Person To Three
A Complicated Love

It turns out there is a deep taste

And,

I just found out, to love someone, to love each other,

There will never be a perfect truth to anything,

Letting go and forgetting love..

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Charlotte Pov

I fell silent when a confession I never imagined was now heard repeatedly in my ears, I tried not to hurt someone but it never worked.

I'm selfish, I learned to be selfish. Selfishly loving people who are not really mine. I who try to forget and let go cannot. This heart is incapable, it is trying to leave but it cannot. This heart keeps trying to love him.

My habit of being a third party is not something that I accept easily, accepting someone who already belongs to someone is also not an easy thing to accept. But what is my day when love itself does not want to go from my heart.

I feel the most despicable, the most disgusting person when I'm holding on to a relationship I shouldn't have maintained. But I can't leave, I can't escape the fact that I love people's husbands.

The pain I had received when the betrayal committed by my fiancee made me end up with a male figure who had a wife, he said, now I'm stuck in a forbidden love that doesn't exist. The love that was not supposed to grow is now growing bigger. 

I'm the cruelest woman, I'm the most selfish woman to let a wife's heart hurt because of me. Suppose that nothing happens, maybe this heart will not feel guilty until this moment. 

A holy marriage must now be tarnished by me, a marriage that heaven has promised may now be hell for them. Is it destiny that I should love with pain? Or is it fate that I should be willing to be the third person of the person I love?

I love her but I don't want to be a fool either, I don't want to lose her but I don't want to be a stupid woman either. Maybe if later he returns to the arms of his wife maybe there is where this heart must succumb to really leave for good. 

" Dear what are you thinking?" I was shocked when a hug from behind made me look back. And I just realized that I'm not alone in my apartment.

I smiled touching her hand that was coiled around my stomach. " No one's just thinking about my schedule tomorrow." I can't possibly admit what I'm thinking, but I still appreciate what's going on right now.

" Really?" But I don't think he could just believe it.

" Honey, there's nothing I think about other than work."

" All right, let's get in here cold isn't good for your health."

I never imagined if it happened to me, I could not think or imagine at once. I also never imagined that I would be the third party of someone else's relationship. 

Sad and happy as if to be one and that is impossible to deny, I also can't escape the fact that I'm the same woman out there who's willing to be a third party when love says it.

Is this destiny?, is this love? I don't know either, but what is clear is that right now I love because of destiny which has brought me into the trap of love for people's husbands and I have taken the decision to keep the love even though the world later scorned me with harsh words even if.

" Dear you know in this world maybe not all women want to be a third party but somehow my heart says that I am willing to be the third person in your relationship with your wife. Maybe I'm selfish not thinking about his feelings but here I'd be willing if later I was insulted by the whole world though."

I said what was on my mind, looking at him intently. I also know this is also not possible he wants, standing between the two women who will later one he chose is not an easy thing. 

Standing between the figure of a wife and the figure of a seductive woman is also not an easy thing to live, at this time it might be not difficult for him but later his heart will determine is the difficulty between these relationships.

" If this world will insult you, throw you away even though believe me there is always me holding your hand, there is I who always hold you and stand in front of you to protect you. Never blame yourself for standing in the middle of us, because this relationship is established because we both want it. If one of us doesn't want it then this relationship never happens."

We looked at each other with eyes that always emanated sincere love, I knew he was so sincere in loving me just this meeting was wrong. Our love is wrong, the love that grows when we have each other who was next to us before.

And I also can't deny that this relationship happened because we both wanted this relationship. A forbidden relationship is impossible if neither party wants it. 

" Never think that only you are guilty here, but both of us and I will also bear the consequences later. We will face this same problem, not only you who will face the world but both of us, he said, remember honey that this is a relationship we both are not just one party who will fight but both parties who will fight each other."

Either I have to be happy or I have to be sad to hear he will never leave me no matter what, and he will always be here even if the world forbids this forbidden relationship. I held her crying in her arms.

Now I feel that the wife is the most stupid woman for wasting a man who seems to glorify a woman. She loves me so much right now, but I'm just a woman who probably won't be chosen to be by her side. His wife encouraged him to go slowly.

And now I feel so envious that his wife was loved for so long, two years is not a short time, whereas I still feel a new love growing for these few weeks.

And in fact due to this outrageous feeling there are consequences that are not arbitrary, and one of them is difficult to let go and difficult to forget.

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