The Destiny I Chose
Unconcerned

I saw Mas Radit's car enter our yard. To coincide with that, the music from inside the house died. Mom came out with a very happy face. Of course, today is Mas Radit payday. And it has become a habit of Mama to ask for all her salary and fun to please herself.

"Dit, you're paying, right? Where's money?" ask mom while holding hands.

"This is, as always, Ma. Mama holds seventeen million, I hold the rest for cars and snacks." Mas Radit gave the chocolate envelope to my mom.

"Thank you, yeah, Dit. Mama will go shopping first. After that, Mama Nyalon, same as you pay for the arisan. Uh, Mama also saw the latest bags and clothes." Mama seemed to be thinking about the things she mentioned.

"Yes, Ma, take it. Whatever makes Mama mama monday, use my money." That is the answer of Radit.

I can only smile bitterly. There's a sense of tightness in here. I saw my children's clothes were very shabby. Even the negligee I was wearing was torn.

"Mas." I approached Mas Radit and kissed the back of his hand. There's not much I'm telling her. She just went inside without seeing her children. It feels like pain is treated that way. Even with her own child, she does not want to just look and smile.

I also brought my children into the house dirty because they played with sand. While the youngest I put it in the room so that he can continue his sleep.

"Papa, let's go get a car!" Nadia approached Mas Radit who was sitting and was about to climb into his lap.

"Mas, your son will be spoiled with his papa. How are you, anyway." I tried to reprimand Mas Radit to improve his attitude towards Nadia.

"Yes, you saw for yourself that he was dirty! There must be a lot of germs on his body. How the hell are you, how could such a child!" With a hateful look, Mas Radit looked at me. I don't know why every time I see him it feels like he doesn't like it.

"It's only natural that they play sand outside. Ten thousand toys you won't buy." I looked at him with teary eyes. Make sure my tears don't spill.

"It's up to me, dong. My name is I want to be with my mom. If my mom refuses, I won't do it!"

This selfish man was unceasingly hurting my heart. Making a clear round of tears wet my cheeks.

"Nangis know it! Come on, let me see you! Mending I'm hanging out with my friends!" Mas Radit got up from his seat and went out in his car. I can only cry sobbing. It feels so bad to have to experience inner pressure like this every day.

I immediately invited Nadia and Selvia to take a bath because it was late afternoon. After that, I gave them food. Fortunately, the need to eat, mama did not reduce it. Maybe it was because I cooked, so he was forced to share it with us as well.

After they finished eating, I told them to watch television because Naura was up and had to take a shower.