The Thorny Journey
yana's sadness

Ambulance was waiting for Rasya's body to enter the car, Yana and Mak were already sitting in the front seat, while Maknya Yana was swiftly sitting on the seat later.

" As for Rasya Yana's departure, it's not good that you hold up like this, he also feels like you feel, his footsteps will be heavy Yana." mak Yana's advice to Yana who still hasn't stopped crying since last night.

Hafiz was placed in Yana's lap, the ambulance moved slowly to bring Rasya's body to his last resting place, Abah Yana buried Rasya's body right in front of his home in Abah Yana's hometown.

" Reply quickly you leave Umi nak, hiks...hiks.." said Yana during the funeral procession.

Yana saw firsthand how her tiny child's body was entered into a burrow, the body that had been disappearing kab tired her, where Yana was spoiled, where Yana joked with her senses, every night Yana stares at her son's face when his son is nearing his sleep, never does Yana shadow her son will go away as soon as this, will go away leaving Yana for her forever, don't just dream in real life Yana never.

" Already Yana do not criticize anymore, you are not tired of what, from last night you cry until now has not stopped" said the grandmother next to her Abah to Yana.

The grave of Yana's son was in front of her grandmother's house, after the funeral process Yana gradually went to the grandmother's house which was not far from where Yana was standing, the people who helped the process of digging the grave are still in place, they are told to go home to Yana to eat first, Yana decided to rest at her grandmother's house.

Yana was asleep for a while on the porch of her grandmother's house, all night Yana did not sleep finally Yana succumbed to the state of Yana asleep without realizing it, the child in Yana's lap also fell asleep.

The tahilan event that yana did for seven days at home, for seven days it was also Yana still hoped her child would wake up, yana every day going to the grave of her child.

" You're cold Rasya, are you hungry?" yana asked herself as she continued to look at the grave of her child in front of her eyes.

Yana's grandmother who saw Yana's attitude was always beristighfar, Yana was too bad with the circumstances, ngak nisa accept will lose the child in her life.

" Don't Yana, you forget that you still have God who is always there when you need to, pray Yana so that you are more at peace with the situation!" said someone who was not able to see Yana slumped even further.

the seven-day event was completed, although Yana was not fully healed at least Yana no longer sent food to the grave of her son Rasya, or Yana no longer carries an umbrella to the grave when the rain falls soaking her child's grave.

The house that was previously low boisterous with the sound of Rasya and Hafiz playing, now quiet as there are no residents, hafiz although he was a child but he also knew what loss meant.

" Yana you must now take a firm decision for yourself and your family" Abah Yana said one afternoon.

During the mourning period Abah Yana lives with Yana here, the Yana lives in is Yana's grandmother's house next to her Mak, Yana's grandmother has long since died, from empty so the house was occupied Yana and her husband.

Faizal after seven days he returned to his hometown until now was not involved anymore. The reason yesterday with Abah Yana, he had to work was not allowed a long holiday.

in the yard of the grass house has reached, because Yana has a child like Rasya who was sick before, making Yana can not do her activities as a housewife is cleaning kam Yana's house.

" Abah! I want to part with Bang Faizal, I can't accept him being my husband anymore, because he's my son until Abah dies." Abah gasped in shock at the words coming out of Yana herself.

. " He is not the angel Yana who can take human lives" replied Abah Yana trying to be the middle man.

Abah Yana is still defending Faizal in front of her child" Abah told her son Yana.

Faizal after the incident rarely returned home, he did not remember there would be other children who had been waiting for him at home, his children still need the figure of a father in his life.

" But I still hate her Abah, she doesn't care about her sick child, never gives me a decent living so my son can't be helped." yana said on the sidelines of her cry.

Abah only heard Yana's complaints in her own pendam all this time, Yana tried sincerely live her household life, Yana did not want her children from a divorced family, berai, but Yana's decision to keep her household turned out to be wrong.

" What is your decision now?" abah asked seriously to Yana.

Yana's face that was swollen from crying for a few days could not make a decision with a heart that was not okay.

" It's better to think about Yana, don't make a big decision." Mak Yana between Yana and Abah.

Yana's house, which was previously full of relatives, is now deserted, only Abah, Mak and the children of Yana are left, Yana feels the real loss because before Yana Tidal was far from Rasya, every mother would not be able to if she had to lose her children, she said, but we must turn again to the written destiny for each of us.

" True that Yana is better now think first how we don't like this anymore, Rasya is also sad to see you like this!" Abah never tired of advising Yana.

At such a young age Yana had to carry such a heavy burden on her back, Yana never lived well like other families, but Yana remained patient and hoped that her husband would one day change, but even this kind of situation, Faizal was increasingly affected by the circumstances outside, there was never the slightest bit of guilt on Yana and the children.

" Want to go to Yana market? we're shopping for lunch?" Abah takes Yana to the market, so that Yana's sadness is a little lost.

Yana and Abah were close, even though she was married and had children, to Abah Yana, she was still a young girl.

" Faizal has always been like this, huh Yana? never come home?