The Crazy Testament's
love or Hate (Mommy)

Falling asleep from the afternoon until morning, making Kirana feel hungry, she woke up rubbing her eyes. And a few times it evaporated.

After his consciousness returned. He felt strange, there was someone beside him, after realizing he almost screamed when he saw a figure beside him who was none other than Zian. But considering that last afternoon Zian was not doing well, so he paused to nag.

Because they had agreed not to sleep together, so Zian slept in a sofa, Kirana was naked.

Kirana got up to the refrigerator and took the juice and two eggs, opened the drawer and found a large package of bread. With the ingredients, he toasted bread and scrambled eggs to just prop up his hungry stomach.

While coolly wrapped in a blanket, Zian smelled the smell of eggs that made his stomach sound. He got up and approached Kirana.

Seeing Kirana who was busy in the kitchen, he ventured to approach Kirana and sat down at the table to eat. Now she felt a little awkward because Kirana had already seen her frail side yesterday.

Kirana realizes that Zian has woken up, she hears the sound of gasrak rusruk Zian's activities. When Zian had approached the dining table, he who was indeed worried about Zian's situation asked.

"You're better?" Zian gasped in shock at Kirana's question, because Kirana did not even turn to him, how did Kirana know he was coming.

"Ah..em..huft..u-have been.." Nervous, his heart immediately pounded incoherently, just like a young man who was kasmaran.

"Hmm.yeah, we have breakfast first, I need an explanation from you" he said making Zian look up at Kirana. Kirana smiled at him.

Though Zian plans not to tell Kirana anything. But due to getting a sweet smile in the morning, Zian automatically nodded obediently.

"OK" he said briefly.

Kirana was still smiling to find that Zian did not argue in the slightest, he offered her one breakfast plate, and another plate for her. He poured the juice into two glasses.

The two of them had breakfast quietly, only the clanking of tableware could be heard.

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Finished eating, Kirana stared intently at Zian, demanding a story from him, understanding being looked at so, Zian let out a long sigh.

"To me" there's a pause in his words, Kirana understands, maybe Zian needs time.

"If you can't tell me, it's okay, next time" she said, staring gently at Zian.

Zian shook his head and said

"I'm ready, I just need a little pause.hehe" her snickering, Kirana shook her head and looked at him flatly.

"Upss..oke okay..hehe" Zian is clumsyly viewed intensely by Kirana, Kirana grunts irritably she is already impatient. He pushed his chair to get up, Zian quickly said.

"That was my real mother yesterday" Zian's words made Kirana gasp in shock and sit back looking for lies in Zian's blue eyes, but Zian's eyes were honest.

"I hate it so much, I used to be a very happy little mom and dad family, at least until I was 8 years old." He took another breath and with a trembling voice he continued again.

"After mommy and daddy divorced, daddy returned home to his hometown in Malaysia. Since then she has changed, she has hated me because I was the son of the man who hurt her. But lucky he just ignored and abandoned me."

Silent for a moment, Kirana who heard that her eyes had started to look glassy. Zian looked at him and smiled faintly.

"Then" asked Kirana increasingly curious,

"Two years later, we heard the news that daddy married again, so mommy hated me even more, and she vented her hatred by hitting me, mommy even started drunkenly drunk, and every time he sees me he'll always beat me up. And the funny thing is I never hated mommy, even at such a young age I worked in Diego's garden yesterday. Mommy and I need, I'm the one who's getting enough of it. But....." Zian paused for a moment, his tears already welled up in his blue eyes.

Kirana pulled Zian's hand and held it tightly.

"You can stop it if you can't" Kirana said with sobs,

"I will continue" Zian said.

After taking a breath and wiping out the water, he told me again.

"I told you, even though I was battered by mommy, I never hated her. Until one night, mommy came home drunk, I was hungry to eat but I accidentally broke his favorite plate, he got angry and hit me and berate me, until...Hm...Until she said that she regretted giving birth to an unlucky child like me...Didn't want me, he just wanted me dead, and not in front of him.. That's why I left mommy and went to Malaysia with the address left by daddy."

Tears fell back on Zian's cheeks, he now sobbed, Kirana got up to Zian and hugged him. Zian wrapped his arms around Kirana's slender waist and drowned Kirana's face. Kirana could only gently rub Zian's head.

"I'm sorry, it made you tell me your pain" Kirana said sobbing, so when she saw Zian was fragile and crying like this she also felt pain.

"Am I wrong to hate him? to be honest, I miss his embrace so much" Zian honestly still sobbed. His shoulders were shaking from crying.

"I don't know what to say, but can't you forgive mommy and make peace with her?" kirana hesitated.

"I wanted....But, when I wanted to start, resentment held me back" she replied, Kirana took off her embrace and held onto Zian's shoulder.

"Let's try, I'll help you escape your pain and hate" Kirana smiled, seeing Kirana's smile Zian's heart warmed and she obediently nodded.

"Yes, we'll be home by noon. Don't you want to introduce your temple wife to your mommy" Kirana's tease makes Zian swallow her saliva rough.

Zian had forgotten their deal. Even now Zian had truly fallen in love with this will wife of his. But he did not dare to reveal it.

Having Kirana by his side alone had made him dare to open old wounds, and tell her everything. Even Kirana promised to help him make peace with his hatred. Zian had truly fallen for this wife.

'Kirana, if only you knew that I love you, even now love you so much' Zian's inner eyes looked clear at Kirana. Which was greeted with a faint smile by Kirana.

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