Three Musketeers Mom
TMM 107'S. New Prospective Family Member

Alexias*

To be honest, I was surprised. My heart was beating hard too. It feels like someone wants to come out of this cavity of my chest.

Deg .. deg .. deg ....

The sound of my heart beating.

I am happy and moved. I'll have another child. Yeah, I'm gonna have another kid. I can't express my feelings that are exploding. I pressed it as much as I could.

Having another child, just thinking about it makes me so excited. I wish I could be a better husband and father than I am now. Want to be the perfect person.

It's my first time, I'll take care of a pregnant mother. Before, I couldn't be with Lora when she was pregnant with the triplets. However, I will make sure, if I will always be by his side, whatever will happen later.

I heard and listened carefully to every doctor's explanation. I who do not understand, began to know what can affect the good or good feelings of a pregnant woman. So, I really have to prepare myself, heart and mind. If at any time? there's something, I'll cope more easily.

After I finished hearing the doctor's explanation, Lora and I left the examination room. I don't want to go back, ah .. No, I mean I still want to enjoy alone time with Lora. So, I decided to take her to the park next to the hospital. I'd like to take her for a walk before we go back to our children's room.

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In the garden, I asked him to sit on an empty bench, which was under a shady tree. I did not sit down, but I chose to kneel one leg and immerse my face into his lap.

Now, I can no longer cover up my harrowing feelings. I cried without shame in front of Lora.

I could feel a soft caress in my head, as well as a pat on my back. Apparently, Lora was comforting me. His voice was soft, asking me to talk. He wanted to know why I was acting so strange. My mouth is glued together by glue. It made me silent not to answer. I still hold on to my position.

After I felt calm, I turned my head to look at Lora. His fingers wiped my tears, his forehead, his eyelids, his nose, my cheeks and then, my lips softly. I finally revealed what became dust in my heart to Lora.

I said everything I wanted to say and what I thought. Even though I've done it and it's too late, I still apologize to Lora. For what happened in the past.

" ... sorry .. " said.

"Yes? lora looks confused. "I'm sorry? what's for?" tanyakanya.

Before I answered, I changed my position. I stood up and sat down beside Lora. I held onto Lora's fingers. Because I don't want to lose him.

"For all. What has happened in the past. Don't lie, you must have been in a lot of trouble, right? while pregnant with triplets." I said, recalling the past.

I see, Lora was silent for a moment. Then he began to answer what I said. Lora did not argue with me. He admitted, if he objected.

"I'm not gonna dodge, Lex. What you said is true. I never even thought, if I was pregnant. It all feels like a dream to me. Moreover, I had just been accepted to work for a few days. Wouldn't it be embarrassing and strange, the employee who just received work suddenly his stomach is bloated, even though he is not married." he said, He took a deep breath and then, exhaled slowly. "If you think I'm okay, then I'll emphasize. At the time, I was not very well. In fact, I had a vile thought because of my selfishness" he said, which immediately stopped.

I scrunched my forehead. I knew he was in trouble because I wasn't with him at the time. But, I didn't think she would tell me this whole time. I wonder why he paused his words. He said he was selfish. What kind of egoism? I became more curious and wanted to know more.

Lora looked at me, "If I told you, you wouldn't be red? because of what you're about to hear, it's all the truth that I'm going through and thinking about. I'll even do it." it's serious.

"Take your breath then, exhale slowly. Don't tell me anything you find hard or difficult to tell. We can tell it casually and slowly, Lora." I replied.

How could he think I would be angry? I just don't know what he's thinking. If I had known, then I wouldn't have needed to ask so many questions and make a record of the notes in my mind.

"Then, I wanted to abort my womb. When I first found out I was pregnant, my mind was in a complete mess. I was panicking, anxious and agitated. How can I conceive the child of a stranger I don't know. Even his face I did not see it. I'm afraid, if my new career is ruined. At the time of having such thoughts, I did not know if the fetus I was carrying was a twin baby. Know it? Hannah was the first to oppose me aborting my womb. He asked me to check my contents first before I actually made such a big decision. I thought I came to the hospital to check. And .. I was shocked, when I found out I was pregnant with a prospective triplets. I was confused, how could I lose three lives at once? the doctor explained if one fetus has not developed well, but the other two fetuses look fine. I unknowingly said a prayer, asking God to protect my three baby candidates. I can't hold back my tears anymore. I cried bitterly at that very moment. "long Lora told me. The point is, we should not just make decisions because we are emotional.

Unknowingly, I took a breath. It made Lora shocked and confused. He thought that Aki was angry with him.

"Bhhh .... "

"What's up, baby?' ask Lora.

"It's okay. I'm just a little surprised. I don't blame you, if you had such thoughts. How else, you will just work and want to organize your life for the better. But I'm proud too. Because in the end you will accept also give birth to them. Even you can raise the twins so well as you are today.

"Once all of that. I'm so happy. Can get pregnant again now. I look forward to him coming to this world. I was also curious, will she be, girl or boy. Who wanted to laugh, 'Whether I give birth to twins again or not" said Lora trying to make me comfortable with the situation.

I kissed the back of Lora's hand, "Whatever happens, I'll protect you. This time I don't want to be a loser. I'll take care of you, the triplets and our future son. Let me endure all your discomfort. Your tightness and even pain. Give it all to me, let me feel it." I explained. Who would risk everything for my wife and children.

Lora looked surprised, "What? why does it have to be like that? no need, Lex. I can do it myself. But, I won't be able to resist your wishes either." she replied.

"I'm sorry, if I'm forced," I said.

"It's okay. Your intentions are good. That alone is enough to relieve me." replied Lora.

"Then, let's do it." take me.

"Me-do what?" tanyanya's confused.

"Come, we fight together. We strive together, to be the best parents for the triplets and for our future children. From now on, we must support each other, encourage, and also share the burden of the mind. Especially you, Lora. Don't do anything you think of without my permission. Ok." I said.

Lora nodded, sign agreed. He smiled looking at me. Her smile was so pretty, it made my heart go back to acting.

"Would we go back now? we're going to spread this good news to everyone. The twins will be happy, they will have a sister." I said.

"Yes, come. They must be fretting for us too, baby." said Lora.

We stood up from our sitting position. Our feet simultaneously stepped away from the park and walked towards the hospital building.

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