
I didn't say much at breakfast this morning, so why did I feel powerless to hold back tears every time Rima's voice recounted her dream ringing in my ear.
I usually like to start a conversation at the dinner table even though it's about small things ,this time I only kept silent a thousand languages.Even I just smiled and rhymed Rima's head as she praised my fried rice as her favorite breakfast.
Until breakfast was over I said only one word, assalamualaikum, as a farewell to my two in-laws.
As if I understood how I felt,David also stroked my head that was closed with a hijab.His affectionate gaze showed that he cared so much for me.And did not want to see me continue to put on a sad face by using Rima David trying to make a joke.
"Ehmmm Rima darling ...."
Call David .
"Yes dad...."
Reply Rima from the back bench.
"Are your ears okay today?"
Ask David.
"So my father suddenly asked me about ears, I felt like my ears were fine."
Answer Rima who did not understand David's intentions.
"REally..?"
"But I feel like there's something wrong with my ears this morning."
"Either there is none or the father does not hear it."
"Dad feels today there's no talk you're used to hearing."
Said David whose satirical purpose led me to speak.
"Ow."
"But father, I suggest not to wake the sleeping lion, for it will harm the father."
Rima's advice sounds very wise.
"But baby, he's not sleeping but he's quiet.So it won't be too dangerous."
"Haha......
David replied that still trying to make me upset so I said something because of my annoyance.But instead of saying something as expected David I just smile like there is no passion to do what pun.
"Come on Nai's mother...Say something?"
"Dunianimi felt very quiet without Nai's mother's voice."
Rima Whine.
"Yes...Rima's right .."
"The road to school is boring without your talk."
"Hehe....."
david said, and again David tried to say something that would upset me.
"Did you know....?"
"Your sense of humor is very ugly, if you try to upset me.You are not suitable to be a comedian, because you are more suitable to be a proud man just a widower."
I said I started talking and commenting on David's efforts to keep me from being sad anymore while laughing.
"Based on the lady...."
David said smilingly looking pleased as I had already started talking.
"Based on a proud widower....!"
My reply.
"I'm arrogant, but I was your father's choice to be his dream son-in-law "
"Hehe...."
David won't lose.
"Yes that's why I married the arrogant widower of my choice..."
I reply to laugh again.
"Hore..Then father and mother argue again...."
"That means this Nai's back is fine..."
Cheers Rima applause is more accustomed to our debate than our fearfulness.
"Hey.honeyang"
"You'd rather see us arguing?"
Me laughing.
"Of course Nai's mother, because the more you argue you're the more compatible you look...."
"Well...."
Rima replied laughing.
"Bad boy...."
I said laughing with Rima's words.
And the atmosphere of the trip was back to normal as usual.Thus finally the car in the drive David arrived in front of the school gate.
"Assalamualaikum...."
"Emmuach...."
Pamit Rima to David before getting out of the car.
"Waalaikumsalam...."
David answered and held tightly to my hand to hold you back from going down.
"Stay here, don't get out of the car until I get back."
David's orders before going down followed Rima who immediately made me confused.See from the car window David was whispering to Rima somehow said what so Rima finally waved her hand and then entered the school.
"Daaag...."
"Mother Nai.be careful on the road...."
Shouted Rima waving her hand.
My answer though I do not know because of what things arrived Rima waved his hand.And I am still confused why David forbid me down once I got in front of the school gate.
Shortly after, David got back in the car.
"What's wrong?"
"What did you say to Rima?"
"Why did he wave to me, and I too will follow him in?"
I asked without pause.
"You won't teach today."
Obviously David.
"Why?"
"It's still the second day after David's long holiday."
"And I haven't authorized the principal yet"
I said I objected to feeling weird.
"It'll be quiet later that I'll cast you."
Answer David.
"Where are we going?"
Askaqua.
"To Nisa's clinic."
David started running the car.
"What do you want there?"
"Did your ears really hurt?"
Asking me worried.
"My ears are fine, but we'll meet with doctor Nisa the wife of doctor Ipnu who you called the other day when I was sick."
Obviously David.
"Ow...."
"Would we go there?"
Ask again.
"Doctor Nisa is an obstetrician and I made an appointment this morning with her."
Answer David.
"Then why do we have to go to the doctor?"
I asked who did not understand the meaning of David's words at all.
"Of course check yourself out."
David answered me so patiently to answer my questions.
"Yes..."
"But what do I mean?"
"I'm fine, there's nothing wrong with me."
My answer.
"There's...."
David Sahut.
"What?"
I said confused.
"Your mistake is, 'cause you never checked your health after the doctor had adjudged you."
"Well, right...?"
Said David.
"For what?"
"What's the point of me having to check up on me yet it's clear the doctor told Arga that I won't be able to get pregnant."
"David we should just go home, because what the doctor says will hurt my heart."
I said that so traumatized by the past that causes sadness every time I hear the word baby and pregnant.
"Don't ask me what?"
"You should have regular check-ups after the phonis, at least you can know your health's progress."
"Again try to remember, did you hear directly from the doctor?"
Ask David.
"No, Arga who delivered the results of the doctor's examination at that time."
Reply lowered.
"Then you just believe it?"
Ask David again.
"Yes of course, because I think it's impossible to lie because it's about our future."
My answer is so sure.
"Hem..if he can leave you for reasons you can't get pregnant, don't shut down the possibility that man could also lie to you."
Obviously David.
"And to find out the truth, let's check your situation with Nisa's doctor,although later the results sound the same I believe there will be a solution how you can give a baby sister to Rima my daughter who you love so much that you grieve every time you hear her dream.'
Obviously David was so firm and very supportive of me.
And I couldn't say anything more after that.My feelings were mixed, but at least David's words seemed to give me a trace of hope.
Seriate......