Peter Samyang (Pepet Continue Until Dear)
43. Expressions Feelings

Baby and Cakra are sitting opposite each other in a chair under a shady tree. The weather is very hot today, but the wind that blows friendly creates a cool effect. The wind that blew softly flew the children Baby's long hair.

"What did you see me?" I don't know how many times that question has been left in Baby's mouth.

"I want to explain what Luna said a few days ago. You hear me talk first until it's over then you're free to decide what."

Honestly, Baby is currently feeling nervous half to death. Why does Cakra have to say he is free to decide something after hearing the story? What story will he listen to? Why should he decide something? Those are just a few questions that pop into Baby's head.

"So after you left the company, Luna was getting more intense and even more eager to approach me. I'm cape, you've got no news. I'd like to call you first, but I feel sorry. Until I finally decided to let Luna with her plan. I let the engagement happen. What Luna said yesterday is true. Our engagement is already determined and just a week's wait. But on that day I also have a plan, I will run away on my engagement day."

Baby reflex opens his mouth wide.

"Brothers sure? It would humiliate the Luna family as well as your own family."

"What else can I do? I had rejected him outright, I had insulted him, but he did not understand my refusal at all. I guess this is the only way to avoid Luna and make her deterred."

"There will be consequences waiting for you if you do that."

"I used to think about it, not anymore. I don't care what I receive after I've made this big mistake. Because I had to choose one. Accepting the consequences I have or allowing Luna to be my wife. And I chose the first choice I didn't want to make Luna my wife."

What Baby's question now is what is the purpose of Cakra telling him this?

"Yes continues? If you decide that, just do it. Why do you tell me this is the same. Do you need my opinion?  My help? Or what? I'm honestly still confused, sir. You are afraid I misunderstood and you are willing to take the time to come here. Who am I, until you're like this?"

"I don't want to be away from you. I also don't want you to think I accept Luna to be my wife. Honestly, after you left the office I felt lonely. Sometimes I also miss you who makes me emotional, who interferes with my work, who makes me drink with all your silly recipes. Moreover, you also seemed to disappear from my life. I don't know when that feeling came from. I just realized one thing. When you stopped breathing from drowning, I felt like I didn't want to lose you. If only you knew how panicked I was at that time."

Cakra suddenly lowered his head. Concerns and fears that had stopped some time ago now reappear. It seems that the death of his wife made Cakra really traumatized to be lost.

"Father felt it because you felt guilty, sir."

"The guilt will go away when you see you're okay. Even when you were out of the hospital, the worry I had for you was still there. Cla, do you remember your ever-expressing words that you would make me yours? You still remember your arguments that always lead to the discussion of life friends? I want to charge it now."

Oh, my God, Baby. Isn't this the moment you're waiting for? You used to want a time like this. Now you're mute?

"It's not funny, sir. Please don't joke," Baby replied slightly shaking.

"Look at my eyes, do I look like I'm joking? Maybe this seems impossible, because if you remember our previous relationship that could not be put together at all. But isn't anything possible? God is turning people's hearts, isn't he?"

"I don't know what to say" Baby replied innocently.

"What do you feel after leaving the company? Didn't see me for a month, was there anything different? Do you miss anything from me?"

"Father should have remembered our last meeting when I resigned. I have shown my feelings when I will part with my father. It's just that maybe you didn't realize it. Let's not wait a month if we don't meet. In the night before I let you know, I spent time crying. I don't know what I'm crying about, I don't know. I thought that all this time I was teasing Father it was a playful thing, not to be serious, just to joke. But it turns out the result of my playfulness was no joke."

Under the wind that is still slowly rolling. They try to find the truth of each speech by looking closely at the two eyeballs of the person in front of him.

With the breeze still blowing, a few strands of Baby's hair were carried away by him. The chakras get rid of the strands of hair that cover Baby's face. Then he carried the hair behind his ear.

"It feels weird, yes we're both sitting here. But, I hope we can get used to this one day."

"What do you expect from me? I'm just an ordinary girl, from a simple family, there's nothing I can be proud of."

"You live for real, not for perfect. Do not feel you have nothing just because you are not abundant in wealth. You have a lot of love, a lot of love for the people around you. Do you believe you can change me? You can make me feel another love after a year of my own."

Yes, it is fortunate that Cakra realized that he fell in love with Baby in no time. Although love does not come at the right time, at least it is not too late to express it. Love has time and plenty of opportunities if Vira uses her best.

"Father was too quick to judge that this was love."

"I told you that, right? I wouldn't judge this love if I wasn't afraid of loss. You can ask your mom if you don't believe me, ask me what I do when you lose your breath."