Still Loved Even In The New World
CHAPTER 18: Misconceptions

I took Ilma running quite far from the scene and stopped to take a breath. When I stopped I turned my head back to look at Ilma, she lowered her head with both hands clenched tightly, her body shaking.

is he afraid of me?. Will he turn to hate me or think of me as a cold-blooded monster?.

even though she considered me a Monster, I can't blame her either, a little girl who saw someone killed cruelly before her eyes would definitely feel fear for her killer right.

Philia:"Ilma.."

I tried to reach for Ilma and spoke softly to her.she did not respond to my voice, subconsciously I pulled back my outstretched hand towards her.

Phile:"are you afraid of me..?"

i... I shouldn't have made a quick decision right?!. And what's wrong with me?. I killed a human but didn't feel anything.

maybe my mentality has changed too or maybe I am a cold-blooded monster?.

in the past when playing Alterion I used an ultra realistic graphics mode, where everything would look real, including corpses and scars. does that also change my mentality to be cruel?!.

Ilma:"excuse me..."

I heard Ilma's voice that seemed to speak while crying, my heart felt sour and hurt when I heard her voice.

what's with that apology?, there's nothing to be wrong with, right if you're afraid, right?.

Ilma: "sorry.if I am stronger, I can protect the princess and not depend on the Princess anymore.I am useless"

wait?!. she is not afraid?. she only feels guilty because I protect her and not her who protects me?. What kind of loyalty is this?.

Philia:"are you not afraid of me?"

after I asked, Ilma raised her teary face.

Ilma: "no. me, I just feel useless. I should have been the one protecting the princess"

while talking Ilma clasped her hand even tighter.I immediately stepped forward and hugged her tightly.

Filia:"I guess"

unconsciously my tears also dripped, these were tears of relief. I thought Ilma would be scared and leave me. I thought I would lose my best friend.

this feeling of unwillingness to leave behind is so strong, I don't want to lose anything valuable anymore.

I felt a pat on my head, as I looked up, Ilma was staring at me.

Ilma: "I promised you, whatever happens this Ilma will always be with the princess"

Country:"iya"

my feelings began to calm down.I did not feel anything while taking someone's life, but it seems like my heart is very fragile with melancholy things like this.I even think I was a bit of a crybaby after taking over this body, perhaps this was infected by the feelings of the previous owner.however the previous owner was a delicate and fragile little girl.

since Ilma and I had been out for quite some time we both planned to return to the mansion before anyone suspected that I was sneaking away despite planning to return as soon as possible, he said, I still took the time to look at some places that I found interesting.

passing through the noble gate, I immediately flew with Ilma towards the mansion of Rosefield.We landed in the back garden and immediately removed the black robe we were wearing.

in order for no one to suspect, we immediately jumped onto the balcony of my room and immediately told Ilma to change her clothes with maid clothes.

I descended from the stairs with Ilma who was following behind me as usual, until downstairs I immediately felt a very thick killing intent.

quickly a blade of wind came towards me, due to quick reflexes, I managed to fend off the blade of wind, but even though I managed to fend off the attack, I managed to, the floor and walls as well as some of the surrounding furniture were destroyed from the attack.

I just came down and someone tried to kill me?. How dare they break through the mansion of Rosefield.

after the smoke and dust settled, there was a figure that immediately pounced on me. This was not an attack like I expected, but it was a tight hug.

Harnas:"sad...are you okay?!"

it was mother, her body trembling in fear.

Filia:'mom?"

her embrace was tight. I lifted my face and saw father running quickly towards me with a worried face.he was trying to grab me, but before that...

plaques...

my mother slapped the hand of my father trying to reach me so hard that the sound of his slap echoed throughout the room.

Harnas:"never touch his trashy base"

this is the first time I hear mom cursing with harsh words.usually mom will always show a graceful and firm attitude of a noble as well as a Marshal.

father simply turned his face away with a helpless expression and without a word, even so I could clearly see that there was sadness in his eyes.

before I could understand what was happening, I saw a little girl with reddish-brown hair who came over to father and stroked the hand of the father who was flushed from the slap.

the girl was about two years younger than me with a plain face and large apricot-colored round eyes.

what is this legendary scene, where a noble has an illegitimate child outside and then he brings it to the family for some reason?. isn't this like a plot where I'm going to be a villain in a novel?. Am I going to get into a plot where I'm going to be the evil sister and oppressor?.

no, no, no, I don't want to be an evil sister figure that's gonna end badly, but seeing my mother's face full of anger and disappointment I don't mind being a villain.

however, I also knew that if it had happened as I had imagined, the child would still be innocent.all sins and wrongs would have been passed on to his parents who had crossed the line.

all these mistakes were my father's fault. didn't he love mom so much?. Why did you have another woman outside?. After thinking it through well it seems like there was an incomplete story piece.

Harnas:"huh.I will take Filia back to the Holy Kingdom and stay with my parents"

mother sighed and soon her expression changed back as usual, only the disappointment and sadness in her eyes could not be hidden, I can tell how disappointed you are right now.

Rovell:"wait.. i.."

it seemed like dad wanted to say something but in the middle dad stopped his words and seemed hesitant to continue.

I broke away from my mother and walked past my father and mother.

Filia:"preferably father and mother talk about it first. I will go to the back garden first to give father and mother time to talk. Ilma take the boy!"

I know that you love you so much, you must have an explanation for this. It seems you are hesitant to explain it because there is still something difficult to express.

I'll give mom and dad time to talk so they can both be open to each other and this problem can meet its bright spot.

I was just thinking, if I accept this little girl not necessarily mom will accept it, and I don't even know how to deal with this little girl after that awkward situation.

I was expecting a sweet little sister, but not in this way.

the three of us finally reached the back garden of the mansion.I walked towards the seat in a gazebo in the garden while the girl just stood up and lowered her head without a word in front of me.

huh... This matter is quite complicated.maybe I should ask this girl first.

while thinking about many things, I took a sip of the red tea that Ilma provided.

Philia:"what's your name?"

"s, I'm Felmina Rosefield"

Rosefield?.so is it true as I thought?.

Filia:"What is your relationship with my father?"

Felmina:"lord Rosefield was very kind to my family. After my father died Mr. Rosefield adopted me and gave me the name Rosefield"

wait?.if it's like that, this means I've misunderstood you from the beginning right?!. I'm sorry for not trusting you.

if the problem is like this, this can end well right?!. I just wait for the results of the conversation from father and mother, I hope they will understand each other and father will explain it well.

(the end of this chapter)