Person To Three
Love That's Complicated 2

I think I'm holding fast to your love,

In fact, all I hold strong is Bara, Bara,

The one that grows is not a beautiful flower,

But it was I who was Burned Scorched,

Look !!

I was being killed by my own Hope.

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Pov Donzello's

Loving the figure of a wife is the hope of everyone, surviving in an unhealthy household is also not an easy thing. I survived in a household that never gave me complete happiness.

Two years I've been in a zone that never wanted me, two years I was with the woman I thought I loved but two years I never knocked down the big wall she had made. 

She's my wife but it's just status that binds us, I want a little happiness but it never is. I want a glimmer of hope but in fact hope is just nonsense. Hope is hope.

The happiness that I want in fact I never reached, now I realize that marriage not only requires a status and the outlet of desire but marriage also requires the happiness that every couple always wants. 

" Donzello are you sure you want to marry me? We're still just starting a relationship, I haven't had time to think about getting married fast either.." I remember very well that she once said that she wasn't ready for this marriage.

" I love you and you love me too, it doesn't take us long to put off a good thing right?, I want to marry you soon so I can take care of you and your sister. We get married now and then what's the difference? We'll stay the same married, won't we?" P

I also remember that I was the one who forced this marriage to exist, if only he had said he was not ready and I said to wait for his readiness maybe this did not happen.

I think she's not ready to marry me because women think longer than men think. I think he loves me until the word is not ready I don't need to hear. But in fact I was wrong said the word is not ready from him now ends the pain and embers that have been given by him.

I thought his love could make me happy in the household but it turned out that I was alone on the side of happiness while he was only on the side that never wanted me to exist. I had thought that this might just be the beginning of our marriage, it just took time to get to know each other, but in fact two years was not enough to make the wall he built collapse because of the love I gave him.

The shadow of betrayal that was in front of me made my heart so broken, seeing him laugh happily and feel comfortable with the figure of the woman who became his mistress was the thing that made the fire in my heart flare. I lost to the figure of the woman who had filled her heart for three years.

I now feel the most stupid man because I never thought that my wife covered it so nicely until now. The betrayal broke my heart, maybe I'm the dumbest guy ever because I thought that maybe it was just a coincidence and he felt lonely but in fact they loved each other.

The shadow of him making love to the same sex makes this heart unacceptable, making this heart so very broken. The shadow of me who also touched it also made this heart even more angry because I felt I was also the lowest and most despicable at this time.

When everything was broken to pieces there was nothing left in my heart, I met a woman who was able to make me smile again, a woman who is able to make me feel a vibe that I have never felt to my wife. The beautiful woman who is beside me right now. 

I looked at him with a smile that expands on my face, somehow every time with him feels a burden and my broken heart feels just gone. Though this heart is still very disappointed with the circumstances that have occurred. The betrayal that he did made this heart break but seeing his calm face, seeing his peaceful face when he fell asleep made this heart also feel so comfortable and calm.

I still remember how she first asked me for help to be her lover, and still remember very well if she asked for a 'kiss' which made me feel like my heart was shaking so much at the time.

" May your lover ask for one more kiss?" Those words still sounded clear in my ears. 

At first I thought it might just be a moment, but it turned out that I was stuck in my own game, which I ended up falling in love with the figure of the woman I had kissed on the yacht. 

I'm a married male figure who obviously felt something rise up despite just a kiss. I who may never get special treatment from the figure of the wife now feel something different, I get treatment from a woman who is now a third party in the middle of our household.

" Charlotte I'm sorry, I shouldn't have put you in the middle of our household, but I'm not ready to lose any of this either, I'm not ready if you have to go. Losing you yesterday made me realize that I love you."

I know that I love cannot be this sick, but forgive me for being selfish for letting you hurt because I cannot be willing to lose you for whatever reason. 

" I love you and will always be here even if the world forbids us to be together, I'll stay here for you, just for you…" I looked at him as he said with a true word. I know he loves me so sincerely. 

I thought this was just an impingement because I was disappointed with the circumstances but in fact in the stay he went to make my days chaotic and empty and now I know that this love is not just a lust that is i feel. 

I will defend whatever happens later. I will maintain my love despite destiny and the whole world is against our relationship. Right now there's only Charlotte that I'm fighting for until we're at the point of happiness. 

Grace, her name may still be in my heart's place but it's just a name not love for her. My love has chosen the wrong people. The woman I thought was right was even the one who first broke my heart to such an extent.