The Journey Of Life
19. meet aunt bella

The day just passed, just like that,

This week the school is taking its final semester 2 exam. Our majors have all finished taking the exam, and now we do nothing, just be in class, play phone or chat.

But the computer boy is still busy for the test. Including his class.

Suddenly the andi chat me, asking if I bring a laptop or not. Because he needs her to practice. He said that if you do not bring a laptop, you are not allowed to take the test.

I thought, all this time andi always helped me for everything, when I was difficult he was always there to help me. So now I think I'm going to help him borrow a laptop, so he can take the exam.

I actually had a laptop, but a week ago it broke from a fall, and there was only a computer. Hem... then how about this, I took the initiative to ask my classmates if there is anything that can be guaranteed laptop.

Finally after much effort, I got it sasmita. He's willing to borrow his laptop, but he told me that his laptop is at home.

And his house is not far enough from school.

Then I asked the teacher for permission to go home for a while to take the laptop. After working hard to persuade and convince my new teacher is allowed. We go get the laptop to Sasmita's house, then go back to school in a hurry. I'm afraid that Andy needs it right away.

and after I told you to take it outside, in front of the practice room.

Sasmita deluan entered the class.

I waited for Andi while carrying the laptop in my hand. And want to give me this laptop right away so he can take the exam.

Andi came out with alex. I saw them walking towards me.

On his laptop, I said. Yeayy. makasi ya ngel. Smile and give it to Alex. Nih brew pack..

What.....????? I said in my heart... ???

How did it go to alex? I said curious.

Alex has no laptop. I already exist. Said the andi speaking casually.

Deggg I feel my heart stop beating. The feeling of chaos and emotion become one. I clenched my hands feeling very furious and immediately the expression changed, then I fell silent and immediately left them dead.

On the way I thought.. indeed the andi has no feelings huh? I have belain try to pinjemin him laptop.. and he just casually stay thanks anyway alex??? He's the one who panicked there was no laptop, I guess it was for him it was for alex.

It feels the emotion is already in ubun ubun, the feeling of tired also because it has rushed out of school turned out to be reciprocated like this.

Iky, fiy, and nia came up to me. Ask me why? Why crying.

Then I told him everything, and maybe this is me crying because I was upset or I felt that my efforts were not appreciated. Because only this time I did something like this as long as I lived and again to a man...!!

Patience ngel, emang andi is not very brazen.

Watch out for him. Iky said.

They calmed me down and they thought I needed time alone, so they left me.

Shortly afterwards the andi came with a panicked face toward me..

Why are you ngel? Ask him without feeling guilty.

I'm quiet, and I'm the type of person who when I'm angry or upset I'm sure I'll lock my mouth tight.

He kept pestering me, trying to comfort me, but couldn't I still be so emotional and chaotic..

go, don't bother me. I said loudly to the Andi. But he still cheeses on me to comfort me, I take a small rock wanting to throw him because it keeps approaching me. But no, I threw the stone in a different direction and I went into the classroom, and died. Cause I don't know what's gonna happen next if I stay there.

I went into the classroom, wiped my tears that fell a little and then I said to sasmita, sasmita your laptop is the same andi yes, then take it in her only.. makasi wants a minjemin. Said to him in a soft and limp tone.Oh yes ngel no papa...

makasi sas.and then I passed away to sit on the chair to and fold my hands on the table and made my head fall on my hands. And put my face.

Today was very chaotic, a very chaotic feeling. Feelings of anger, disappointment, feeling in play. And I won't forgive you so easily.

Even though I was close to the alex but did not deny there was still a sense of annoyance because the events that used to happen in the classroom ll ever happened between him and me.

Maybe I'm very angry today because I feel you always put Alex above everything else, prioritizing alex more than himself.

he always obeyed what Alex said, what he asked for..everything, jagaaaaaaaa arghhhh is very funny.

And I'm a little aware today..why not? Why should you care about Andy? Why...? Maybe?..... I don't know!!

I don't know how I feel either. At least I really care about him right now and am also very angry right now.