Reyhan, My husband
Khumaira Nur Jeni's
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"just this? huh uh?"
Plaaakkk Plaaakkkkk
The old bandit slapped me again. Along with my tears.
The corner of my lips has started to bleed. Redder. It hurts so much.
But there's a sore part more than a cheek slap. The heart.
Still stuck, to this day.
It was dark and very stuffy. Where teenage boys who are only thirteen years old are used to being held captive. It's been two years.
That boy was me. They used to call me Rara.
I want to get out of here. But I have nowhere else.
The family? I live as a country. Forgot exactly when, but they've left me all behind.
All that time I was trying to be grateful. At least the old bandit didn't vent his lust on me.
He said as long as my deposit is on target, then I'm safe.
It's true, as far as I know, that's the money we're asking for that's what she uses every day to pay women nights.
We were? yeah, because I'm not alone there.
And for that reason, I became more eager to find the old bandot money every day. Of course from the results of asking.
I do that every day to escape punishment. Especially if it is not violence and harassment.
In that place I was not alone. There were about eleven children. Men and women.
They are the same fate as me.
Both bear the title of beggar. Who else if not an old bandot named Dirman.
More precisely Bang Dirman.
"For Bang..."
Answer me while whimpering. With trembling hands I tried to wipe the blood on my cheeks.
But the Dirman touched him first.
He rubbed the blood gently.
"Prepare to replace my sweet night woman. It's punishment!"
Jderrr
My heart feels weak. My blood pressure feels very low.
I'm limp. Lunglai.
Is this the end of my life?
I know what it means to replace that woman. Served her.
Serving his depraved lust.
I was only thirteen at the time. But I was forced to know circus languages that were not supposed to be spoken.
Languages that are generally only understandable to adults.
I was the only woman Bang Dirman had not touched at all.
"Ra. sorry brother yes, sister can not help you.."
One of the older sisters approached me after Bang Dirman left.
"Sister, Rara doesn't want to serve Bang Dirman"
I cried so hard on the shabby mat. While the big sister rubbed my back full of pity.
Shudder in horror at what Bang Dirman would do to me later.
"Patience Ra, sorry brother can not help anything..
Oh yeah, you I don't live pp right? Brother wants to eat first"
He started to stand up and walked away from me.
I pricked. Turn the brain fast. I think this is my chance to escape.
"Sister, can't you if Rara just bought something to eat, then,? Rara pingin forgets this matter for a moment.."
I spoke with a sad face.
"You sure?"
I nodded confidently. And thankfully, he didn't suspect me at all. He handed over the money from Bang Dirman for our dinner ration to me.
With a limp body. I walked out.
I don't know, my clever move suddenly led me to the terminal.
I quickly tried to find a ticket that was enough. And damn, the money wasn't enough to get me out of town.
My time is not long, while Bang Dirman's men have been seen at the end looking for me.
Move fast or get caught.!
Luckily, I met a man who wanted to help me.
Without asking who, and without asking why.
The man handed his jacket to me. As my form of disguise. He paid for two seats and we sat next to me by the window. He told me to pretend to sleep with a hidden face.
I made it, I got away.. Leave that damn place.!
To this day, I am here now..!