Thirsty Will Desire
Koma

I had hoped that the burden had been lifted from my shoulder after finally talking to the doctor, unfortunately it turned out to be absolutely not, even it felt now more deeply unbecoming.

I feel more depressed. I just want to see Edo.

"Nad." Call Resa.

"Yes." Yeah." My solute. I was too tired to look at him.

"How's Edo?" Ask Resa.

"Edo just finished surgery, but they still won't know anything until tomorrow morning."

"Know about what?"

I sat down and gestured for Resa to sit next to me. For a while I just kept quiet so I could explain it well.

"When Edo's head hit, it hit his brain. We will not know how severe the injury is, when he will be awake, or if there is damage to his brains, until the doctor will stop the drug on him.

I looked at Resa as soon as we met. Resa hugged me.

" Lo not alone Nar, we face this together, the cave will always be there for you."

Hearing Resa's words I seemed a little smiling feeling good to have a friend like Resa. Who always accompany in joy and sorrow. I let go of our embrace and then I wiped my tears.

Instantly I remembered whether aunt Sonya had not come here to visit her struggling son. Is this what Edo had felt no one cared about. Once I realized that, it turns out that what Edo has been saying about thirst for affection and always feeling lonely is true.

"Res, aunt Sonya has nothing to do with you?" My toot.

"Nobody, not even a cave chat he's not bales."

"Didn't he care about his son." My spoken.

"After cave aunt Sonya always bring a man to his house playing cards or just drinking.His behavior makes Edo sick and become hard he was lonely because he felt embarrassed to see the behavior of his mother, and he was very sad, that's why Edo always vent to the girls who fared the same as him just to get attention."

I was shocked to hear what Resa told me, it was unfortunate that Edo's fate made me feel guilty about accusing him of being a macem. Now I can only go silent hoping for some good news about Edo.

"Lo should know Nar, Edo is really sincere."

"Yes Res cave knows that, which now the gua thinkin is Edo's hope for life."

"Oh yes the cave was already taking lo medicine, this you drink first so that your condition is better." Giving medicine.

I threw the pills in my mouth and swallowed them with a gulp of water running down my throat.

"Gua wants to go to the cafeteria first Nar, kasian Dika himself from earlier the cave has not been bought." Resa tried to entertain. I smiled hearing Resa's words.

"The cave will follow Res."

I started walking forward. The double doors in the lobby opened as I passed by, sending waves of cold air around me. I stopped looking out, and decided that the fresh air could make me feel better.

I sat on a bench under the canopy. See the view at the hospital. My heart wondered if Edo would survive if he would die. As soon as those thoughts crossed my mind, I immediately suppressed them. There's no point in me thinking like this, because it's not going to happen. I was angry at myself why my mind was like that. I got up from my seat and continued my steps to follow Resa to the cafeteria.

The next day I went into the waiting room, I saw Dr. Erwin.

"How are you?"

Doctor Erwin stood up.

"We're still drugging him and can already do some tests. I'm waiting for the test results, but if you want to see it it's okay for a few minutes."

"Now? Can I see him now? Tanyakku.

"Nara actually I can't let anyone in." Doctor Erwin's.

"There has been no change to the recovery stage, I should not allow you to enter. But since it's my turn to take care, so I think it's good to let you come with me."

I followed Dr. Erwin through the nursing room, through several doors and continued down the hallway to the double door leading to the operating room. Before we went any further, Dr. Erwin took me to a room where we both washed our hands. Arriving in the room where Edo was lying, I was barely able to breathe. My feeling is so nervous. My heart was about to burst into my chest.

"Nara. He was dependent on a ventilator to help him breathe, but it was intentional to put him in a medically comatose state. With the high dose of medicine we gave her, there was now no chance she would wake up. I let you be with him for a few minutes, that's all I can give you for now, okay?"

I'm nodding.

Doctor Erwin pushed the door of the room and let me in.

As soon as I saw Edo, I had to fight hard to breathe. It felt like all the air was gedor from my lungs. The ventilator machine seemed to suck a beam of air and then release it again. The repeated sounds of the machine, it felt as if my hope was being pushed out from within me.

I walked to the bed where Edo lay and clasped his hand. Feels cold. I pecked his forehead, I pecked it many times. I just want to lie next to her and hug her. Lots of hoses, tubes and cables are milling around everywhere. I pulled the chair near her bed and hooked her fingers to my finger. It was getting harder for me to see Edo behind the blur that caused my tears, so I had to wipe him first with my shirt. Edo looked so calm.

"I love you Edo." My whisper.

Kukecup.

"I love you Edo." Whisper again.

The blanket covered him tightly, and Edo wore a hospital gown. His head was wrapped in bandages. The ventilator tube gouged out her mouth, so I could only peek at her cheek. I know Edo won't be able to hear me, but I'll keep trying to talk to him.

"Edo you must heal." I caress his head.

"I can't do it without you Edo."

I kissed his palm, and then put it on my cheek. The feeling of his skin sticking to my skin seemed unreal. The moment that comes to my mind will not be sure if I will ever feel it again. I closed my eyes, peeked at his palm again and again. I dudum next to him, while repeatedly kissing the part of Edo's body that I can kiss.

"Nara." Call doctor Erwin. "We need to get out now."

I stood up and peeked at Edo's forehead, took a step back and took another step to kiss his hand.

Doctor Erwin grabbed my hand.

"Nara we have to get out."

I turned around and took a few steps towards the door.