Not the Dream Palace
Chapter 47. Pain

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Chapter 47

At night when Rela fell asleep Irwansyah sat next to her she ceaselessly prayed that Rela's desire to leave for a while, could be changed. He was afraid that this was the beginning of the destruction of his household with Rela. He really didn't want that to happen.

He recalled their journey from the moment they first met until he expressed permission to ask for polygamy. It turns out to be so heavy in keeping the feelings of the people around him. Not just between his two wives, but from the people between the three of them as well.

Early on he underwent polygamy his intention was purely to worship. He wanted to perfect his religion Azizah by marrying her. To be honest he had enough of having Rela as his wife.

Irwansyah held onto Rela's hand which she would one day miss. Then, he kissed Rela's fingers gently.

"I'm sorry" said Irwansyah.

Rela who was pretending to sleep heard her husband's words. In his heart he wanted to hug the man who had accompanied him for two decades in his life. A man who always brings him to new flavors and colors in his life. The man who became his first love besides his papa.

Rela felt her forehead kissed by Irwansyah. He was happy when he got this kind of gentle treatment from Irwansyah long ago.

"Wherever you are, may you always be happy and healthy. You often get sick if I am not beside you" said Irwansyah.

"I'll wait for you here with the kids. Make sure that you can't get away from me, just as I can't get away from you. Only the children can make me strong when you are not with me later," continued Irwansyah as she stroked Rela's cheek.

"Son, you should be fine, yeah. Do not make Mother in distress. Come out easily later. I always look forward to your presence, in this world," said Irwansyah as she rubbed Rela's distended stomach. The baby inside her stomach twitched clearly and it made Rela a bit uneasy.

Irwansyah also kissed Rela's stomach, as if kissing her son to calm down again. After three kisses from her father, the baby stopped moving.

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In the morning, Rela was getting ready to be brought by Satria. His twin sister said that Rela would be brought to Singapore. However, Rela did not want to leave Indonesia.

"Bang, I'm leaving first," said Rela as she kissed her husband's hand with tadzim.

Irwansyah kissed Rela's head and prayed for good for herself and their baby. As the two stared at each other, Irwansyah could not help but kiss Rela's pale lips. He kissed the lips softly and soulfully. Although he was a little disappointed because Rela did not return the kiss.

"If there's anything, call me as soon as possible," said Irwansyah and Rela just nodded.

"Titip the children," Reply Rela before she is taken away by Satria.

Irwansyah escorted Rela away with teary eyes. He hopes this decision does not make him fall to the destruction of his family.

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Rela only smiled faintly in response to Satria's question. He doesn't want to make everyone sad.

"My disease is still treatable" Rela replied.

"You are just there. So, we're gonna have to play a drama like this, right?" Satria pinched her cheek.

"So big brother when will you introduce my future wife to me?" tanya Rela switched her twin talk.

"Two times have failed when going to get married, making me a bit traumatized as well" Satria replied.

Rela laughs to remember the love story of his twin. Twice he made a proposal twice and he failed to get married.

"That's, brother quality because it used to laugh at me who wanted to marry young," said Rela.

"You were nineteen years old. Where are you still in college, do you not think, how about having a child." Satria is a cooker who opposes Rela and Irwansyah's relationship. Because, according to him Irwansyah had stolen Rela from him and his papa.

Irwansyah and Mama Fatonah returned home after Rela's departure. He felt that the house was different taste or aura. As if dimming the warmth of a house and feel lonely (i often feel that the house without a mother, if going out of town, always feels different. Silent and not gloomy).

Irwansyah went into her room which she occupied with Rela. He slept in the usual place Rela lay down. The smell of his body he could still smell. Irwansyah's eyes unintentionally looked at a calendar. There's a date circled by a red ballpoint pen. Then, he went to see why the date was marked. There is written '1th wedding of Bang Irwan and Azizah'. 

Irwansyah's heart felt pierced by hundreds of sembilu. He did not expect that today was exactly one year they lived polygamy.

"Why are you doing this, honey?" murmured Irwansyah and took a strong breath as if the oxygen in her lungs had run out.

After school, Azizah invited Irwansyah to speak together in her room. The couple stared at each other in silence. 

"Bang, if my existence instead makes your relationship with mbak Rela stretch, I better have to break away. I don't want the children to lose their mother's affection and attention" Azizah said in a trembling voice.

"Do you know that if a woman asks for a divorce from her husband for no reason justified by religion (for wrong) it will never smell (for him) the smell of heaven." Irwansyah stared dislikefully at the thought of her second wife.

Azizah was silent, actually she also did not want to part with this man she loved. However, he also did not want to be a thorn in the family life that had been happy. In the past, he was willing to accept this polygamous life confident that they could both find his life and happiness they could achieve together.

"But, Bang. I am so depressed in the current situation. I felt that all this was because of me," Azizah said, and her cries finally broke.

Irwansyah felt that right now it was not only her and Rela who were feeling heartache. But the same thing was felt by Azizah.

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Will Irwansyah be able to maintain the integrity of her household? Or will he let go of one of them? Wait for it to go, yeah!