The Noctah Merah Book
CHAPTER 23. Just One of my Wishes

The clock has shown at 11:00 pm, whether it has been how long, Gao is in his position, which is to stay in the living room of the apartment sitting on the sofa and contemplating himself, after a long time of contemplating himself and how ahead, Gao finally chose to go into the room to sleep, she was grateful that Jia still considered her husband and allowed him to sleep in the room with her even though they might not be okay.

Arriving inside the room, Gao saw Jia and Alea sleeping on the bed, his heart was smiling for a long time he was not this way because the last few days he had always been indifferent to Alea and Jia.

"God, why does my heart hurt to see this?" inner Gao who felt that this was an actual family to dream of, this was before the family he had built himself for 10 years and with one day he just destroyed it.

Gao looked after himself, feeling that he did not deserve to sleep in the same bed with Jia or Alea, so he chose to take a pillow and then sleep on the carpet on the floor.

Before falling asleep, Gao sat for a while on the floor, leaning his back on the bed where, in the bed, Jia and Alea fell asleep, he again contemplated his fate in the wake of Jia and Alea, too, life itself becomes a widower in the future.

"Am I strong later, am I able to but if I survive, pity Jia and Alea, No Gao, you should be able, you should be able to, you should be able to, you can't take Jia or Alea you have to be strong!"

Gao tried to strengthen himself, I don't know what was in his head You only imagined one reason why he was so cool to want a divorce from Jia.

So far Gao has one reason, he doesn't want to force a marriage when he can't survive anymore and when this is all done he is forced to fear going forward, he said, Jia will be tormented with her already slowly not loving Jia anymore.

Sounds stupid, how a partner married 10 years can experience a gradual loss of love when nothing changes from their relationship except the age of their relationship.

But Gao had one true reason that could not be revealed, one that was the best reason why he had to divorce Jia.

"Jia can't know, about my illness."

After talking to his own heart, Gao chose to sleep on the carpet looking up at the ceiling trying to prospect back his feelings, that he was fine he would still be fine whatever in front of him, he said, he will live it himself because he does not want others to feel burdened by him when one day he will actually fall, and could do nothing more and the first person he did not want to burden was his own wife.

That was why he had a strong reason to part from Jia, because he knew that in the future he would be completely useless again, she would absolutely not be able to be a husband completely anymore and she did not want Jia to feel that she wanted Jia to be happy.

That's just Gao's wish.