PARIAH
The Night of Memories
“Will you give half of your grief” asked Hoshino-sensei with a serious face and his eyes looked at my eyes filled with tears
In response to the Proposal from Hoshino Sensei my heart became moved and all the burdens of my life , problems , bitterness that occurred due to misfortune , everything turned into bargaining and it did not hurt anymore , because of the beautiful sentence mentioned by Hoshino sensei that made me realize it turns out that even though I am the most unlucky human being there are still others who are willing and willing to give help and do it sincerely .
I wiped my tears and my snot using my dirty and dirty clothes filled with the dirt of my former workplace and with a dirty, wet face, filled with dust, dirt & dirt , and snot I said seriously responding to the help from Hoshino-sensei
“ Sensei , thank you for making sensei worry I'm just a little moody because I did wrong at work and my fierce boss scolded me firmly, so this is what's happening right now
……ehehehe..” I replied to Hoshino sensei with a fake smile telling a reality overgrown with lies
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(Hoshino sensei looked at me for a moment so much that it made me nervous)
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Then after that Sensei sighed in relief
“Thank God it was not a big problem, I was worried about the trivial” replied Hoshino sensei relieved
“a..ha.ha...ha yes ? it's kind of weird to see people crying just because they're scolded by their superiors, it's really not cool you know ? true....really funny yes...ahahaha” reply I tried to lighten the atmosphere of the conversation which is now starting to be light and not heavy.
But responding to my reply Hoshino sensei looked offended and he approached my face making me nervous and retreated back , then both of Hoshino sensei's hands touched my dirty cheeks due to the soil mixed with tears and rubbed my face with smooth and clean fingers so that his fingers became dirty because of it
“A..anu sensei ?” I began to be confused by Sensei's attitude towards me
“no.....................Sira-kun what you are experiencing at the moment is not funny at all “ replied Hoshino sensei with his face so cold and approaching my face that it frightened me , confused and embarrassed
“ma..sorry I did not mean……
“Saddened and crying because your boss scolded you is natural and you should not be experiencing this time .
After all, at this time you should be in school, joking with friends, experiencing success or failure in learning, enjoying clubs, tourism with classmates, enjoying cultural festivals and graduation , or even fall in love.
Not enjoying a life slap , because those times you can only feel once and you will not be able to feel for a lifetime again but instead you sacrifice times - precious times that are more valuable than the treasures in the world it's “ explained Hoshino sensei told me the reality of my bitter life and then let go of his grip on my cheek and cleaned his finger with a handkerchief
But even so I smiled and again - again told a big lie to Hoshino-sensei
“Duh..sensei.sensei said what the hell, I did not sacrifice my youth, besides I also school kok , because of work alone so I had time to take a few days off “ I replied lying to Hoshino-sensei and turned away from him and kept my distance with Hoshino sensei.
Hoshino-sensei is such a nice woman, when I touched her car with my dirty hands she forgave me and didn't fire me , when I was sad he sincerely gave help and gave hope so that at this time I could rise again , yet Hoshino-sensei is a pure and clean woman I don't want to involve Hoshino sensei in my dark, gloomy, hopeless circle of life .
This sin and darkness should let me bear it
“Sira-kun tell me....what makes you so willing to sacrifice something precious ?” ask Hoshino sensei
For Hoshino sensei's answer this time I won't cover up and lie to him, then I look back at him seriously and say firmly
“UANG !!! for me MONEY is everything, because MONEY can make me survive compared to my youth”
Hearing my response Hoshino-sensei immediately looked confused and his face also held back laughter after listening to my cheesy-sounding argument that offended me and made me flirtatious to say
“A lucky human like you might understand, after all you also do not have to worry about tomorrow and tomorrow my answer is filled with anger because I envy the situation of Hoshino Sensei who is inversely proportional to me
“Pfft.....no....not so Sira-kun, more or less I understand your situation.....”.
Hearing Hoshino sensei's words that seemed to understand the darkness in my life, of course my anger was turbulent, my face flattened and I looked at it with a cold look then I told him in a cold tone
"UNDERSTANDING……….? Understand,.....what is it ? human.....like you will not understand .....let alone a lucky human like you...” I answered while holding back my emotions
“Of course I understand..Understand your situation, and I don't think what you're going through is that complicated…”ansi Hoshino Sensei sounded relieved and with a smile that made my emotions overflow and I immediately approached him and immediately grabbed and pulled his collar and shouted loudly in front of his face saying :
“PAHAM ?! SENSEI DOES NOT UNDERSTAND …..?!DON'T UNDERSTAND ..?! AND WILL NOT UNDERSTANDMMM…….SENSEI DID NOT UNDERSTAND AT ALL ! RICH PEOPLE LIKE YOU WILL NOT UNDERSTAND AND WILL NOT P-ER-NAH !!! IF ONLY I HAD AS MUCH MONEY AS SENSEI…..IF ONLY …….EEL….AR….GA…….I DIDN'T DIE.KAN..……..IF..IF…..IFAA--..” as I screamed out all my feelings my tears arrived - suddenly back dripping , my throat became sore and my brain kept replaying the memories of the times when my whole family left me alone to this day
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“JIKA….I.... (slowly I let go of my grip on the collar of Sensei's shirt and kept wiping my tears )
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“JIKA….L'M….NO. ALONE……”myself keep saying it but my throat hurts my tears continue to glisten and my emotions are really unstable so immediately turned and away from Hoshino sensei then I continue to rub my eyes with force and try hard hiding my bad self.
Hoshino sensei then walked over to me and hugged me and put my head on his big breast while stroking my dirty hair
“At last............., finally ...................., you said honestly , those words are what I want to hear from you....” replied Hoshino sensei while continuing to stroke my hair. And I still couldn't stop shedding tears as my memories continued to play on my bitter memory and my miserable condition
“Yosh………….Yoshi……………..Yoshi…………..….Sira-kun.you have been through many things.you have been great through this life struggle , now it's okay - can you let go of your sadness for now” Hoshino replied again to me while continuing to caress my head like a mother
Now I know the reason behind sensei's laughter over my previous argument is not to offend or ridicule me , but the reason behind the laughter was so that I could open myself up to myself so that Hoshino-sensei could accept it and I would not have to hurt myself anymore . Behind this cry I also feel relieved because in the end the pain of this misfortune of life I do not need to be harbored anymore because in the end I have found the light in the midst of the darkness of my life .
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After I cried for about 10 minutes without stopping I finally finished and I broke away from Hoshino sensei's embrace and realized that sensei's clean work clothes became dirty from tears , the snot and dust on my face so as to realize it I immediately bowed and said sorry for my impoliteness
“A….Anu sensei is sorry that I dirty your clothes” I replied as I bowed in apology, but this time I did not beg because I was sure sensei would forgive me because I trusted him
“It's okay - after all I don't like this outfit either, it's too formal “ sensei replied to cheer me up so I don't worry about the flaws I showed Hoshino sensei
“by the way Sira-kun because today is already night what if we talk about this tomorrow aren't you still working ? if it's not wrong at Toyosha ? Let's let me walk” replied Hoshino sensei offering a ride and I can hear now Hoshino sensei no longer uses formal language but uses language for the closest people
“about that.......emm....I just.............in.........fired”I timidly and hid my face.
“Wh….FIRED ?!” hoshino-sensei replied in shock to hear it then he tried to calm himself down
“mm........sorry......because of the sudden yelling,*EHM *EHM (Hoshino Sensei cleared his throat).................. due to the reason behind why you can be fired I'm sure you have your own reasons ?”answer Hoshino sensei looks at me to confirm his truth and I reply him with a nagging sign “iya”
“Let me guess again......., for your other part-time job because I'm sure you need a lot of money , you were fired ?”asked Hoshino sensei again confirming something from me
“m.....true... sensei “ answered me rather moody.
“ok....I understand ! since you don't have a job you should be free tonight right?” ask Hoshino-sensei
“should be yes but actually I plan to fill my time by being a scavenger in order to get the change..” when I say it reflexively comes the idea in my mind to fill the time I have by scavenging.
“Alright what if today I stop by your house and let's talk about your problem ?” sanya sensei cut my conversation
‘But sensei time is money if I take advantage of the 10 hours of time left on this day I can get 2 dollars, enough for a week” meal needs I replied
“Wh......2 DOLLAR for a week ?!!! No.........no now what is more important today you rest and talk about important things in your home” replied Sensei then he took my hand and pulled me down to the bridge crossing to invite me home forcibly
“but..sensei 2 my dollar... eat for a week..” I replied pleading with Hoshino sensei.
“fuck with 2 dollars I will give you 100 dollars if you obey me now and do not protest” replied Hoshino sensei annoyed ?
“100 dollars ?! Hoshino-ojousama well to hell with scavenging we'll play at my house !!!” I reply to Hoshino sensei's tempting offer and then I get in Hoshino sensei's car and get ready to go home
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In Hoshino Sensei's Corolla Miku, I went in and sat in front of Hoshino-sensei, and then put on my seat belt ,similarly to Hoshino sensei he wears his seat belt so because of that seat belt I can see the curves of his chest clearly , then Hoshino-sensei he immediately started his car so that the Corolla Miku car made a dashing sound.
Inside sensei's car I smell the fragrant perfume of a car that is so soothing and the soft car seat that I sit at this time is so comfortable and can make me sleepy , even my sleeping mattress is not as soft as this it feels really smooth, then Sensei opened his work coat and put in the back seat , as well as opening 1 button of his shirt due to the heat so I could see his chubby cleavage so clearly that made me take my eyes off of him
“HM…? What is Sira-kun “ asked Hoshino sensei who was curious about my behavior
“No Sensei my neck is just a little sore from being tired from work” answered me
“Oh ?” reply Hoshino Sensei then he then began to step on the gear shifting teeth and began to drive
“Oh...ya Sira..your house where ?” ask Hoshino sensei
“rumaku ? in district 2 , behind the motor machine manufacturing factory, let me kunavigasikan”
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During the drive home to my house Hoshino sensei drove so fast and during the trip I and Hoshino sensei just fell silent enjoying the classic music that matched the night atmosphere so that it made me fall asleep during the trip and Hoshino sensei did not mind because he said that he understood the location I told him later after we arrived at the destination sensei woke me up
“Sira-kun ? wake up...wake up.....is this really your home ?” sensei answered waking me up
“Hmm.....iya right…? we have reached” answered me while rubbing my eyes then open the door and get out of the car
“You sure this is your home ? I mean isn't this just cardboard ? and we are right under the fly over bridge.maybe we stray” replied Hoshino sensei worried.
I seem to have forgotten to explain my situation to Hoshino sensei that honestly I actually have a decent house (not cardboard) but the house has become a guarantee if I fail to pay so I should not settle added because I have not paid the building tax, the UN and the land this year kept my house detained by the government so I had no choice but to stay in a cardboard house
Seeing my cardboard house sensei could only be stunned by the shock of my condition and he then looked at me with a signal that I told him to explain everything to himself, and of course I was ready because I trusted him
“Mari sensei enter first , my house is not so big but in it is comfortable I have redesigned the interior so that inside I have 3x4 living room” I replied then I entered my cardboard house which is so luxurious
“SIRA !!!!” suddenly Hoshino sensei shouted in a loud voice
“it looks like we talked about it in the family restaurant only , relax let me treat you don't have to worry “ replied Hoshino sensei
Because I heard the word “traktir” where I can get the opportunity to get free food, especially those foods come from restaurants , fresh , and delicious how could I possibly refuse it is certain that I accept it ?
Finally, Hoshino and I got back in the luxury Corolla Miku sensei back and headed to the family restaurant “Rokku-DAN !” which is where the restaurant provides home-cooked food and ramesan that continues to change every day , honestly I always dreamed for my life where one day if I had no debt I could stop by this restaurant to try the food menu yanng in this restaurant and who would have thought it turned my dream into reality ?
When myself and Hoshino sensei entered this family restaurant all the customers who were eating were men, women, parents, elderly, couples, couples , the children after school and even the restaurant staff looked at Hoshino sensei with a blush and gasp at her beauty and beauty and I could hear the whispers between them, they kept saying
“Who is that beautiful woman?”
If a closer look honest Hoshino sensei is indeed very beautiful her hips are really contained, her body is so sleek elegant , her smooth thighs are covered in black stockings and her hair is also a long smooth plus also with her shirt that she releases 1 button so that her cleavage that looks claustrophobic in her shirt and not wearing a suit so we can looking at the line of cleavage chest that plump and looks tight because of his shirt so that makes him have the impression of Sexy, seductive, charming and seem naughty.
Finally Hoshino and I sat in the back seat , and the servants immediately offered us the menu and I did not forget to thank even though it seemed that the table maid did not care because her gaze continued to be stunned to Hoshino-sensei
“Please...Sira what you want to order?”hachino sensei smiled
I immediately opened the menu book that the table man gave me and looked - see the menu provided , all food certainly looks expensive and looks delicious but the question is why all expensive food menus look minimal and small ? I'd better order a meal Package Kids - Kids Combo A Big Version that I often see in commercials - TV commercials
“Children's package combo A big version”I answer quickly and firmly because the mumpung in the treaty I did not hesitate and ordered a package of food that I think is luxurious and large
“Onii-san....message Package children combo A large version and spaghetti with lamb sauce” replied Hoshino giving the receipt of the order to the male waiter waiting for the order
“Pfft...good miss please wait 10 minutes” replied the waiter held back a laugh, and I also saw Hoshino smiling like she wanted to laugh looking at me
“Before that Sira , I was confused is indeed a package of good children ? you can order hamburg steak, beef wellington or pork roast and lamb chop” replied Hoshino sensei curious about me
“hah……...? of course delicious who does not like the package of children ?” I asked to return because I was confused
“ummm....indeed what is delicious from the package of children ? isn't the food too simple ? you can order another order” replied hoshino sensei curiously
“Simple…..?you mean rice complete with vegetables coupled with fried chicken wings, 4 karaage and steak with tomato sauce with a soft omelette on top of the rice, which if cut the eggs can melt , 4 , and equipped with milk box as a desert you say simple ? children's package is the most special food package compared to steak ham, beef welton, and roast whatever it is...”.
Beef wellington is not welton and Pork Roast” replied Hoshino sensei cutting my conversation with a warm smile
“ah... That's I mean ! the conclusion is the children's package especially Combo A is very special ! all this time I just saw her ads on TV in metropolitan as well as in cardboard even I memorized with her ad song !’answer me with spirit
Honestly, so far, I have never tried the large version of the A combo children's package and it has become my wish to try someday considering the price of 40 dollars plus a stifling value-added tax so at that time I could only see her ads on TV commercial displays in the city center
“really …..? can you sing it ?”hoshino Sensei asked
“Humu~ fine if you insist because I will sing this song only once”
“Let people and people come to Roku-And we provide a new package of nutritious Children Package
Combo A !!!! Karaage, Steak, Vegetable, Omelette and rice !!! the for brave man
Combo!!! Rainbow omelette, ice cream, rice, and chicken wings for hero
Combo Combo !!! Lasagna topped with parmesan and cheese for justice
Children package2x make your family happy together with us !!”
After I finished singing Hoshino sensei shifted his gaze and closed his mouth like he was about to hold something, as well as pull out his phone and had time to point it at me, fufufu………I'm sure Hoshino sensei blushed in embarrassment at my sweet voice
“e..hehe….Mpfc…….Sira-kun….MPFF !!!!!!…….. unique yes...” replied hoshino sensei covered his mouth his face slightly flushed and sweaty because it was like holding something back.
“really ? ehehe.... I was so embarrassed..thanks for the praise his”I'm ashamed - embarrassed and averted my eyes because of embarrassment, honestly because I have not received praise especially from others so that it makes me wrong behavior.
“This lady orders her spaghetti topped with lamb sauce and children's package combo A large version” the table maid then serves the dish on the table and pours the wine in the glass Hoshino sensei
“Omong - Senorita~~...... I've never seen you on my day of work , may I know your name ?” the waiter asked Hoshino sensei with a smile and bowed himself and then held Hoshino sensei's right hand and kissed his ring finger, of course I ignored him and started eating my dishes which were quite luxurious
“HUH........?!” but Hoshino sensei's response was to look at the table maid with a cold gaze and with a denouncing tone that made the table maid depressed and honestly depressed me so I immediately stopped eating and sat down to eat keep my ethics from getting angry, like a child who is on guard - keep from being scolded by the mother
“ti..ti.....it's okay to apologize for my impoliteness” replied the waiter was scared and hurried away
“Ara~ what is Sira ? if you don't eat your food, run cold ? do not - do you want to change the menu ?” hoshino Sensei asked suddenly - suddenly his emotions changed drastically to 180 degrees more cheerful when talking to me
“no sensei , I had choked a little because I was too excited , but just calm down now I've been okay” reply I lied and continue eating me
“Omong - Sira is not talking about when it's time for you to tell the whole story , tonight is a long night so I will hear and receive everything” replied Hoshino sensei with his serious face while putting a napkin on his collar and he took a fork and spoon then started taking spaghetti and spin it in sheep sauce
“baik Sensei....This story may be a little long but I will try to conclude his” answered me.
“ this incident started from 6 months ago precisely in December last year to coincide with my 16th birthday , at that time it should be me and my 15-year-old sister waiting for the arrival of the father and mother who were shopping to celebrate my 16th birthday .
At that time we planned to celebrate the family with a simple banquet party with cut cakes, soup and syrup drinks and prayers as a form of gratitude
But after waiting for almost 4 hours until 10 pm our parents still did not come, so finally my sister and I decided to fall asleep and my birthday could be postponed the next day, ' he said , honestly at that time we had called the police for fear of our parents what - what but our request was not ignored because the time of losing our parents was still not 24 hours -” explained me and menge-pause my explanation to devour my dinner
“last ? how ?did both of your parents come home in the end ?” asked Hoshino-sensei while drinking the wine in his glass glass that was previously poured by the table maid
“initially I thought so , but up to 4 days our parents did not come , even the police did not find any news from our parents , even all our good food ingredients in the refrigerator are almost exhausted and the money we have is also thinning, Sensei knows that for children who have not been accustomed to living alone and suddenly left behind, they certainly cannot do money management well , this is the point where my sister also disappeared” explained me and then devoured the karaage that was scooped
“Your sister disappeared ?! Sira-kun .....” Hoshino-sensei is unable to finish his words
“The name is Tachibana Yurea her current age should have been 16 years when my sister disappeared from home ,He left a letter that he would look for both of my parents and would make them responsible but as a result until now he was not there, I initially tried to contact him but it seemed like he had changed his phone number, then I tried to contact my friends, closest people, and even my cousins but they just answered
“don't know"
so that the reason behind their disappearance came after that” I obviously stopped for a moment and looked at Hoshino sensei calmly
“Sensei.....after I tell you this I will indirectly make sensei's life dirty , and to get out of Sensei's life I suggest that sensei should forget me completely if he can pretend to be unfamiliar……..
Arrived before I finished my sentence Hoshino sensei approached my face and held my face with both of his tears so that I was startled and dropped the spoon and fork on the floor
“Sira-kun as dirty as you are and as heavy as the curse you carry , sensei will accept it and be responsible until the end , therefore Sira from now on you do not have to bear it yourself because Sensei will be on your side from start to end , Understand ?!” Hoshino Sensei asked close to my face
I could feel his breath on my face and I saw his lips so close to mine that I became nervous and my face became red until it reached my ears ,because only this time I interacted with women a very close distance .
“Ba.....baik Sen...sei I continue”retalku then I keep my face away and avert my eyes because I can not hold her beautiful face smooth and calm myself and replace my tablespoon that has fallen off the floor, so I can't help it, seeing my behavior sensei smiled warmly and returned to his seat, I could also feel the envious look that denounced from customers at other tables especially male customers
“The next day there was a group of people coming to my house , I thought at first Yurea had come with her friend but instead who came was a group of Yakuza dressed in black suits with suitcases in their hands , of course I told them to come in because I love life .
when I had offered them entry and offered them bitter tea, one of them introduced himself if it was not wrongly named Tomoe Toneri he was the representative of Yakuza Tomoe , and they gave me a signed receipt document and even stamped with blood in it which is even more terrible that the blood is my blood after it was confirmed ,and there are even photos and signatures that are already legally sealed .
They say that both my parents owe 9 million dollars with a monthly interest of 9000 dollars that must be paid regularly for 30 months they say that the guarantee of a large debt is me this and the contract has been sealed with the law , for a while let me drink first explain the long past this makes me thirsty “ explained I then drink water that is in the glass beside my dining table
“9 million dollars…………….? it's only natural that you try hard to earn any penny” replied Hoshino-sensei
“Of course I didn't give up and let me sin my parents devoured my life to use to pay the debt , I tried hard to find documents that could be used to pay off the unnatural debt ranging from land certificates, building certificates, self-identity, family cards, and so on , and if there is, I'll use my parents' work certificate.
But free , they turned out smartly had brought the entire document so I could not pawn , ' 'em , at that time I also panicked and called all the brothers I had so that made the Yakuza wait and finally one of them had beaten me because they did not like to wait…….
“Hacked ? Sira ?! are you okay?” Hoshino Sensei asked, cutting my explanation, his tone began to panic
“Sensei...quiet ..quiet it has happened in the past , anyway the wound also healed”my answer tried to calm sensei and undress me showed a punch scar that was in the stomach to Hoshino Sensei so he did not worry , but seeing the opposite marks did not make Hoshino sensei calm but made him worry more and more, so I quickly closed my clothes back
“Ehm…….When I asked my brother for help when I hoped for help the opposite response I got was insults, expulsions, Pura - pura did not know me so hang up the phone , and some even cut ties with me .
So I concluded that the reason for the disappearance of my parents was that they ran away because they did not want to fulfill their responsibilities, as well as Yurea I guarantee women ****** it also ran off with my other brother so no one helped me .
But how else? since there was no other choice I was determined to pay my debt, I also used the guarantee of this house to be detained ,and told my condition to the Yakuza but they said that the house I occupied even though it was guaranteed only could pay 3 million dollars with interest as much as 8 months ,so I need to guarantee this organ of my body during - time defaulted as much as 10 months .
At first I was optimistic there was no way I could default for 10 months if I worked part-time and didn't take a day off , but those hopes were shattered because they said that my parents had defaulted on 9 months and if this month I couldn't pay I had to sell one of my organs to pay 1 debt million dollars with interest on slowness
amounting to 1,000,000+9000 dollars plus creditor tax and administrative fee of 50,000 dollars, for that I guarantee my Kidney to pay it then.
Regarding the house because of the letters - the letters were taken away ., the Yakuza put the status in “surveillance” so I can not occupy it, he said, and for his tax needs I must still bear legally because if not if the house is controlled by the state because of default tax , and if that happens then the Yakuza will sue legally and I will be subject to a 600% fine% from the amount already owed so that I have no other option to pay off the annual tax debt.
But unfortunately sensei for this year's taxes both my parents have not paid and even defaulted in the previous 4 years so this May which is the reporting month is already the threshold where my life is at stake because debt , more or less like it's my background” Obviously I'm long and then go back to devouring my dinner
“ of the month …? Sira is now the 16th day, and you only have 14 days for payment for this month.....Sira are you sure good - fine this month ?”.Hoshino Sensei looked at me worriedly
Hearing Hoshino sensei's explanation I immediately realized an even more bitter reality
“The debt that I have to pay today is 9000 dollars with a debt of 300,000 dollars r and regarding taxation I have to pay the land and buildings for 100,000 dollars plus a late fine of 200,000 dollars , means the end of the month I have to collect 609,000 dollars and my current money emm.........” I then count with my finger and realize I only have 123,600+100 dollars , in other words I have to raise 485,300 dollars by the end of the month
“emm...... I'm sure it's okay if I sacrifice the money to eat , and work 8 places I'm sure can , oh....ya after all...........losing 1 kidney does not make a human die right…..right ?”my answer was optimistic but I could not hide my fears and doubts in front of Hoshino-sensei
“ I thought you must not be ready, right ? *SIGH” replied Hoshino sensei sighed and then put his spoon and fork on his plate and then took the black card from his bag
“use this card to pay off your debt in it can not pay off your debt entirely but at least the money in this card can cover payment installments up to 4 months in the future” replied Sensei thrust the debit card in front of me
“HAH ?!?! Really ,Sensei what can” see the offer given Hoshino sensei rays of hope rising in the darkness of my life and I need not fear losing my kidney for this month maybe I should accept it
“of course Sira-kun , because sensei has said that sensei will accept it and take responsibility until the end of”, replied Hoshino sensei with a warm smile then I then received a debit card filled with money to pay off debt and interest installments
But Hearing Hoshino Sensei's sentence I thought 2 times and then returned the debit card to sensei
“Sira-kun……? Why ?” ask Hoshino confused
“Sorry Sensei I really appreciate the help and sincerity of sensei but...” I replied with doubt - doubt.
“But…..WHAT ?! don't you know, if you fail to pay your debt will increase and if you fail to pay this month your kidneys will disappear !After all you have lost a lot of your main job how can you cover your debt this month just by relying on 1 place work and scavenging ?” hoshino Sensei replied angrily, then he tightly grasped both hands tightly with both my hands with his smooth and warm hands
“I know….I know, but..but this is not true, all these debts and sins are due to the deeds of my blood and make others bear it without any effort it feels….How ya how to express his I mean is this...I do not..”aku so confused to describe my feelings into words.
“ah...iya ! my point is my pride doesn't allow me to accept it, at least for me to do something that makes me worthy of the help of such a kind-hearted sensei , I know this is the reason it's weird but this is how I feel right now
However hearing my response Hoshino-sensei was stunned and did not even look at me while looking at his debit card for a few minutes , ' he said , bad don't don't I just did a hnal that made Hoshino sensei hurt ? If you see Hoshino sensei has indeed offered help and wants to share the burden of my life's misfortune but I refused it I know it hurts , but I feel not right because all of this happened because of me and the beginning of my life makes others bear it while I do nothing - what feels very wrong and makes me not much different from the attitude my parents who left the burden to her children and ran away without responsibility and I do not want their rotten attitude I follow
“Pfft....KYAHAHAHAHA...AHHAHAHAHA” Hoshino sensei instead laughs out loud - bahak even though he laughs because his face is beautiful , he looks so cute that it makes my heart beat - pounding
“Hahh,....Hahh...Hahh....sorry, sorry I didn't mean to mock you just Sira you are really unique well ..” replied Sensei looked at me with a smile on his face and he rubbed his tears out of laughter
“U...ummm thank you ?” my answer is confused
“HAAA................HAAAA……………..If you clean hard think so well I will try to think about it, but do not beg me later yes if you regret” replied Hoshino sensei then put his debit card back in his bag
“Alright....since it's already night what if you stay at my house ? tomorrow on weekdays meet me in my study, we will discuss about your new job” replied Hoshino sensei smiled and winked his left eye at me cutely so that I had a mild diabetes due to his smile so sweet
“Thank you Hoshino-sensei for helping me, I'm sorry because if I trouble you, I'll bow respectfully
“maa...maa... no need to hesitate”balas Hoshino sensei.
“but Sensei you are really fine if I was the same age as sensei I might fall in love with sensei “ I replied jokingly in order to lighten the atmosphere
“Na…….Na………..HAAA????!!!!…….What the hell are you talking about......mu....”ansi sensei who arrived - arrived nervous and then took his eyes off and I could see his ears blushing.
“sensei....mmm.....anu sorry” serious don't - don't I offend him ? I guess in the world of romance Hoshino sensei is used to it and I'm sure he already has a girlfriend so I can be a little seduced to be a joke , maybe the joke I said was impolite should not do it again for the future because I was saved
“.……..NGGG.....Forget..by the way - by the way because it's been night how if you stay at my house so that tomorrow you don't come to school”tawar Hoshino sensei tried to calm himself.
“No need sensei after all the distance my house is close from here no need to bother - bothered”amku refused the offer of sensei with smooth , after all, in my house there are assets that are used to pay debts and the rest of my favorite property I left there, so I can not leave it
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Hoshino sensei then looked at my face with a moment then after that he wiped his mouth with napkin and prepared - ready
“well if so , if you want I can drive you home” bargain Hoshino sensei
“Really ?! Thanks sensei !” My reply was happy that I could ride the luxury Corolla Miku sensei once again before my day ended
In response to my response Hoshino-sensei smiled in agreement, after which Hoshino walked the cashier and paid for dinner today , I could see the numbers on the bonds that came out when Hoshino Sensei had paid but did not take the 210 dollar figure that made my heart almost stop beating .
After finishing our long dinner Hoshino-sensei drove me home to my house under the fly over the pedestrian bridge, both of us said hello to see you tomorrow , and after that I went into my cardboard house and then went to bed to finish my exhausting day.
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