
Pov Manda_
My head feels so heavy, that I can't open both eyes so much that I hold the throbbing that feels dizzy. That last memory I still vaguely remembered and then I slowly opened these two eyes with a hint of coercion.
White and still vaguely seen, maybe I was in heaven? Oh wrong, that's too far to imagine. I threw away that thought and then I slowly raised my right hand up. Apparently I was in the hospital with my hands infused. Dress like a patient.
"Why am I here?"
I thought for a moment.
"I'm in the hospital, and it's probably because I was stabbed by Delsi? But where is everyone?"
I sat down and opened my breathing apparatus and grabbed an infusion bag and a gray syall on the table. I put it on and got out of the gurney. The two legs resting on this floor were so clear my body was so weak. With the help of the wall, I walked while holding on to the wall beside me. I walked to the door that was in front of me.
My breath was a bit crowded, but there was something different. It feels like a pierced back should hurt, but there is absolutely no pain.
Cklek!
I finally got the door open myself. I lean my head out and then look to the right and to the left.
"Where are Rafa and the others?"
I am still looking for the figure of my husband and son, but what is in front of my eyes is just another person passing by alternately.
"Is it possible they're in the doctor's office again?"
I bravely went out and brought the infusion bag, thinking maybe they were there. But every step, I glanced at the people around me looking amazed. I felt strangely stared at as if they were looking at me like an amazing thing.
"Currently, what do they think of me? What happened to their eyes? Maybe I made a mistake?"
I quickly walked and walked down the hallways in front of me. Not forgetting my two eyes kept looking for the whereabouts of Rafa and the twins. But I stopped when I felt something strange.
I ran quickly to find Rafa again after my body felt a strange vibration. Without turning my head, I continued to run forward, until accidentally someone who walked from another direction directly hit me.
"Ohhh...."
I fell to the floor, while the person I hit did not fall at all, he was strong enough to withstand the effects of the collision earlier. However, I was very surprised because it was Nerin. I immediately stood looking at him with a bit of uneasiness. Anxious at the thought of her marriage to Noah which I may have ruined due to an incident in the toilet. But when I asked about Noah and Rafa, he was very quick to talk first and after that I was very surprised to hear his words.
...[.Nerin/helena]...
"Oh Manda?"
"Manda's? She called me Manda? Shouldn't it be, Sheila?" I think there's something different.
"Ne-nerin, I'm sorry I hit you, are you hurt?" I want to prove what's inside my head. I thought he was Nerin, but my guess was very wrong.
"Huh, Nerin? Since when is my name like that? Don't you try to hurt me!" he was angry and pushed me a little backwards. Fortunately, I was able to maintain the balance of not falling again.
"Shit, your name really isn't Nerin?" ask me one more time.
"Heh, what is this. You're intentionally like an amnesiac in front of me so you can insult me at will?" said Helena felt that Manda was on a charade forgetting memories.
"No-no, I'm not amnesiac. I'm Sheila, you should call me Sheila instead of Manda, Nerin!" I said I still thought he was Nerin.
"Huhaha, Sheila? Are you fantasizing about being someone else so I don't get mad at you?" helena's laughter then clucked.
I lowered my head, squeezing my hair tightly.
"Helena? Is it possible that she is Helena? If so, am I back?" thought wondering.
"Say! Who're you!" I grabbed her neck collar and asked her to be honest.
"Manda! You're so insolent, you think I'm a criminal you can just haphazardly pull, ha!" he was angry at me.
Instantly even my chest grew increasingly claustrophobic after hearing his statement.
"No! This is impossible! I-I shouldn't be here!"
Helena jumped in shock to see me squatting down and rummaging with all sorts of strange words. Helena was frightened and crouched down. Maybe he thought he had hurt my feelings to the point of feeling guilty, plus everyone's gaze was on us.
"Hey Manda, what's wrong with you?"
Helena pulled my shoulder to look at it, and she was surprised to see me crying.
"Manda... What happened to you?" Helana asked again. He looked worried, probably because my mental state looked strange which suddenly cried.
"Say, who are you?" I said with tears falling down.
"Manda, I-I'm sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you just now. Actually I came here to apologize to you, I'm sorry I ruined your relationship with Rangga."
Hearing him say so, my tears broke. I'm not crying because of her apology, but I don't believe I've come back and left Rafa and my three children. Helena kept apologizing and hugged me.
"Sorry Manda, I have been solemn."
My tears were getting broken, I was looking for the diamond necklace, but nothing at all. I was down crying a lot. "Has the necklace fallen? Or maybe I'm dreaming?" I clapped many times the chest that felt increasingly tight this. I'm not ready to go back in this world.
"You calm down" said Helena, grabbing my hand. I looked into his two eyes, he looked sincerely apologetic. But with an apology, will I feel that happiness again?
I swept my tears, then smiled forcefully. I was no longer angry with him, I was sincere. But what about Rangga?
"Helena, how many days have I been treated?" aska I want to know.
"After you were in a five-month coma, you were re-treated, and you were unconscious for a week after you had complications. But apparently you realized today, I was lucky to meet you and apologize to you. Sorry Manda, I've hurt you."
This time Helena was crying. The look of those wet eyes was very similar to that of Nerin. I hugged her, completely forgetting our past troubles.
"Then how is Rangga?" ask me with a hoarse voice. Helena stood up and helped me too. Helena explained while slightly looking down.
"The host, he had awakened a few days ago," said Helena, not yet strong enough to be honest.
"Thank God," I said with relief and wanted to visit her but Helena cried.
"Hiks. He doesn't remember anything, even he forgot me and his parents."
I was shocked to hear it, it was so shocking. "If he's amnesiac, does that mean he probably doesn't remember Rafa and my kids?" my mind feels pretty broken. Though I want to know why I can return to this world, but in fact Rangga even amnesia.
"You're not lying, are you?" I'm not sure yet.
"I'm not really lying." Helena shook her head. He may feel pain because his struggle is waiting for Rangga to realize even the result is painful. We both turned around after a man called us.
"Helen, why are you crying?" her tan gently hugged Helena in front of my eyes. He was Rangga, and there seemed to be not the slightest glint of eyes for me. The man wearing the same clothes as me really doesn't know me.
"Rangga, this is me meeting an old friend again," replied Helena pointing at me. That's when our two eyes met. Rangga smiled normally and then looked back at Helena.
"Helen, don't stay away from me. Now that we're back," asked Rangga to pull Helena's hand to take her away. Helena looked back, she looked so guilty to me, but I just gave her a bitter smile and saw the two leave.
"Hiks..hiks...is there no chance for me to return?" my son went to bring an infusion bag. Where else should this foot go? Rafa and Triple R are gone by my side, so what good am I here for?
Once again I looked back and Rangga did not look at all. There's so much I want to ask him.
Pov ends_