Rahman Bin Rahimah
CHAPTER 82 Confession and Application

The events of the other day in the restaurant imprint on Abdar's memory, there is a worry that Abdar feels on Rahimah who might just be angry at him. Remembering him who was silent without rebuttal when Adit asked do'a from his employees.

This morning, he took the time to apologize again. If necessary, Abdar will also promise to help explain to Abizar if only until the ketelinga Ustadz that resulted in misunderstanding.

"Emm, Rahman," call Abdar when they're done with breakfast.

"Yes, um?" rahman's reply was calm.

"Can I talk to your mom for a minute?" abdar asked slowly and seriously.

Only the two of them are in the living room, Rahimah is still washing dishes, while Intan also forced to want to help even though there is not much done.

"I mean, just the two of you?"

His father nodded slowly. Although Rahman did not know what his father would talk to his mother, he did allow it.

"Later Intan, you play real" Abdar said.

"Yes, um."

The anger and sadness that Rahman felt when he knew that about the reality of himself to the father, now gradually disappeared. But not necessarily eliminate the sense of disappointment because it never knew the figure of the father from childhood.

In the corner of his heart, Rahman was so disappointed because of his helplessness to call Abdar as his father.

Somehow Rahman could think that far, could conclude it should not be with the call of father.

Usut had a mouth, apparently since the incident he was slapped by his mother ... Rahman incessantly scraped information about child law outside marriage through electronic devices, of course he had. Only capitalize on the word he had heard from Maya, namely 'son har@m'.

With the intelligence that he had, from there he understood little about the things of a child who did not have the nasab of his father.

About the absence of marriage between the two parents, but having children until it can be said to be a disgrace. Of course Rahman also understood what the word meant, and he did not want it on his father's property.

Rahman refused to ask people, especially Ustadzah Habibah or Ustadz Abizar, although he knew adults could give more explanation. He perceives that it's a question that no child as small as he is, so the other way is just his leptop.

"Rahman," a call from Abdar broke his reverie.

"Hmm?" his murmur was small.

"Come," reminded about the plan earlier if Rahman invited Intan to play for a while.

Without answering any more, Rahman stood up and headed for the kitchen.

"Intan, help sister for a moment find the book that you saw yesterday," asked Rahman to approach his cousin's sister.

"Which book is my brother?" Intan's eyes twitched, as if recalling a book called Rahman.

"Yet yesterday, remember the red cover?" Turn towards his room.

"Ohh the red, if not wrong Intan put in the bag the back of the brother." Remember he approached Rahman into the room.

Abdar who noticed and saw them had moved away from Rahimah was quickly approaching the mother of his son who was still cleaning clean dishes.

"Emm Rahimah," call Abdar to surprise Rahimah.

"What's up, mas?" he asked while stopping his work.

"May I talk to you for a second? This is about yesterday!"

Rahimah did not immediately answer, she seemed to think for a moment just nodded. "Can." Approaching the dining table and sitting on a chair, so did Abdar who was sitting opposite him.

"I want to apologize, for what happened yesterday. If Ustadz Abizar finds out and misunderstands .. I will help explain it," Abdar said staring fixedly at Rahimah.

Rahimah shook. "It's okay, ma'am. I know, this is not intentional. So I understand him," responded Rahimah.

"Thank you. But if you need my help, don't hesitate to say it?" abdar said sincerely.

"Together with us." Nodding.

"Mmm ... when is the wedding anniversary?" asked Abdar doubtfully.

He was so curious, in the corner of his heart to pray. 'Try not to be.'

"On that ..," Rahimah paused her sentence.

If he did not say so, then questions like these would always exist. Last night he had also informed his decision, to the trio of wewek and Ustadzah Habibah. So it's good he also said it to Abdar. Her thought.

"I cancelled our wedding mas." He said then looked down.

Abdar gasped and blinked his eyes several times. Suddenly his heart immediately cheered happily. But his common sense tries to think, that don't look happy.

"What ... is this because of yesterday? Is Ustadz Abizar angry? How quickly it gets to his ears?" she thought it was because of an incident at a restaurant that claimed I was close to Rahimah.

"No, I canceled it before I went to the restaurant" he said, staring at Abdar.

Hearing that, Abdar cheered even more happily.

'Is this my chance?' mumbling impales.

"So you're not getting married?" repeated ensure.

"Yes," said Rahimah.

"Imah ...," called Abdar slowly after being both silent for a moment.

Their eyes met and locked, interspersing with each other the feeling of who knew what his name was.

"Can I go forward, to propose to you?"

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Rahimah was flabbergasted to hear it, never thinking that Abdar would say those words.

"What do you mean by Abdar?" the question came out because he suddenly became nervous. Is not it clear from his words.

Abdar sighed, he also held back the nervous aftermath of his spontaneous questions. The heartbeat of both beats unequally.

"I mean, I wanted to propose to you. Want to make amends for all the mistakes I've made before, but with self-awareness .. that's not the main cause." While holding back the nervous Abdar expressed his heart.

This was Abdar's first experience proposing to a woman, and even without any preparation at all. Obviously he was so nervous, what else the woman he was applying for was a victim of him, he was afraid of being wrongly interpreted as wanting to propose her.

"Either since when did these feelings begin to grow. Of us who always meet and the days that follow, this feeling grows and grows just like that. Honestly ... Even I was not willing if you were going to marry Ustadz Abizar. And this is the main reason why I wanted to propose to you."

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Their heartbeats are beating faster than ever.

Again, their two eyes clashed with each other.

"Imah, I love you because of God." Abdar said slowly and confidently.

Hearing the name of Allah tucked between Abdar's confessions, suddenly his eyes condensed and his gaze blurred.

"Only God can turn back the heart of man. Used ... I didn't even care about a woman I had tainted unconsciously. But after we were reunited, my heart trembled and wanted to reach him."

"Can you give me a chance to help me erase my sins? Teach me to be a responsible human being, even if it's too late."

"But is not God forgiving, though his servant is far from late?" he said at length because Rahimah who returned down did not want to interrupt his words.

The two hands of the womb are interlocked and squeezing each other under the table. Nervous and moved by Abdar's words that came out and sounded sincere.

Suddenly Abdar stood up and walked before the womb. Obviously the act made the woman gasp, and was even more unexpected when Abdar knelt down.

Rahimah was increasingly nervous to find the actions of Abdar who classified as reckless took both hands. Lekas wanted to withdraw but immediately also arrested Abdar.

"Will you marry me?"

Wanting it to feel Rahimah hiding from this state, her tongue felt embarrassed by everything that happened. Abdar's actions and remarks left him at a loss for words to simply reject him.

"Will you marry me?" repeated Abdar.

"For Rahman's sake, for our son's sake. And by my love, for God has brought it to you." Falling tears Rahimah with all the recognition of Abdar, moreover there are two words that make him falter. Our son and God.

Slowly the nervousness of the two disappeared, changing with an unstoppable taste of haru.

Clear crystals from the eyes of the uterus continue to fall until it makes it sob slowly. Abdar hurried to his feet and rubbed the two cheeks of Rahimah.

Abdar who tried to calm the Rahimah, and the Rahimah who was so moved. With the blue-faced state, both of them were unaware of the action.

Again and again, Abdar acted without thinking and he only acted using feelings.

At the pull of Rahimah into a warm embrace, until the head wrapped in the hijab was attached to the chest of her field while crying.

Rahman, who was about to come out, was surprised to see the sight. He turned around and closed the door slowly and made Intan also confined in the room.

For quite a while both of them enjoyed the unlimited state. Until finally Rahimah calmed down and immediately realized. Pulling away the embrace Rahimah looked down embarrassed while wiping away the trace of her tears.

"I'm sorry" said the two together.

"No, I should be the one apologizing."

"No, I'm the one who should be apologizing." they came back saying the same word.

The uterus is silent and sighs several times, in order to control its emotions.

Rahimah's cheeks flushed when she remembered the incident just now, she cursed her stupidity. In his heart he wondered why his feelings were so different from when Abizar proposed.

When Abizar asked for his time, he was just embarrassed, but now he is so emotional. Haru feeling, touched and accompanied by shame then become one.

Abdar who responded to the red spray on Rahimah's cheeks smiled in detention. He knew that now the woman was embarrassed and wanted to hide her face by looking down.

"Mas Abdar" said Rahimah in shock as Abdar returned to his knees.

Abdar did not care, he only focused on the eyelashes that still had the remains of clear crystals.

"Will you marry me?" for the umpteenth time Abdar asked while staring softly.

His womb was full, his heart was wet. "I'm sorry, I can't accept it" he said.

Instantly the confidence of Abdar who had just exploded because he saw the red spray on the Cheek of the Rahimah collapsed was not left.

He thought the Rahimah would accept it, but she didn't.

"Is not the slightest bit of my confession that makes your heart beat fast, huh? Can't it rattle your heart, huh?" lead Abdar to find answers.

Rahimah shook her head faintly, which Abdar predicted in response no.

"It's not like that" said Rahimah very softly.

Abdar frowned deeply. "Then?" tanyanya was curious.

"I have just decided on marriage with mas Abi, what do people think if I suddenly accept mas Abdar's proposal?"

Now that Abdar understands the meaning of Rahimah, it will make things more complicated.

"Yes, I get it. I wouldn't marry you right away if you accepted my proposal, huh. Enough you said, yes. Then I'll wait until that day comes."

"So are you willing to marry me? Just answer yes or no, so I can make the decision to wait for you" Abdar said.

"I haven't asked Rahman mas," he looked for an excuse.

"We'll find time to talk to Rahman about this. You just answer that one," said Abdar impatiently.

Somehow with the lightness of the head Rahimah even nodded twice which made both corners of Abdar lifted perfectly to show a row of white teeth.

The womb immediately looked down in shame and threw away another face. Abdar let it go, with all his might to refrain from crossing such a boundary.

Standing from his place of rest without removing his happy smile, Abdar said. "I'll take the school children first, we'll set a time to talk to Rahman." Rahimah did not dare to look at Abdar, she simply nodded in her submission.

Still stuck in a smile on his lips, he also ventured to say the head of the woman in front of it and successfully made Rahimah look up her head to look at Abdar.

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Now the womb is nervous again.

"I go first" said Abdar gently with a smile and a nod to Rahimah.

"Kids, let's go!" call Abdar a little loud to let Rahman and Intan hear.

The next second the two boys appeared. "Ma, Rahman is leaving first." Hand thrusting to shake hands that Intan follows.

"Assalamualaikum."

"Wa'alaikumussalam."

"I go first, and I love you, Assalamualaikum" Abdar whispered.

'"Wa'alaikumussalam." Reply to Rahimah slowly.

Both hands of Rahimah raised to cupped her cheeks. He could feel it if the cheek was heating up. He also did not dare to go down to take Rahman's departure.

'Gosh what's wrong with me.' Inner Rahimah.

On the journey, Abdar was constantly smiling, making Rahman so curious about what he saw earlier. What is clear, Rahman believes that if it is something that makes Abdar happy until he continues to smile himself.

"Why the hell, om? How are you smiling?" chirp Intan who also saw the sister from her mother smiled without pause.

"Huh, why?" Abdar answered with a question.

"Yeee is back! That's um, why that big smile?" reiterate the Intan that Rahman was also thinking about.

"Ohh smile, isn't that smile a worship?" Abdar ambigu.

"Yes if you smile for a while, this is from us leaving earlier om smile continues, is it okay om already gil@ time yes?" plain intan

"What the fuck are you doing about gil@? If you are not sane, you throw it out of this car! Do you want to throw?" gertak Abdar was upset.

"No, no." Moving both hands in front of him.

"Don't get used to calling people gil@!" persemat Abdar firmly.

"What if you're the same person as that?"

"Yes, I'm sorry" Intan regretted.

"Good, next time think before you talk!"

"Yes, um."

Rahman smiled hearing his father who turned out to be very firm if reprimanding.

'Father," Rahman murmured in his heart.

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