Not Dilan 1990
32. Hesitation

Happy reading")

Guanlin POV's

I took a breath for the umpteenth time while changing back my sleeping position. In the end we all prefer to sleep at Airish's house rather than go home. The lizards complained lazily. And damn, now Woojin's loud snoring starts to make me uncomfortable.

In the dimly lit atmosphere of the room, my mind wandered on to the previous incident. Ah, really that girl surnamed Kim is really going to drive me crazy after this.

How not? I desperately avoided her at school because she said she hated me, but I ended up having to meet her back in this damn room a few hours ago in a really uncomfortable way.

I know my friends already know my true feelings. After the incident at the airport, they often piss me off. They always pretended to talk about Karin when we were together. Even in the group chat they also discussed the girl. Not in the cafeteria, not in the classroom, not in the basecamp they always talk about that. The thing that sickened me the most was when they discussed Karin's closeness with senior Hwang Minhyun. Gosh, that shitty senior always makes me bleed when I remember.

He looks very learned. I've known that since I was on JHS. He was also a wise, firm, and kind man. Surely everyone will give more value to him. But that doesn't apply to me. Because as a fellow man I know that he put his feelings on Karin.

He even brazenly followed us the night he came with Jaehwan hyung. I'm sick of seeing his pretentious attitude. So when I saw him having his chest crossed and watching us from the terrace of the house, I pretended to kiss Karin, but I only kissed my finger on her lips. I smiled satisfied especially when Karin did nothing and the senior put on a surprised face.

From then on, I would rather sit in the corner of the classroom, driving away the owner of the table, Yeonjun, so as not to hear their babbling. Because I didn't promise I wouldn't hit them if I continued to be there.

But over time, I began to wonder also about Kim Karin's feelings for me. I mean, does she really hate me like she ever said? But if he is, why does he often go around looking for someone when he is in the cafeteria? I wouldn't believe myself saying he was looking for me. But as soon as he looks at me, he will start eating his lunch quietly. It's not like looking for someone anymore.

Isn't that suspicious? I think, very. Therefore, I asked my classmate Jeon Somi, the famous tomboy and parcel girl, to find out if the girl loved me or not. He just wanted to after I bribed with the fried chicken treaty.

I'm zooming in on a bunch of articles to find the most effective answers to the question 'how do traits if someone loves us?'

The answer is very much, but I am very interested in the answer 'he will be jealous if you are close to another man/woman'.

I'm doing. I approached Somi when she was also in class. We pretended to study together, and sometimes we laughed for something funny. When I glanced at him, he was impressed not to care. He was engrossed in the novel he was reading while in his ear was stuffed with earphones.

I thought that he did not love me, but hated me. I feel very unaccepted by that.

I was almost desperate but it wasn't until one afternoon that Airish called me and asked me why I was getting close to Somi. I don't know where she's coming from, because I approached Somi when she wasn't in class.

"Karin. He confided in me. He said it's getting weird."

Do you know how I felt after Airish said that? Of course, I'm incredibly happy. It's as if I just lost a game of gambling but I found more money than gambling in the middle of the road. From that moment on I started to get excited again. I used to get attention in front of all the kids in class hoping he would take a glance at me. Yeah, that worked a little. I saw him laughing when I made a joke that I thought was cringe-looking.

I followed him when he came home with Airish. Lately they have been taking public buses more often to go home, it has made my intentions easier.

The two girls very often go to the mall just to hunt for merchandise from idols they like. But, really. I don't understand what they're buying. I know EXO, if it's not wrong that's its name. I'm sorry, I don't care a little about the boygroup world. I know it's from Daehwi. I even accompanied Karin and Airish to their concert when we were dating. I just kept quiet when they cried hysterically.

Damn things started happening when I followed them to a bookstore. I did look very suspicious wearing a black jacket, a black hat, sunglasses, and a mask. Karin accidentally looked at me. He even looked at me for a few minutes with furrowed eyebrows. I panicked amazingly. With the steps I made as relaxed as possible I went out of there and went home. Hopefully he doesn't realize it's me.

Sorenya Airish sent me a message. He asked me to come home with them tomorrow because they were being followed by someone dressed all in black. I checked at the time. Really am.

Until the moment I found out that papa was the real mama's killer, I collapsed. That night I had a really high fever. Airish and Daniel even recorded me when I wanted Karin's name in my sleep. I panicked of course. That's really embarrassing. Hugely. Especially when mama Taeyeon heard it. Still lucky they didn't call Karin home.

Then the graduation announcement day arrived. I'm glad my grades are almost perfect. Only he's in biology I got a score of 96, the rest I got a perfect score. Sorry, I'm not showing off. I am also proud to see the value of my friends as expected. No exception to the value of Karin. If I get the first position of the highest score, he's at number 8. That's more than enough considering we have approximately 550 people in one generation.

When all is engrossed in his activities, starting from Jihoon, Ong, Woojin, and Daniel who play online games, as well as Daehwi and Jinyoung who are engrossed in cameras and fireworks, I feel like my body is so hot. I went into my house and went to my room. I mean, I stay here a lot so the corner room is my room.

I opened the door and when I turned around I found Karin there. He seems to be looking for something. And what made me even more nervous was that she was wearing only a thin white tanktop that was almost transparent.

He then looked towards the door and was very surprised when he saw me. He crossed his arms around his chest and hurriedly I turned towards the door so he wouldn't brand me weird anymore.

"Today, what are you doing here?" My toot. I cursed myself who had a hard time speaking.

He panicked when he said he wanted to change clothes. I slightly snapped at him to finish changing his clothes immediately. I'm sorry, I'm still a man. Although Karin does not have a body that is too contained, it still interferes with concentration.

I decided to get out of the room for a moment and what I heard next was that she was screaming hysterically. I went inside again to see him, and he ran towards me saying that there was a spider in his hair. I searched where the spider was, but he pulled the edge of the shirt I was wearing so brutally that we fell to the floor. I put my hand on his head so he wouldn't be in pain.

Instead of standing, we looked at each other for a long time. Fortunately, the voices of my friends interrupted our activities. Otherwise I could have been caliph.

I'm shuffling frustrating hair. I'd be crazy if I kept on beating it. I got out of bed, and out of the room. I feel a little thirsty.

I went down the stairs one by one and was very surprised to see the door open. I ran out after checking around. Who knows if there's a burrow coming in.

What I found was even Karin who was sitting leaning on the big pole of the house. She's alone. The girl was only wearing pajamas without a jacket even though the outside air was very cold.

I approached him and found him half asleep. I mean, he's drunk. How could he be drunk? We did not drink earlier. Airish won't allow it.

"Today, what are you doing here?" I asked while shaking his shoulders. He opened his eyes. He tried to stand up. But her name was also a drunk girl, she staggered. I helped him stand up.

He began to make it unclear. Sometimes he laughs and whines. I am even amused to see her behavior like this. He also punched me in the chest because I was trying to help him stand up.

"Don't whip me up. I'm sorry to see your face!" He spoke in a typical drunken tone.

I just shut up.

"Why are you still here, huh? Stay with me." Further again. I'm still waiting for him to mess up.

Then he started whining like a desperate man, "Why do you deketin Somi? Don't you love me?" Ask again. It made me stifle. Then the girl started clawing at my face with her sharp nails.

While trying to stop her action, she was nauseous and then vomited on my shirt. I just shut up. Resignedly. There's no way I'm letting go of my hold on him. He's gonna fall because of it.

"Lo got me ya Guanlin. Watch out for the other's whims." He's back to messing.

I didn't care much about the mess just now even though it affected me a little. I put it on my back and took it into the room on the 1st floor.

After giving him a drink and cleaning up a bit of vomit marks on his shirt, I blanketed him. Then I'm leaving. My intention to drink is not. I went back to my room, and the girl's words kept me from sleeping until morning.

TC")