THE BAD BOY OF MANHATTAN
Chapters 30. The Heart of Emma.

"I don't understand your way of thinking, El," Emma told Elric beside her. The two sat on the floor leaning their backs against the legs of the sofa.

Elric chuckled, then gulped down his wine glass. "What am I really doing?"

"Yeah, your life is perfect. You have a harmonious family, rich, everything you want you can easily get. But, you chose a hard life."

Elric smiled thinly. "My life is too flat. There is no challenge at all. I think if I want to be a real man, I have to start from scratch, on my own. It's a shame that I have to rely on my parents' property."

Emma giggles. He had a few glasses of wine. Her body feels so relaxed. "How about we just switch places."

"Huh?" Elric frowned and looked at Emma.

"Yes. We exchanged positions. You're me, I'm you, "cuckles Emma.

"It is with pleasure" said Elric.

Emma then breathed heavily. He stared blankly ahead. Secretly making a flash back about his runny past. "From childhood I always lived a hard life. My family is poor and not harmonious." He gulped down the last liquid in his glass, then filled it back up. "Every day my mom and dad get into a fight. Trivial problems, big problems, anything can be the trigger of their quarrel."

Elric looked at Emma with sadness. He wanted to listen to the girl's heart. He doesn't want to interrupt. He waited for the words that would slide from Emma's mouth next.

"I think they're very selfish parents. They only think about themselves. Not once did they think about my position. I feel I lack affection. Pathetic, huh?" kikik Emma's. "I always did everything myself. Take care and take care of myself. I've been working since I was fourteen years old to make ends meet."

"But ...." Emma turned to Elric. "You know what hurt me the most?" tanyakanya. Emma was blown away, but her eyes were condensing. "Finally my mother gave up and finished herself off. It's the most selfish thing, for a mother, to leave her responsibility for her child" Emma said.

"Am I really meaningless in my mother's life? Thus, divorced from a male breng sek like my father alone, he could not face reality. Did my mother never consider me to be the source of her power? What kind of mother is that?!" exclaim Emma. "Oh, Gosh, I hate her so much (i hate her so much)!" Emma clenched her palms. Unknowingly, her tears had flowed down her cheeks.

"Nrank ...."

"Don't cut me, Elric! I'm not done talking!" point Emma right in front of Elric's face. "I hate my father too. He's a breng sek man. He's got another woman" he continued, shrinking tears in his cheeks with the back of his hand. "I don't think, if their relationship didn't match from the beginning, why should they continue the marriage and bring me into the world? They brought me into this world, only to be abandoned. Son of a bit ch (to the rat)!" hardik Emma's. The crying escaped.

Elric's chest was painful watching Emma who looked so fragile. He grabbed the girl's head and carried her into his arms. Elric did not say a word. He just hugged Emma tightly and stroked her back, trying to give her strength.

"Oh my God .. I am a very sad victim."

Emma ended her crying, then chuckled to herself. He grabbed the wine glass beside him and gulped it back down. "Sorry, El ... I look terrible, huh (sorry, El ... I look fucked up, huh)?"

Elric shook his head. "You look beautiful" she said.

"Really (really)?" emma asked as she raised her eyebrows and looked towards Elric.

"Yes. Very pretty."

"Liar!"

"No!" sergeant Elric. "I like you, Emma," he said later.

"Huh?" Emma's eyebrows flinched.

"I like you. But ... I can't make you a lover yet. Because my life is still unorganized. I just want to express my feelings to you. Although I can't be serious with you yet, but I don't want any other man to come near you. You have to wait for me to be ready."

Emma was stunned for a moment. He looked at the serious looking face of Elric. However, a moment later, his laughter exploded. "God! What the fuck is this kid?!" he said as he grabbed a handful of Elric's long hair and pulled it until the young man leaned his back against the floor.

Elric just grimaced. She hoped Emma would not understand what she was saying because she was under the influence of alcohol. After all, Elric's words were so bad. He thought, hopefully Emma will have a hard time digesting her words.

"Hmmm .. I don't understand what you're saying, El," Emma said as she moved away from her seat. "I'd better get some sleep. My head is heavy." Emma was about to step into her room, but her body staggered.

"Hey, be careful, Em." Elric quickly caught Emma's body. Although she was four years younger, she was still slightly bigger than the skinny girl. "Let me take you to your room" she said, guiding Emma through her narrow room.

Elric helped Emma lie in bed. The girl immediately curled up and closed her eyes. While Elric pulled a thick blanket on Emma's leg and covered the girl's body to the neck.

He brought his face closer to Emma's. With hesitation Elric kissed the girl's cheek gently, then stroked her. "If there were a guitar here, I'd play a lullaby for you, Emma," he said.

Elric looked at Emma's peaceful face in his sleep for a while. Before she finally left the girl alone in her room, and lay on a weathered sofa in the living room of Emma's apartment. No blankets, no pillows. No heating for winter. Maybe Emma can't afford the bill yet.

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