The After 150
About him
For you, the figure of rara and fera are both two figures who once stepped away from him, but when Rara left suddenly and disappeared without any clue, without any clue, fera figure left with a goodbye.
Both give different meanings about the meaning of the word farewell and how he sees the figure of a woman, there are only three women who can be seen with both eyes, the moon, the sun, the sun, and the mother of the light lives.
The reappearance of rara and fera is always in the future by dirga, but there is not the slightest prejudice that the two will appear at an adjacent time and the two will live together in a certain period of time.
It has been about a week since dirga and poppo lived together while Rara lived with fera, during the day it became less and less common to see Rara unlike when they lived together.
Chapter 2.7: About Him
When he was still with Rara, the moments they spent together caring for the house and completing their respective parts of the work were all very valuable time, whereas now with poppo…
“Oii dirga, can pass the chips in the closet? That would be very helpful.” Said poppo sitting on the couch watching tv.
“Hahh? Why do you think God gave you hands and feet?”
“God gave me a friend who can help-”
Potato chips were thrown away by Dirga and hit right on the head of poppo, he immediately opened the potato chips that were thrown and the powder spread on the sofa.
Every poppo picks up chips, the powder falls onto couches and carpets, the more frenzied he gets the more mess he makes.
As soon as poppo finished watching, Dirga took a broom in the kitchen and threw it to the poppo who fell asleep on the sofa.
“Woi !! What does it mean try !!” Poppo with a splash.
“I count 1 to 10, if not motion also I push.” He stared at poppo sharply
“Hahh? Come on anyway this room is not that messy..”.
Meanwhile, what poppo means by the room that does not mess is powder chips and cheese everywhere, carpets that fold, dirty clothes that hang on the sofa, and so on, in addition to the sofa cushions that are out of nowhere.
“1... 2.. 3.. 4...” Dirga counts slowly as he steps slowly from the kitchen.
“Oke Okee, relax... I'll be done soon.”
“5... 6.. 7.. 8...” Dirga getting closer to poppo and looks like his fist is constantly hardening.
As soon as he got closer, Poppo quickly got off the couch and cleaned up the mess he made.
“Hahh... since when do you like to trouble things like this..” Complaints Poppo who is tidying up the room.
“Hmm?? Is there something wrong with liking cleanliness?”
“Yes just, I guess before there was a rara here, this space was many times more messy.”
“Then it is so good, I know the cleanliness and neatness at the right time.”
“Hehh... isn't it because of rara...??” Poppo asked with a sigh.
Hearing Poppo who mentioned rara, back to mind in his mind Rara who had returned became more and more distant.
“This room... feels different yes without rara..” Said dirga while looking around the space.
“That's what you mean by my taunting or how?”
“Yeah not too, it's just that it feels somehow rara as if getting further.”
“You said the farther, the more often you knocked on my apartment door and met her.” Poppo ledek
It is true that Dirga often approached Poppo's apartment upstairs to meet Rara, but they only talked for a while at the door about everyday life and then separated again.
It feels to you, ever since he began to feel the life together rara, the more his heart tightened when the distance between the more distant, although there is a short time to let go of longing, he said, but slowly, Rara seemed to change.
“Poppo, I was thinking.. roughly what are they doing up there both, what are they talking about together..”.
What he still thinks about Rara is a mysterious figure, it is still difficult for him to believe the existence of a 1000 Km girl who was once only fiction in his mind now lives with him.
While in the mind of Rara, he was with a female figure who had been accompanying him, watching him, and living with him when he disappeared.
In the mind of Rara, many questions that want to be issued and many expressions that want to be expressed, for him, fera is the key to making you happier with him.
One night, both fera and rara sat on the same sofa but were far apart on different sides.
Time showed at 9pm and the central hall lights were turned off, both sitting between darkness and the silence of the night watching the lights of the skyscraper.
“Fera... dirga it's actually like what his person is?” Ask raa suddenly.
“What's the air like?? Well if you ask him yes, he's a good, intelligent, trustworthy guy maybe? Well the only one doubting her might be because she likes to get out of control.”.
“Let's control? How about his example?”
“That spirit cannot control his emotions well, he is easily provoked by anger, sadness, and also happiness.”
Instantly Rara remembered one morning where her eyes were red in and crooked and also the wounds on her hands, every time Rara asked her always insisting not to answer her or divert the topic.
“About dirga.. does he often hurt himself?” Again ask Rara who is getting closer to the fera
Fera then returned to thinking in the past, where as a child he often quarreled with children who were stronger than him because they disturbed Poppo, but it was still natural for fera.
Once on a night, Fera secretly and accidentally saw himself hurting himself, before Dirga and Fera were fighting and accidentally injuring Fera, however, when Fera witnessed the behavior of those who regretted his strange actions, he could only remain silent.
“The child likes to think too much about something, the foolish child also prefers to hurt himself rather than everything around him, he also appreciates others too much and sometimes does not pay attention to himself.” Fera story on rara.
“Why is he so? Why does he treat himself like that.”
“Maybe because of his past? Due to feeling too lonely, now he did not want to lose the people he could trust.”
Instantly Rara imagined the past dirga, where at the time he was alone and did not know rara at that time, dirga also often told me first that his only home in his past was his own mother figure.
In addition to the figure of his mother and father who somehow news, dirga only alone face the world, even the people who live around him are not grateful for his existence.
In the heart of Rara when it appears doubt, where he wants to love more, but is afraid to hurt himself, considering the things that continue to tell about how to protect his loved ones.
“Fera... is there no way I can stay by her side without making her need to hurt herself??” Rara asked as she clasped the hand of fera.
“Your question is..-”.
“Fera... answered me, you must have not wanted to make you hurt yourself, right?” Again asked Rara with her sparkling eyes.
Knowing Rara's enthusiasm, Fera smiled subtly and then stroked her head slowly.
“You need not worry, you just need to take care of yourself and do your best for her, it is already much more than enough.”
About two people who have met, there will be a special feeling and will never change between the two, he said, two of the thousands of feelings that miraculously arise are fear and security.
Fear, fear of separation, fear of hurting, fear of pouring out, and fear of those miraculous feelings changing.
While the sense of security and comfort, safety is nothing more to be afraid of as long as you realize you have each other and also comfortable as comfortable as the world is only created for both.
For dirga and rara, both are a mistake, about him (rara) dirga want to give him a sense of security and peace after years of harsh changes in his cruel world.
Sedangan about himself (dirga) rara fear to lose himself, fear to part as if it feels like he has become a part that can not be released, he said, but behind all that hides the fear of dirga will hurt himself to rara.
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