Sleeping Beauty's
Psychos

My head hurts so much, it hurts more than when my head hit the wall. My body feels so cold, I can't move at all. I wanted to scream so badly, but it felt like my voice was stuck, my mouth could not open at all. My eyelids are hard to open, it feels like there's glue holding them. Am I on the verge of death? Am I going to die soon?

Why is it that the colder my body the more my fear increases? Then where is the angel of death that will come to pick me up? Has he not arrived yet? He said that when life falls off the body it will hurt a lot. I was so scared, a warm feeling covered my head. My hair feels partly wet, is that warm liquid my blood? What am I like now? If only I could open my eyes. I can definitely see the person pushing me.

I started to open my eyes, but my vision was very blurred. I can open my mouth but I can't make a sound at all. Until I finally lost consciousness.

A few minutes before that, I was standing on the side of the balcony of my room that had not been given a safety wall. As usual, I looked at the beauty of the sky. From the top of the balcony the sky feels so close to me, therefore I really like to linger on the balcony. I should have been on the balcony that night, everyone was asleep. The balcony of the crime scene was also directly connected to my room, there was no road or other access to the balcony other than through my room. Then how could that person be on my balcony?

I'm sure someone pushed me. The hand of someone who knows who, stuck to my right shoulder. The push felt very gentle but also full of energy. Unfortunately, I didn't get to see his face. I was busy closing my eyes from being too scared to think about how much it hurt to land. Really, even though I was very suicidal, but I never thought of dropping down from a height. Or slicing a pulse in the hand, to me it was terrible.

I did not expect, other than myself who really wanted to die, there were others who also expected my death. Who her? I don't know, either, but he was the one who was in my house that night. Mom and Dad are home, I'm an only child. If it wasn't wrong that night my cousin was also home, they were sisters. Kino and Kinan, Kak Kino is the same age as my fiancee. As for Kak Kinan being the same age as me, if only he wasn't a bude child I wouldn't have called him big brother.

Kino's sister is a very annoying person, she likes to tell by herself. Unlike Kinan, he was very kind to me. Kinan's sister is like my brother. He always listens to my heart, always gives me advice.

Kak Kinan is better than Kak Kino.

Can I still wake up? or will I die slowly?

How's my fiancee feeling? I honestly worry about him. But if I remember anything more about myself being too childish, it would be better if I just died.

 ~~~

Back off again, by noon Kak Kino was home from work. It's not unusual for him to come home early, or maybe he's done and will be back in town. Kino's sister works under the auspices of her father, later she will also continue the work of the father. Kak Kinan and Kak Kinan actually live in a separate city with me, but because of their interests, they often visit me and stay overnight.

My parents still haven't come home yet, Kinan hasn't come home either. Looks like Kino's brother was sent by God to accompany me so as not to be lonely.

I did not greet him, I only saw his arrival from a distance. Although he's my spup, but it feels foreign to me. I was only close to Kinan, while with Kak Kino I was not too close. Maybe because of gender differences, I don't know but it feels weird if I'm too familiar with men–laki except my father and fiancee.

My door opened wide and I walked towards the balcony, as usual I was standing there. Maybe it's about ten or it could be eleven o'clock in the afternoon, the heat of the sun won't burn my skin. My balcony is equipped with a roof.

A hand was coiled around my waist, a head was also leaning on my right shoulder. I flipped over, and it was true that Kino's sister was in front of me. He showed me his smile, then he closed his eyes and leaned his face. I blocked his face with my hands, as his lips almost touched mine.

Brother Kino opened his eyes, he smiled then quickly pulled my hand. My body stretched forward and fell into Kino's arms, I hurriedly let go of her embrace and gave her a considerable distance. I'm used to Kino's treatment like this, she's trying to get me. Hah why am I being such an item, I hate this situation.

“Give me a chance, leave Angga! I promise I'll make you happy.” He said as he stepped forward.

“Stop! stop there!” I also retreated, trying to keep the distance I gave her the same.

“Are you going to stick with Angga? Why are you naive? Why won't you admit it?” Now Kino's brother stopped.

“Of course I will keep Angga, he is a person who means something to me.” Yeah, it's like that. Even though I felt like I failed and wanted to run away instead of continuing to disappoint him.

“Think again, staying together with him will put you in a difficult position.” Kino looked at me with sadness. Yeah, maybe that's true.

“But being with you will also put me in a difficult position. It may even be harder than it is today.” Maybe I could have been hated by my own family for being in a relationship with my own cousin.

“You better just die in my hand, than continue to be a puppet of Angga.” Yes, I agree with the word– said Kak Kino, I have long wanted to die. If only Kak Kino could prove his word–, I would be so happy when he really– really kills me. But unfortunately it was only a word– words that he was able to say, he had already three times said things with the same intent.

 ~~~

That night after my engagement party, I was sitting on a swing in the back garden of the house. Someone approached, I heard her footsteps rubbing against the grass. Slowly I turned my head, I saw Kak Kino standing a meter away from me.

“Why are you still outside? It's already night.” Fall for.

“Kakak himself also why is still outside?” I reprimanded him, he's not usually like that. He's a little weird tonight. Even before my engagement started, she had spilled orange juice onto my clothes. Of course it was intentional, even I was the witness to the incident myself. Not only that, I was also locked in my own room and I believe Kak Kino did just that. Luckily, Kinan's sister hit him and managed to get me out of the room.

“Do you have anything you want to say ? Why do you always do annoying things at inappropriate times?” I asked him again, because he had been quiet ever since.

“Don't be naive, just admit what you see. Are you going to stay like this?” Kak Kino's words even made me more confused.

“If you want us to cooperate, I already have a good plan for you. Didn't you want to die a long time ago?” Now he pulled out a black-handled kitchen knife.

I don't know if Kak Kino really– like that, the article all this time that I know Kak Kino does have the nickname psycho.

“So what do you want? Stabbed right in the heart.” His words stopped because I was standing.

Of course I'm afraid to see it that way, does Kak Kino really have a mental illness? Is he really– really a psychopath? It's terrible, even though I want to die, I also want to die peacefully. Not like this.

“Your time is not much, they already have a plan. It'd be better to be physically ill but later you'll be at peace. I'm sure you don't want to be a vengeful spirit?” Kak kino said. Seeing him stand like that with a knife and his terrible eyes, what else with minimal lighting. Kino looks really creepy.

“What are you doing? It's already night!” The sound of Kak Kinan's screams set me free, I immediately ran over to Kinan's sister without caring about Kino's brother.

 ~~~

A little forward, but still backward.

The day after my engagement with Angga, I just spent my day–hari in the room. I'll just get out of the room at dinner and other necessities. And it's time for bed, I can't close my eyes yet. It's hard to close these eyes.

Someone knocked on my bedroom door, night–night like this who's still awake? Can't Kinan sleep anymore? Does Kinan want to sleep with me? My cousin's older sister is often not able to sleep alone, actually she is not alone. Kino's sister also slept with him, they were separated from the bed. But despite that, Kinan still felt alone. So no wonder he knocked on my door in the middle of the night.

I opened the door, and I was immediately stunned.

Brother Kino with his grin standing in front of me, I haven't had time to close the door. He pushed me first, then he closed the door of my room with a single move. I started running to the balcony, but again–again I lost fast with him. He pulled my hand, dropped me on the bed, the next scene he was piercing my body.

His hands were on my neck, he was trying to strangle me. But the hand was just clinging, not pressing my neck yet.

“So do you want to die without feeling pain?” The question surprised me.

“Of course I won't be able to do that.” Now he turns to lay his body next to mine. I want to scream, I'm afraid something bad is happening to me. But if I scream, will my parents trust me?

“Because I'm already here, what if we do?” I quickly pushed him. Not according to plan, I fell under the bed. It should have been before pushing Kak Kino, I realized first that I was lighter than him.

But this was a good opportunity to escape from Kak Kino, I got up and ran immediately. I opened the balcony door and I locked it from my place.

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