P R O S E S
P R O S E S 1

*Friends....

If I'm wrong in saying please tell me where I am...

Don't you blame my clothes.....

Don't judge me for my mass....

I need your support to improve my process...

Not an insult, even a mess that I want from you...

But it's your support that I want*

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People look at me with strange looks. I stopped looking at my clothes, thinking if there was anything wrong with the clothes I was wearing? I've been wearing it like this for almost a month. It's not important that I think about that either.

“Assalamualaikum”.

“Walaikumsa—“. Saying hello was interrupted, everyone in the class fell silent, Noticing someone who was on the doorstep from above to below.

“kesambet what is he?”

“dia why?”

“that boy why yes, suddenly changed so kek power ranger”

“imaging”

“sok alim”

“subhanallah”

Various kinds of other talk that he dreaded on the day that he considered it would be fun to meet his friends, friends of friends in the campus even reality is not in accordance with expectations. He made it fall.

“weyyy this lo serious? Lo again ga imaging right to make climbing right?”

“Please ra please klo lo want to climb do not go to gini ra how to fear cave,lo rich ninja hatory klo rich gini”.

“or don't lose money *******, this is just common sense lo doang ya hayoo ngakuuu!”

“sehhh cave boy nanya instead of answered even in smilein doang”.

“swear ra lo ga very suitable use ginian. Try to see your pakian lo from the top of the bottom sampe usually yes lo catar, fashionable, fashionable, graceful, bodygoals, curves you look. Lah is now fashionable aja boro boro. The mother's mother's daughter's daughter's daughter's daughter who wants to deket again the same lo kalo lo kayak like this”.

“tauu lo sok alim, ga match ra same behavior you are still mocked

Pake clothes syar’i but morak is still bad, mending lo back second again dehk rich first klo akhlak lo dah nice new you can wear clothes that cake mother-mom”. Overwrite aufa with a gasuka stare.

Rania closed her eyes, squeezed her clothes, honestly her chest ached at the confession of her best friend that she thought would support her but was overturned by the fact that dropped her with a very painful word. He realized that what his best friend said, aufa was not entirely wrong. Rania admitted that her morals or behavior is still said to be far away even very far away. But doesn't everyone have a chance to change to fix everything?

Astagfirullah. Rania lirih.

“You can blame me for my morals but please don't blame the clothes I wear because everyone needs a process to change. Even butterflies have been a disgusting thing before they become beautiful. pray that my character can be better as you say and can be a beautiful butterfly. I'm sorry” said rania with courage before finally leaving her two best friends.

“yeee which is so holy different yes how to say”. Chirps auf

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Since the events of that morning, his friends and even his best friend even one by one began to stay away from him. Dikantin is usually where he and his two best friends gather and joke around after the course is over. Now he could only stare from a distance and try sincerely.

“ohh this is the one who is looking for new sensari”

“seeking sensation by changing the appearance”

“mending our kayak yaa ordinary aja but gapernah nyari sensation”

- mending you all quiet, rather than commenting on those authors

Not bleeding but feels so painful, maybe that's all that can represent the feelings of rania when hearing people talk about her. Rania mengjamkam eyes trying to stay strong he did not want his struggle so far destroyed just like that even though he was still far from the word shalihah even very far from the word shalihah.

On the other hand Rania smiled wryly while remembering the events of her time. How stupid he used to be even now rania still feels unworthy to be categorized as a Muslimah. He felt ashamed of the creator, feeling unworthy to accept the opportunity when he had failed Him.

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*To be continuous

june 01, 2020

-nabil*-