P R O S E S
P R O S E S 2
"Assalamualaikum" said Rania as she entered her yard."
Wa'alaikum.... Oh, why are you?" asked Sesil-Mamah Rania when she saw the look on her son's face. Sesil understood how Rania felt.
" What Mom said. Said ngeyel si, it is difficult to wear clothes like that again. Then why did the kekampus wear such rich clothes so don't you just use mukena?"
Rania squeezed out the end of the long veil she was wearing, her chest was extremely painful when she heard it. The pain that Rania felt when her friend was in the classroom commenting on the clothes she was wearing was not as painful as Rania heard at this time. Rania thought it had been less than a month for Rania to wear her Mom would support her but the reality was not the least to support her on the grounds of following the flow of who wore such clothes. Astagfirullah.
The circle of fluid that accumulates is fertilized by Rania's eyes as hard as Rania's strength to hold so as not to plunge freely to divide her cheeks. Tired up? The cape? Sure did! Rania admitted that. He was tired of facing the talk that made him fall as a fall. Rania also did not want her defense that she had built to be destroyed just like that when she heard the painful talk that went into her hearing to penetrate her heart.
Give the servant the strength of O Rabb to pass this test.
"You're horrified, Ra, what did you say?"
"Iya Rania Dengerko, I want to go up first Mah, want to go to the room" Pamit Rania left Mamahnya just like that.
In the room weeping Rania broke just like that. He was really tired of this day. Cape is all dealing with this. How inappropriate would she be to become a better Muslim woman until everyone commented scathingly about her and the clothes she was wearing?
Rania rubbed her face in a huff, several times her mouth chanting the words of Istighfar, strengthen the servant of Ya Rabb.
Rania smiled faintly as she looked at the pink polycadot Mushaf inside her nightstand drawer. When was the last time the girl read it? Nor does he remember the last time he touched it.
Perhaps by reading it his heart was calm. Verse Per Ayat Rania chanted although still brick in reading it. His heart trembled violently as he read the Verse, a clear liquid was fertilized his eyes immediately plunged freely down his cheeks without permission.
No man can believe without trials. Allah Swt said, Does the man think that they are left (only) saying “We have believed”, whereas they are not tested again?(Qs. Al’abut [29] :2).
No human being can succeed without a sense of testing. And so is hijrah. If in the process of hijrahmu tears accompany your steps, believe hijrah accompanied by tears is much more meaningful. Because from there we can understand the true meaning of hijrah.
Continue to be istiqomah, even if someone supports you in the wrong way. Keep smiling if the chest tightness becomes more. Reply to them by praying that they will be guided immediately and continue to invite them to increase your hijrah friends.
Yes muqalibal quluub tsabit qalbi’ala here
O Lord, be thou of the Most Rejected, this firmness remains above thy religion.
Allah is Most Good has given an answer through the medium of writing derived from the instagram da'wah account which represents the feelings that rania feels today. Rania's task in the future is only to focus on improving Lillahi Ta’ala, solely because of God. Without having to ignore the painful spicy words. Innamal a’maalu bin niyyah. All good intentions are intended because God will be beautiful.
“Bismillahirahmanirrahim, the spirit of Rania you can definitely pass this test” his support on yourself.
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*To be continuous
june 01, 2020
-nabil*-