The Ball Behind the Love of the Court
89. A Suicide?

To cry is to feel tired. There are too many things that I cry about, now is the time to just shut up and reflect. After all, crying in man is ordinary and the most extraordinary thing is to cry to his Lord.

"Key, key please let's go down don't get the key" Ari and Yuri come over. Their faces panicked and said that I wanted to kill myself.

"What the hell are you, I just want to be alone" I said as I stared at the two of them for a while then turned my face back to look at the city vortex.

"I know your problem is Key, but don't end your life like this. You see, if you die, no one believes I'm the same Ari again when there is a bully" Yuri said in a sad tone.

The hilarious mother the two of them did not think of me instead of thinking of fear of being bullied.

It seems like I have to do acting and pretend to jump to scare them. They will be scared and sad. Let me deceive them both. Looks like jailin' both of them.

"I'm tired of living, I better just disappear from this world" I said with a smile hiding and standing on the outskirts.

When I look down it feels like my voice is also my voice because it is very high this 3-storey building. Maybe because just this time I came here so unusual with the height that exists.

"Don't key don't, if you die who else I accompany to the warehouse, to the cafeteria and everywhere" cried Yuri who was clear. There was a sense of fear on his face.

"Yes key, later if you die Yuri will be stupid alone" continued Ari.

I smiled and looked at them both. Not thinking of anything important but thinking of silly things about the stupidity of myself and Yuri.

"Better you two just walk to the cafeteria or wherever. Because I'm tired" It seems like the acting this time managed to lie to themvberdua until his face felt afraid to lose me.

"Key, I don't want to be stupid alone. I want to be with you" Kocak Yuri, wants to be stupid and even rhyme. Supposedly if the new pinter is not even stupid.

"Key I know you have a lot of problems, but please don't jump. You have to calm down Key can all be resolved well" Brother Dika suddenly came to make me even more upset when remembering his words on that night.

"This has nothing to do with you. It's my life" Suddenly my language became raw.

I no longer want to meet Dika's sister who has hurt my heart even hurt her until now. Human speech is more piercing than its treatment.

"Okay, okay, I'm sorry that night. I was surprised to find out that you were my brother Key"

"Bah sister" Yuri and Ari said simultaneously

"And you know" I said to both of them. Though already know that I'm one father with sister Dika eh even follow in shock.

"Eh yes forgot" Again Ari and Yuri say at the same time.

"Have forgotten" I yelled at them.

Every now and then my eyes look down and notice the footing. I was afraid to actually slip and fall down. Broke my brain, afraid of it scattering. After all, this brain has no contents, just the hope of all.

"You know what the cruelest thing in the world is? " I'm sitting back because when I stand up I'm really afraid of falling.

"What's? " His way.

"Slander is more cruel than murder" I said

"Ohh"

"Ihhh, your answer oh?. Speak cake do not just oh" My annoyance reappeared because there was no response from them.

"Au ah, " My words are getting irritated

"Keyla, horrified you don't jump later your body is messy" shouted the headmaster using a very large sound system until the sound is loud.

Below more and more people are watching. I'd better get off, besides, my calm has been nullified. But the descent is confused, want to jump or go down there. Stupidhead!

"Key horrified me, I've accepted you as my sister even though it was very difficult but I tried it" said Dika's brother was genuine or just persuaded me to come down.

I just sit here and make them panic. Strange people with no job.

"Yes, I'm going downstairs, who's suicidal anyway. I just need peace here do not want to kill myself even splashy" I explained to those who still consider me desperate with life.

"Yes key is good, I'm not stupid to be alone in the end"

"Yes key, finally my stupid best friend did not become stupid" Ari and Yuri said very vague and ambiguous.

I tried to get down from there carefully. Why do my hands and feet even shake when it was normal. Moreover, the current wind is even getting louder unlike before.

"Yyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy"

"Yet"

"Keyyyyy" I cried because I slipped, fortunately my hand held back and held the edge of the wall. My heart was pounding violently as everyone screamed and saw I wanted to fall down.

"Keyla hold on, I'll help you" Yuri and Ari bergegss figure out how. While sister Dika tried to help pull my body from there.

"O Allah have finished my history at this time, where the building is high once again" I murmured in a very frightened heart.

My hands kept clutching and holding my body from falling. This soul felt like it was flying. My heart was beating so fast like a war drum.

"Keyla hold on, don't let go" shouted the teacher from below and shouted at friends who kept telling me to stay. My face was desperate because

my fist is already very painful.

"Sister please" I shouted at Dika's sister who tried to pull me. But it seems like he is not strong because my body is probably too heavy.

"Patience key, you are calm do not move your body is very heavy" he said while holding my body that wants to fall.

"But I don't eat much" Arguing at times like this, instead of panicking, debate.

"So sister let me help you" David came over to Dika's sister.

He tried to save me from a height. My feet were frozen with fear. I felt like fainting but I was embarrassed.

"You don't let go of our hands huh" David's instructions made me nod.

"Alhamdulillah" I said as I sat down, still trembling.

"You're done, when the new rope arrives" Yuri and Ari come with but. But I was saved.

"Tells" Shouted the three of us simultaneously. Because it was so late, why did not from earlier come carrying a rope. When it's finished, they come like heroes of misfortune

I tried to stand up to leave. But Dika's big brother held me back from leaving. Suddenly he hugged me tightly. Even his embrace doesn't want to escape me.

"I'm sorry key, for yesterday's mistake. I don't actually want to be like this. Maybe God has given way until now" Brother Dika hugged me tightly.

He said that it was not really me who was wrong but my mother's father who had done something bad.

Brother Dika also said that he really wanted a sister. Because until now in his house was very quiet there were no brothers. Because he's an only child.

"I've forgiven her sister, even though it hurts anyway" Sahutku while returning the hug of Dika's sister.

As soon as the two brothers he united between me and brother Dika despite the difference of mother but we are still one father.

"You're coming with me, we're meeting dad huh" his eyes looked up at hope. Makes me his sister and he wants to be the best brother even though we are different mothers but still one father.

"No brother, I don't want to" I said

"Just calm down, I'd love to see you"

"But I'm not happy to see you. My hatred for my father is still attached to my feet" My heart hurt when I remember the past.

I told him about my life that was really under when my father left me. I don't think I want to meet dad. The figure of the father who was supposed to come hugging his daughter but she instead disappeared for several years.

If it wasn't God who found both of us, maybe this kind of situation wouldn't have broken my heart when I remembered the wounds from the past.

"I'm amazed at you, if you don't want to see me. Then let me be the brother who will take care of you at any time" My heart again fell with a written look from the brother.

His burly hands again embraced me with warmth. This time not because of the love of a lover but rather the love of a sibling in one father.

"Key also wants to have a sister" I cried in her arms. I've lived alone for a long time, only friends can understand. I miss the warmth of a brother.

Panic becomes haru. Yuri also fiercely looked at me who told me in the arms of Dika's sister. Even Ari and Yuri also hugged each other as usual.

"Udah, I've finished crying" I let go of the hug and wiped the tears that soaked my cheeks. Even Dika's shoulder was also wet from my tears.

"Let's go down“ take brother Dika to me

" Bentar brother" I turned and looked at David.

"Thank you so much for helping me" Ucaoku told her with a smile.

"Yes Same, and for yesterday's thing I'm sorry ya key" said David as he reached out his hand and I greeted him with a smile.

"That means we're better" I said, raising my little finger as a sign that we forgot yesterday's misunderstanding.

"Yes" David greeted her with a beautiful smile. If this is so handsome and sweet, now the 2-door refrigerator disappears.

"Hugs, hugs, hugs" yelled yuri into a provocateur for me to hug David.

"Your lips are a habit" I bent his lips so as to make Yuri shut up for a moment. And make them all laugh.

"Again, you two brothers? " Task David when he sees the drama. Me and sister Dika nodded simultaneously then smiled.

Then we went down to the bottom of the class to quell the commotion below. All this because I'm sitting on top of being thought to be suicidal. It seems like karma is also because of judging Ari and Yuri uh even lost and almost lost their lives.

"This is it, ringleader. Try to kill yourself." Adel and his gang came to head my way.

"Yes he is definitely a Deck caper" continued Rena who participated.

"Brisik you two, it's usually just the nyinyir" I snapped on their faces.

There is no day not to talk about empty things. He could only make fun of people without glazing first. Maybe his life is so bleak that he likes to tease.

"Ihhh, poor people don't come near" His hand pushed me until I almost fell. Fortunately, there was David who caught my body.

"David, do not touch the poor man. You want me to tell your papa" As usual the threat is by calling David's father's name.

"You can't be Del, one day don't have to carry papa's name. Long tired of me seeing you" snapped David at Adel and then his steps left in annoyance to leave us all.

"Ayang davidddd, ihhhh" Adel looks upset at being abandoned by David.

"That's why if I have that mouth in the lock, don't keep nyenyye on" Now change my mouth that mocks him.

"Hahahahaha" Adel became the laughing stock of the four of us.

"You poor people" Adel snapped with annoyance at me.

"I've just caught your face" My hand almost reached his face. But I stopped because there was no point in fighting with a mushroom like him.

We left Adel and his gang. Walk towards the classroom while Dika's sister returns to her class. Instantly my relationship and brother Dika back to be good. I'm also happy because I haven't had an older brother who loves and protects me. And now God gave that person even though we were different.

Just sitting in class, suddenly a student called me to come to the teacher's room immediately. I hurried to go there myself. When they asked about my problem, I said fine and answered everything calmly.

I'm not talking about the things that make me tired. About the photo that was scattered earlier, I just kept it tight. I'm afraid the problem is spreading and will prolong the problem. So better just shut up.

Fortunately, the teachers there understood what I was doing. They gave me a lot of advice and support so I wouldn't commit suicide again.

"They believe in the fake suicide I did, ah it's ridiculous" my mind laughed at everything.

It turns out they all thought I wanted to kill myself, but I didn't. My soul is not so weak that it must go to heaven without being called by God. Because I still have a place to complain, so as much as possible enjoy the life that is currently running.