
Yujerian was now sorry. He should have asked them to move from the beginning so that this man would have trouble finding them. He should have told Hestia from the beginning that this man would come even if his mother was astonished.
Hestia trusts him. Hestia considers her speech important and meaningful. There was no way Hestia would ignore him. But Yujerian was silent because he thought there was something to be done with this man!
It turned out that it was just his chest that was hurting and his nonsense was increasing.
Yujerian turned around just like that. "Shine, kuzu ga." [Death, you trash.]
"Can't you hear me for a second?"
"My sister will be angry if she hears you so get off this island! Just go back to your house and live like we didn't know we were!"
"Yujerian—"
"Ja nani ga iitai?!" [Then what do you want to say?!]
Losing his composure in his little soul, Yujerian turned around. Can no longer withstand this suffocating tightness even though now his face looks pitiful.
"You want me to forgive you and say 'it turns out so so alright yasudah'?! You know what I've been through alone?! My sister misses you all the time, a fucking idiot who just begs for forgiveness is useless! Mom's hurt! My mom had to take this fucking drug and now it's useless until it feels like I'd rather die!"
Eros stunned.
It was not Yujerian's talk that made him unable to move. Yet how the boy threw the medicine bag in his hand, kneeling asphyxiated.
When his heart was drawn down, Eros grabbed the boy. Panic finds him with real shortness of breath with a seizure.
For the first time in his life, Eros knew he could die thinking of someone getting hurt.
*
Hestia galloped through the snow-soaked streets, while Yuveria cried back there, carried by Shin.
For a long time he let his son go alone, never once did he get a call that they were injured until rushed to the hospital.
His son was only often injured by a fall, then his knee was abrasive and he had already treated himself.
The boy always apologized for worrying until it felt like Hestia was worried because she never worried.
"Yujrian!"
Hestia who had never cried in front of anyone squeezed out that small hand and sobbed. The sound of crying was almost inaudible but seemed so bitter that Eros swallowed uncomfortable saliva.
"Daijoubu dayou." Sister patted him on the shoulder from behind. "Shimpai. Yuuki was just exhausted. Don't cry in front of him like that. Yuuki won't be happy, will he?" [All is well. No need to worry.]
"Dii!" Yuveria gripped the iron fringe while trying to look up at the bed that was too high for her. "Yuje! Yuve should be accompanying Nii! Yuve should be with Nii! Forgive Yuve, torch."
Then the boy looked at Eros full of wrath.
"You hurt Nii!"
"Yuve—"
"Fake man! I don't admit to a bad fake like you as a father! Get the fuck out of here! Nii is hurt because of you! Because you! You are wrong!"
Eros locked his mouth.
He was an adult, so he knew it was just a clueless remark from a child.
But seeing how his two children misunderstood so heavily that they thought Eros's whereabouts hurt, it felt like Eros' heart was pierced.
After taking a breath, Eros crouched down. Staring at the pale face of his daughter who was shivering in fear.
For them, Eros has always been a stranger and hurt them. So he's not angry if they're disappointed.
"I'm guilty of you." Eros spoke it in Indonesian, so that only they would understand. "I did wrong because I didn't know. I should have known even if I didn't know."
"The!!" [Whispering!]
"Therefore I come even if you beat and insult me." Eros reached out, but was pushed aside very hard as Yuveria sobbed. "Yuveria, give me a chance once. Just one time to prove that I love you."
Yuveria still cursed at him.
"If after that I turn out to still hurt you with my presence, your mother knows a place where I didn't find you."
...*...