The Marriage Pursuit.
141. Grace From God.

HAPPY READING'S...

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Akira throws his gaze towards the street from behind the car window. Staring at a lot of people who walk on the sidewalk or just sit at a stop waiting for the bus.

As the doctor said yesterday, today Akira was accompanied by Arjun and Mami Livia went to the hospital. Check the contents to make sure that there is new life in him.

Since morning Akira could not be calm. The anxiety in her made Akira like a fool.

Until a speech from the doctor like lightning in broad daylight. Making something in his chest feel broken and creating a haru atmosphere.

"Congratulations Miss.. You are pregnant...".

The words of the obstetrician were even ringing in the head. Spinning without pause is like a love song.

That was the first time Akira had seen a woman who did not even have blood relations with him in the slightest cry of fullness as she hugged Akira. His lips were unceasingly grateful.

Mami Livia is so happy to hear about her only daughter-in-law's pregnancy.

Also with Arjun, the man who had tied Akira up in a marriage was as happy as the mother. Even Arjun kissed Akira's forehead without hesitation in front of the Doctor and a nurse. Makes Akira's heart rustle strangely. Luckily, she becomes Arjun's wife and becomes part of the Pradipta Family.

But none of this makes Akira happy.

For some reason when he got back in the car that would bring them back home, Akira felt strange.

In the recesses of his heart, Akira felt that this was all too early. She felt that it was not time for her to get pregnant. Akira is not ready to conceive a child at such a young age.

"Would you eat, baby?" ask Arjun from the steering chair. Glanced at Akira who sat with Mami Livia on the middle bench.

"No" answered Akira.

How could he enjoy the food at this time, whereas there was something bothering his heart.

Akira sighed, and of course Arjun was aware of that.

Don't worry Akira.

Arriving at the Pradipta House, Akira immediately walked in. Leaving Mami and Arjun behind her.

"He must have been very surprised." muttered Mami Livia because of Akira's behavior.

Mami Livia was in Akira's position when she first got word that she was pregnant.

There is a feeling of joy and also sadness.

More precisely fear, fear about what will happen after.

Can she be a mother? that one question defines it all.

"Arjun will comfort him." replied Arjun without regret.

All of this has Arjun's responsibility.

Moreover, the doctor has said that the mood of a young pregnant mother is very changeable. Sometimes happy, sometimes sad. Sometimes crying for no reason is natural.

Arjun accelerated his footsteps towards the room. Open the door slowly and search for Akira's whereabouts.

True as expected, Akira was sitting in the middle of the bed while hiding his face with both hands on his knees.

"Honey.." call Arjun in a subtle tone.

Walk up to Akira and sit next to him.

Arjun's hand is raised to caress Akira's head. "Darling... What's wrong?". That question might sound like a joke to Akira. It was obvious that Akira was sad without Arjun even asking. Because that man saw it too.

A few minutes there was no sound, until suddenly a sobbing began to sound.

"Hiks...",

Akira's shoulders trembled along with a voice that started to sound clear. It indicates that he is crying.

"Why?" ask Akira.

Makes Arjun a little confused as to what Akira's question means.

"Why should it be now? why?"

Arjun now understands. What makes Akira cry is the condition where she gets pregnant in a time that she does not think is right.

Arjun remembered Akira's words at the time, it was clear that Akira was not ready to become a mother when she was still a student.

What about his education? what about people's response later? Because on Campus there is no one old if Akira has married. Only people who are so familiar with Akira know that.

"Why do you have heart? why do you want to impregnate me." asked Akira.

Making Arjun slightly jerked in shock and amused by Akira's question just now.

Inseminate her? why does it sound ridiculous.inner Arjun.

But Arjun did not dare to laugh or respond to such a funny question. Akira will get angry later.

"Darling.." call Arjun gently. Touching both of Akira's shoulders for the sake of looking at his face.

It was obvious that the face was filled with tears and sadness.

"Isn't this what everyone expects? Mami, Papi, Father and Mother. and I. Everyone wants you to give birth to the successor of the Pradipta Group later." said Arjun.

Akira still sobbed, "But this is too soon Jun. I'm not ready,".

Akira could not continue his words. His spit was too mute to say that he was afraid.

Seems selfish not if his family demands Akira to get pregnant soon, but Akira does not want it?

"We've talked about this before, haven't we? we agreed to postpone it, right? butwhy? why can?" ask Akira.

He doesn't even know when this happened. Whether it was their honeymoon or that time. The time Akira came home to Dad.

"I'm sorry." replied Arjun.

Somehow seeing Akira cry makes Arjun feel guilty.

Shouldn't Akira be pregnant for now?

Arjun got up from his seat. Walking left Akira alone in the room.

***

Dinner, Akira doesn't see Arjun at all.

The dining room is usually crowded, looks quiet because there is only Mami and Akira there.

Papi Johan was in a meeting outside while Arjun, the man had not been seen at all since noon.

It made Akira's heart feel sad.

It cannot be denied that Akira felt that he had hurt Arjun with his words this afternoon.

Am I wrong too? his inner.

"Arjun said where'd Ra go?" mami Livia opened the conversation.

"I don't know about Mi... Arjun took a shower and left immediately." replied Akira lirih.

It might be offended by my words...

"It's a good thing you love me, unlike Mami when Arjun was pregnant,"

Mami Livia tries to give a different point of view to her daughter-in-law.

As a parent, Mami Livia understands what is troubling Akira's mind right now.

Moreover, it is very clear that Akira is sad.

The curious Akira, raised his head to find out what Mami said just now.

"You know, when Mami was pregnant Arjun was very difficult..." My mother tries to remember her past memories. When pregnant with her first child after marrying Papi Johan.

"Come with Mami... Mami will tell you everything." take Mami Livia to her daughter-in-law.

The two women walked together towards Mami and Papi's room.

Sitting in bed, Mami Livia searches for a photo album.

Open her up and sit down with Akira.

"Look, this is the first time that Mami has checked the contents" Mami explained.

A small photo that looks not so clear but is able to be proof that there is something that over time becomes a baby.

At that time, the age of the mother was still 2 months.

"Mommy was scared that time... My mom was crying too. That's inside Mami's head, just how to take care of the baby while Mami hasn't experienced it...",

Akira also felt what Mami said just now. She is afraid of becoming a new role named Mother.

"Mommy is also crying, not yet able to accept that soon will be a mother.in addition to nausea, dizziness that lasts for almost 4 months.." complained Mami again.

I don't feel it. Inner Akira. But it was Arjun who looked tormented for almost a month. Arjun who felt nauseous and lost his appetite.

Makes Akira again feel guilty about what he said to Arjun this afternoon.

"But when Mami touched the stomach for the first time, Mami's heart was congested. Mami feels guilty for being selfish.all babies can never choose how their parents, they just follow the destiny... He is a gift given by God. There are so many couples out there who even beg every time for a miracle to grow in her womb.You are very lucky because you do not have to wait year after year.." added Mami.

Akira again felt guilty, and returned to crying. "Hiks.." he said as he touched his flat stomach.

I'm sorry God...

True what Mami said, all babies born in the world can never ask to be born in what kind of parents.

They are committed to their own destiny.

"Don't think too weird baby. There's Mami, Papi, Arjun and your parents.we'll always be with you.

Without Akira noticing, Mami Livia also wants to take care of her grandson later if Akira does not want to take care of him.

"Mami.." said Akira feeling moved. And without hesitation, Akira embraced her in-laws body. Spilling his sadness there.

"Don't be sad, if you are sad your baby will also feel sad later." pinta Mami.

Akira nodded in understanding.

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Very wise Mami Livia...

Who is the first time pregnant to feel scared? fear of not being able to take care of the baby, not being able to be a good mother...

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