The Autumn In Heart
The Part 37

It's been 1 week that Briyan hasn't contacted me, I don't know what's happening to her right now. I really want to ask you news about him. Even to ask Merry, I feel ashamed.

Day after day passed, our wedding day had not been set either. But the longer I felt the more worried.

It was raining outside tonight, but his voice was not clear. Only a cold wind came in from the vent.

"Remain, daydream?" Dian surprised me.

"Moreover, how much pay." I smiled wryly at him.

"Instead of thinking how much payday, mending we see the product Emi.. again a massive discount, it is enough to ngirit-ngirit..."

"By deh," we both went to Emi products, there the kitchen needs products are very complete. I put in 1 pack of large cooking oil, a few packs of instant noodles, sauces, soy sauce, multi-purpose flour and others until my basket was fully filled.

I walked to the next side looking at beauty products, there were some discounts as well although not too many.

I took body lotion, powder and liquid bath soap. We both finished, and prepared to pay.

"You're done?" ask Dian.

"Yes." Yeah."

Suddenly, a buyer asked.

"I was looking for SPG clothing next door, but no one was there. So, how do I buy it?"

Dian and I turned around, and how surprised I was that the president was talking. I got a little nervous and stammered. He was even with the president and Briyan. Briyan just threw a faint smile at me.

"Please ma'am, I'll take you..."

Dian and I are amazed, isn't there still Sela? where is Sela now?

The president seemed busy choosing the clothes he was going to buy. Briyan doesn't even seem to recognize me.

Shortly after, Sela showed up. Turns out he went to the bathroom. I became nervous once, in contrast to Dian who seemed ordinary.

Madam the president has finished with all her choices, she put all the clothes she chose for me to bring to the cashier.

Briyan still doesn't recognize me. Have I made a mistake? The three of them left just like that, tonight Briyan's face looked pale and grim. I'm sure something happened to him. But to ask all that, even if only on the phone I feel embarrassed. I am a woman who knows herself.

Salary has been transferred to my account. This month my salary has dropped, by only 2.6 million. I took a long breath. Tonight some employees seem flat to be carrying groceries for the boarding house or their homes.

Before going home, I bought a sweet martabak. Usually at the guesthouse these nights I feel hungry. I bought 3 large martabak with special taste. I wish Merry hadn't slept.

But I saw Briyan already sitting on the terrace with a big cup of milk coffee. I parked my motorcycle and greeted him.

"What are you doing here?" ask him.

"I'm waiting for you." He said while lighting a cigarette.

"Where's Merry?"

"Maybe he's asleep." Briyan Sahut.

I went inside and put my groceries and went back to the terrace with the water and and martabak that I bought.

"You've been working hard till late at night."

Briyan's words surprised me.

"Stop working there, and marry me. You'll have a decent life."

I was more and more surprised by his words, there was a vibration I was feeling. But I also feel tight.

"Not that we've planned it for a long time, it's easy right."

"I mean, let's get married for real. Not a contract marriage like we ever talked about." His words stared hard at me.

I'm down. "Is that possible?"

"What is impossible in your opinion?"

"We don't fit Briyan.Where is it possible? real marriage should also be based on cin—"

"I love you!" Briyan looked at me very sharply.

I was almost frozen in front of him.

"We are both like heaven and earth, and will be united only at the end of time. So don't brag in front of me."

"From your words I already know, actually you love me too right? I understand you're a Goddess."

"You don't understand me sir, you don't know anything about me. Origin, or my family. Our marriage will not be happy, look for a woman who is equal to you. I'm sure there are a lot of women who like you sir."

Briyan took a deep breath, from the look of her face looking frustrated. However, I also saw seriousness on his face.

"If what you're worried about is your family, I already know everything."

Degh's!

As if there was lightning striking, I was very surprised to hear it. I just stared at Briyan in wonder.

"What do you mean sir?"

Briyan gave me some photos. I picked it up and looked at it one by one. How surprised I was to see every single one of his sheets. So, Briyan already knows everything? all of this makes me even more devastated.

I took the photo and massaged my forehead. I feel like I can't think right now.

"I want you to accept me to be your husband Wi..." Briyan took out a ring from her pocket. "I want you to wear this ring, our real engagement ring. But I won't force you to wear it, because I know you're not a forced woman." Briyan put the ring on the lid of her coffee cup.

I'm getting depressed about it.

"My mom and dad knew it all. There is nothing to hide anymore. I want us to get engaged before I go abroad. I have an important job there next week, I hope you've given me the answer." His voice stood up and went away.

Briyan's departure is deadlocked. What he said seemed to force me to think fast. He's really selfish.

I took the ring that Briyan left behind, I had never looked at our engagement ring before. Because this ring I've been wearing to me means nothing at all.

But this ring that Briyan put down had a different meaning. I almost shed tears because of it. Am I worthy to wear this ring? this ring is really pretty. Just to look at it, I can barely afford it.

I cleaned up the food and drinks on the porch and locked the door. Then I put the ring in the closet.

I lay on my bed with a raging feeling. Even this feeling was worse than the days before. I can't think straight now.

I closed my eyes, in the wishful thinking that brought me to sleep. I hope the day I wear the ring will come. And good days are always on my side.