REINCARNATION GODDESS OF MEDICINE
68. Guilt
Nangong Li who had just arrived, was too late to stop Chang Rui's actions, just staring at the woman committing suicide right before his eyes.
Nangong Li's hand turned stiff when he saw this, arriving in his mind was imagined how and how cheerful the girl was.
Even when angry, keep smiling and not easily desperate. But, this time, looking at Chang Rui who was so desperate made Nangong Li feel guilty.
"Back, I don't want to see anymore. Get people to bring back the bodies. "Chap Nangong Li coldly.
"Sir, are you so cold ? Sir, are you so heartless ?" Long Yu asked flatly.
"The fact that I still care about the body is what I show as a form of my concern, don't force me to do more than that. " Said Nangong Li.
"Good." Said Long Yu.
Long Yu really wanted to leave and leave Nangong Li like Zhang Yue did, but in the end, he couldn't.
Not because he was afraid of losing his position, but because he was worried that Nangong Li would do something dangerous and risky.
No matter how hateful or angry he was with Nangong Li, but they grew up together and did mischief together when he was young and were punished together.
They went through life and death wars together and lived together for a long time.
It was hard to think that he would leave Nangong Li and return to his family.
Arriving at the residence, Nangong Li immediately returned to his residence and locked himself up, even refusing to meet Liu Qing Yuan.
Everyone thought that he had been chasing Liu Qing Yuan all along out of love. But, Long Yu knew clearly that Nangong Li did all that because he was obsessed with Liu Qing Yuan.
Nangong Li was obsessed with having Liu Qing Yuan and getting Liu Qing Yuan to apologize to him personally.
As for Chang Rui, Long Yu really did not know what feelings Nangong Li had for Chang Rui.
Long Yu silently gave a prayer to Chang Rui so that his spirit would calm down and not suffer any more, gaining a proper reincarnation.
Long Yu thought that Nangong Li locked himself away from the outside world was because Nangong Li felt guilty towards Chang Rui.
After all, unexpectedly , Chang Rui protected him wholeheartedly and treated him, this was an unexpected thing.
Nangong Li really wanted to withdraw the existing deal, but this deal has been signed by him for a long time is not new.
Thus, even when he wanted to find a detour to return and protect Chang Rui, it would not be able to be done by him.
For once again, Nangong Li had been defeated by Nangong Xi again. This left Nangong Li tormented by guilt and frustration.
"What have I thought of doing this ?" Nangong Li muttered on the verge of collapse.
" What have I been doing all this time ?" Nangong Li continued and bemoaned the sky that had turned perfectly dark like night and lightning began to strike but there was no rain.
The shadow when Chang Rui slept inside his arms last night was still imprinted and did not want to be lost, no matter how hard he tried to eliminate her.
Long Yu walked in and saw Nangong Li who was in a state of chaos.
"Take me some wine jars that I've been keeping for the past 2 years. " Said Nangong Li.
Long Yu picked it up in the back room then brought it to Nangong Li, Long Yu brought two cups, one for him and another for Nangong Li.
"Order people to expel Liu Qing Yuan, place him in the holding room. He must be tried for his crimes. He didn't deserve such a good place. " Said Nangong Li.
"Are you doing this out of hating Liu Qing Yuan or because you feel guilty for Chang Rui ? I really don't understand you. " Murm Long Yu while taking her first cup.
"She doesn't deserve to live in such a beautiful place, put her in jail and she'll know what the consequences of betraying me are. " Reply Nangong Li.
The two drank the second, third, fourth and so on cups in silence until finally Long Yu first got drunk and looked at Nangong Li with a bold look.
"I asked, have you felt guilty for Chang Rui all this time ?" Ask Long Yu.
Nangong Li who was still conscious for a moment froze and again lowered his wine cup.
"You've had too much to drink, don't ask useless questions. Why do I feel guilty ?" Nangong Li asked for an excuse.
"If you don't feel guilty, why do you keep locking yourself up ? Why did you expel Liu Qing Yuan ? Why do you want to come to his execution ground if you really don't feel guilty for him ?!" Long Yu asked with a tube.
Long Yu asked her everything she wanted to ask Nangong Li under the influence of alcohol.
Nangong Li thought of every question given by Long Yu and suddenly laughed lightly.
"You're right, why do I have to act like this ? Why should I consider myself a criminal ? " Tanya Nangong Li with a laugh.
"If you laugh like that, it means you are sad. Are you sad about his death ? I know, you wouldn't be so without a heart. I was sad for the girl, she suffered since she was a child, but could still grow up to be someone cheerful and unyielding. If it was me who grew up in such a bad environment then I would have grown up as someone who was a parent and a coward. " Speak Long Yu boldly.
Nangong Li looked at Long Yu and really wanted to silence the mouth that kept spewing out these useless words furiously.
Nangong Li really could not stand Long Yu's behavior and really wanted to hit Long Yu's head with a vase of flowers on his desk.
But, in the end Nangong Li returned to thinking about what Long Yu was asking, did he really feel guilty or not ?
Nangong Li again drank the wine, one cup , two cups, subconsciously dozens of cups had been gulped by him and made him drunk.
One urn was spent by Nangong Li a person with Long Yu who had fallen asleep first.
Nangong Li looked at the completely dark and moonless sky, his pale white and cold face suddenly showing a red hue due to alcohol.
"Truely terrible, how can the effects of guilt be as painful as this ? Why do I feel so claustrophobic just because of this guilt ?" Nangong Li muttered with his body leaning against his wheelchair.
"I really don't understand what you're doing until it makes me feel so guilty. " Nangong Li continued before falling asleep under the influence of alcohol.