had never been close to any man before, that kind of atmosphere felt awkward to me. Just imagine, my heart is completely out of control. He's handsome, really. However, I think handsome men are used to flirting with women. That's what I saw in my school environment. So I try not to take it seriously.

The more days, the more he approached me, making me feel really uncomfortable and I would avoid him. It's always like that. Not because of anything, but I can not control the heartbeat of my heart that always beats irregularly when close to him.

Days passed, there were regrets because of my haughty attitude at that time. Now, I can't even see it anymore. He'll never bother me again. What is this feeling? Could I like it? No, where is possible.

I repeatedly denied it, I didn't like Raydan. But, then time seemed to understand and make me re-communicate with him. As if I didn't want to waste time, I responded. With every message from him, until I realized one thing. The feeling remained, even when I heard his voice again my heart was pounding irregularly. I can't believe it when she said she liked me from the first time she saw me. Until a relationship was established, Raydan and I became lovers. It's a long distance relationship, but I trust him. People say love at first sight will be hard to get rid of, so I'm sure Raydan will take care of his heart for me.

After reading it, Raydan opened the next page. In fact, there is a date on which he first returned from Germany. Not too long ago, of course.

Raydan sighed, for some reason it was like there were thousands of needles piercing his chest. It hurts so bad. It was written how happy Ralisya was when she met him. Although Ralisya is confused to reveal it, because for the first time, she has a lover after 17 years of her life journey. Ralisya is not a woman who easily falls in love with men, but different from Raydan. Ralisya admits to having more feelings for Raydan.

Raydan opened the third page, where the date was written right when he was caught in a relationship with Clarie. Raydan's heart was pounding, he closed his eyes, there was a feeling of not being ready to read it, but he was made curious. Raydan finally ventured to open his eyes and began to see the written word. It was written in large letters every word.

'I WAS DISAPPOINTED, NOT IN HIM, BUT I WAS DISAPPOINTED THAT MY HEART LOVED SOMEONE FOR THE FIRST TIME, BUT THAT PERSON WAS NOT RIGHT'

Raydan's breathing was hunting, for some reason he felt the pain that Renisya felt. He was a man who did not care about the feelings of the girl he had left behind. To him, he left the girls out of boredom and had no more taste. However, it was different with Ralisya. It was Ralisya who left him, it was Ralisya who broke off the relationship between the two.

Raydan turned to the next page, finding out if any words were written again. However, he looked at a piece of envelope and opened it. There's a piece of paper in there.

I give you this, not so that you pity me, but know the heart of a woman not to be played with. To you it might be funny, fun when it manages to destroy a woman's feelings. I'm writing this because I don't have time to talk to you, and I know you don't want to talk to me.

Thank you for making me understand that trusting others completely is tantamount to saving wounds. And I hurt my own heart for believing in you more than anything. Later, I hope you find your own happiness, with the woman you truly love. I don't blame you, after this I'll completely erase everything about you. I will even change my contacts so that you no longer see my whereabouts that might make you irk.

Raydan's hand trembled, even unable to support the light paper in his hand.

'Am I that bad?'

Raydan murmured. It is implied a regret for not seeing Ralisya before he went to Germany. At the very least, Raydan wanted to apologize to Ralisya. It was not that he was trying to break her heart, but for some reason he could not hold onto her when she broke off their relationship. Perhaps, his heart was not quite able to survive in a long-distance relationship.

In fact, there is a saying that is true.

'The one who loves, means more than the one who is always there.'

And Raydan admitted that he could not take Clarie off. The beautiful girl he met in Germany. Clarie is the girl who is always cheerful and makes her laugh, in the eyes of Raydan, Clarie is a fun woman. Not only beautiful, Clarie also understands herself, making it difficult for Raydan to let go.

Raydan kept the records back, he would keep them, and later if fate reunited him with him, then he would apologize to him. Although he himself did not know when he would meet with Ralisya again, he might not return to Indonesia for quite a long time.

Raydan closed his eyes, trying to forget what he had read earlier. He didn't want to remember it, and tried to ignore it. However, it suddenly flashed the shady face of Ralisya, making Raydan open his eyes and rub his face.

Oh gosh. That's enough, it's a bitch. I just feel pity, not regret letting go, Raydan's mind.

Raydan threw the paper bag onto the chair next to him. It just so happened that no one was sitting in that chair. Raydan looked out, where there appeared planes lined up. His sight was hard to interpret, I don't know what he was thinking.

While at the residence of Ralisya.

Returning from Kevano's apartment, Ralisya locked himself in a room. He turned on some loud music. No one knew, he was sobbing in the room.

Sick, broken, disappointed, angry, the middle of the current feel. He wanted to curse Raydan, Raydan completely destroyed his feelings. Even when she loved a man for the first time, she was devastated.

I was hurt, I wanted it all to end, but I didn't accept him to leave, '' said Ralisya amid his sobbing.

If you have ever felt, where your heart ached, your feelings are completely broken because of someone, but inexhaustible, he said, in your heart there is a deepest space in which is stored a feeling that is very difficult to hate, not even willing to leave, so that is what Ralisya feels.

Women will find it hard to fall in love with men. But when he loves, he will turn into a woman who has a million apologies despite being hurt repeatedly.

Had Raydan pardoned him, willing to fix everything, it was likely that he would have forgiven and maintained his relationship with Raydan. Unfortunately, Raydan doesn't want to fix everything. Even when Ralisya broke off his relationship with Raydan, Raydan did not try to hold him back. Raydan agreed.