Timeless Love's
More Hurting
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You even gave me a rose
It won't change the fact that you have to be with him.
♡♡♡♡
Love doesn't have to have but isn't love happiness, then isn't not having will make your love hurt?
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The night sky slowly began to fade, the sun was timidly out of the contest, leaving behind cold temperatures and also the morning dew that was wet but provided coolness. Finally, after a long night, Hagi woke up from his sleep.
The first thing he saw was a namja, a namja who had also fallen asleep beside him a few days ago, this Namja sleeps on his right side even though now he is holding his hand so tightly like never before, but this time they are not both, but this time they are not both, there was Young Ae's mistress who also fell asleep on her left, Hagi did not really remember yesterday's incident, which she remembered she was unconscious on the stretcher. Besides that Hagi only felt his body shiver withstanding the excessive pain and cold.
"I swear I won't drink that tonic again." Hagi grumbled inwardly when he knew he was about to die from the side effects of the herbs he drank, his body still feeling limp now.
If it wasn't for his mission he wouldn't have risked his life the way he is now, but he would still have to figure out his way home, as if remembering that Hagi was made aware if he should start thinking of ways to thwart Hyunmie's marriage, but how? Even his ancestors had not been found.
Slowly the namja next to Hagi woke up and looked at the surprised Hagi who was looking at him heartily.
"You awake? Ah thank goodness. You need anything? Or do you feel pain? Say anything?" The words of the namja made Hagi smile knot there was a warm feeling enveloping his heart, when Namja was so worried about him, Hagi's smile actually made the namja fixated for a moment before finally Young ae's mistress woke up from her sleep. The man immediately took off his hand and looked the other way.
"Oh God you're finally awake, you know how anxious I am?" Hagi looked at Madam Young ae feeling guilty. Again he was troubling the people around him.
"I'm sorry I'm troubling you guys." Hagi tried to sit down then quickly Young ae's mistress helped him.
"Didn't you sleep first? If you need anything just say it?" Madam Young ae looked at Hagi grimacing as Hagi came back like she was holding back pain while fixing her sitting position.
"No madam I've been better." Namja beside Hagi snorted bitterly.
"What okay? You almost died last night." As if Hagi was resuscitated staring at the namja beside him confused, shouldn't this namja be in the palace?.
"Why are you here? Shouldn't you be at the palace? Is the reception going well?" The name Kyuhyun took a slow breath and looked at Hagi softly. Yeoja is still thinking about her mission when she almost died.
"The way is going well thanks to you, and again I'm asked by Your Majesty to take care of you until you wake up, that's why I can be here." Hearing the King called Hagi staring at Kyuhyun in surprise.
"What's? So Your Majesty already knows?" This time Hagi looked at Young Ae's mistress who looked glum.
"Ne, and His Majesty scolded us all out for not reporting anything about yesterday's attack." Hagi slashed out a breath then gave a small nod, he had already predicted this before.
"If you need anything you just tell Young Ae, I have to go now. Last night with a heavy heart Your Majesty should go back to the palace and tell me to preach it directly if you are conscious." Hagi gave a small nod, but when Kyuhyun was ready to leave Hagi again clasped Kyuhyun's hand that had held it.
"Mrs, can you leave us both?" Hagi's words successfully made Young Ae's mistress confused but she kept going from there, in contrast to Kyuhyun who suddenly felt his body feverish while in the two stay with Hagi, who was suddenly in the same house, what else now Hagi looked at him so deeply and did not say anything.
"You, you didn't say anything to His Majesty about your father?" Knowing what Hagi was going to discuss, Kyuhyun slowly began to breathe a sigh of relief, although his heart was still impudently beating.
"No, I don't dare say it yet." Hagi nodded in understanding then took off the grip on Kyuhyun's hand.
"Don't say anything, let me tell His Majesty." Kyuhyun gave a small nod, for some reason he was a little disappointed when he saw Hagi's calm reaction, as if only he felt the tormenting feeling he had now, but when recalling the King's words, Kyuhyun shook his head slowly.
"All right now I'm going." Hagi again clasped Kyuhyun's hand as Kyuhyun was ready to leave, with a nervousness that Kyuhyun could not cover looking at Hagi pretending to be annoyed.
"What else is it?"
"Do you still love Hyunmie?" Hearing that remark Kyuhyun for a moment fell silent and then gave a small throat.
"Are you kidding me? He's my sister-in-law's candidate, and again it's none of your business." Irritated that Kyuhyun left Hagi alone, Kyuhyun was upset that Hagi was unaware of his feelings and asked Hyunmie how she felt.
But not for Hagi, Hagi thinks Kyuhyun is offended because Hagi discusses the issue of Kyuhyun's feelings for Hyunmie, whereas Hyun Mie is his sister-in-law's candidate.
"I'll help you Kyuhyun_ah.whatever I'll do, even if it hurts me." Hagi stared at the door that Kyuhyun passed through merrily, Hagi felt foolish for loving people in the past that he obviously could not have.
Kyuhyun directly reported the state of Hagi to King Sejong in the palace making the young King breathe a sigh of relief. Honestly, since last night King Sejong could not sleep because he knew that Hagi had not been aware, without waiting for a long time the King ordered Eunuch Choi to prepare, he wanted to go see firsthand the state of Hagi.
"I also wanted to scold her so much, she was so young but acted like she knew it all." The king muttered slightly annoyed as Eunuch Choi had already prepared a horse for him behind the palace, several bodyguards including Kyuhyun were already preparing in front and behind. As usual, the king used the clothes he was wearing to disguise himself. Without wasting any time the party went towards the mistress's brothel Young ae.
Arriving at the brothel without responding to Young ae's mistress's welcome, The king immediately went to the pavilion where Hagi was being treated with impatience the King entered the room of Hagi who was now still seen conversing with Nam Young.
Seeing the King come Nam Young immediately stood up and at that very moment the King sat beside Hagi and hugged Hagi who could only be stunned motionless, not only was Hagi shocked but everyone who was now standing in front of the door also seemed surprised to see the King hugging Hagi but quickly Eunuch Choi asked everyone to leave Hagi's room and closed doorway.
Kyuhyun who had seen that can only close his eyes also clenched his clenched hands holding back his tight feelings, Nam Young who saw Kyuhyun just patted Kyuhyun's shoulder in sympathy. After all Nam Young knew what Kyuhyun felt like to Hagi.
"Take it easy." Nam Young's words suddenly made Kyuhyun step away from the pavilion he needed to calm himself down, he could not act rashly he had to know what position he was in.
Inside the room the King stared at Hagi grudgingly making Hagi slightly uncomfortable, all this time Hagi instead did not know the feeling of this King to him. But Hagi did not know if the King was this worried.
"Are you better?" Still looking down, Hagi answered as he could. Seeing the awkward Hagi the King took off his hand grip on Hagi then started to keep his distance. With a contrived expression the King began to scold Hagi.
"You know, you've bothered everyone all night and how dare you make your own decisions without consulting me? Don't you respect me as your King?" The King's words suddenly made Hagi look at the King and then shook his head strongly.
"No, not so, Your Majesty. I'm just afraid that His Majesty will be further burdened if the welcoming event for the Yuan envoy is interrupted. Because I'm sure His Majesty will definitely ask me to quit the mission if I find out I'm hurt. I also have no other solution to deal with the chaos here while the event is only 3 days away. I'm sorry for making His Majesty unhappy." King Sejong could only open his mouth and close it again when he was out of words, although what Hagi said was true, still King Sejong felt that Hagi did not believe him.
"You are stubborn. How should I punish you." Hagi looked back down while occasionally staring at the King in fear, he knew for sure the King would be angry, but he did not expect the King to be this angry.
"Sorry Your Majesty." eventually King Sejong could only sigh slowly and then again clasped Hagi's hand.
"Please don't repeat something like this, I want you to share with me. Not as a king, but as a friend. Can you do it?" Hagi looked at King Sejong in front of him with a smile, in the future the person who had the same face as the person in front of him had also said the same thing to Hagi. Although their nature is different, but their concern is really the same.
"Thank you, Your Majesty." King Sejong nodded his head slightly then smiled in relief.
"Your majesty, can we talk together?" Hearing Hagi's sudden remark the King frowned in confusion.
As if understanding Hagi's intent, the King asked everyone to wait outside the pavilion and without having to repeat his orders, Eunuchs and Young ae's mistress as well as Nam Young walked out of the pavilion.
"Now tell me what you want to say?" Having felt only the two staying Hagi looked at the King in front of him seriously.
"Does Your Majesty have any plans to take Kim's heart again?" Hearing the words of Hagi Raja sighed softly, the King did not have any plans but even though the King did not want Hagi to get involved again.
"Not yet, I won't involve you anymore about minister Kim, I know you're hurt for sure because of his man. You're just enough to be my bodyguard from now on." Hagi nodded in disagreement.
"Your Majesty knows that's impossible. Only I can now help His Majesty, I am a neutral party who will not defend any Faction His Majesty knows that. I know the Kim minister who tried to hurt me, but I also know that the Kim minister is the strongest person who can be the crown prince's throne booster for the future. Your Majesty, my permission is to help Your Majesty." The king looked at Hagi in frustration as to why it was so hard to give Hagi an understanding, that dealing with Kim's minister was so dangerous.
"I promise what I will do will not harm anyone including myself Your Majesty." This time Hagi started to beg the King making the young King only able to sigh softly.
"Okay, but I'll pull you off this mission right away if you get hurt again. Do you know why I sent you on this mission? Because I thought you weren't gonna get hurt, but look you almost died fighting Kim. But you're still stubborn. Keep my trust this time you understand." Hearing the King's words, Hagi smiled happily.
"For now I want you to be healthy first you understand?" This time Hagi nodded small.
"I obey Your Majesty." The king only shook his head slowly, only this time did anyone dare to bargain with him like this.
"For now is there anything you need? I'll prepare it for you." Hearing King Hagi's offer as if remembering something.
"Can I have Nam Young look after his cousin Your Majesty? I think just in case it's good to have someone guard the Crown Princess Candidate before entering the palace." The king nodded in agreement, he did not think about it before his.
"All right, is there more?" Hagi looked at the King hesitantly this was actually a personal request, but what His Majesty would not suspect.
"This is actually a personal request, am I allowed to see the family data of the Crown Princess candidate? I have something to make sure of." Hearing Hagi King's words frowned in surprise.
"Can I know what it is?" Hagi bit his lips in dismay and it was seen by the King.
"Alright I won't force you if you won't answer. I'll have someone deliver it to you tonight. All right I gotta go back, I hope you don't move much Hagi. I really want you to heal." Hagi smiled then looked down obediently.
"Your Majesty..."
That afternoon the king returned to the palace, Nam Young was officially sent to the Crown Princess's house at Hagi's request while Kyuhyun returned to be the King's bodyguard and was not even given a chance to talk back to Hagi.
Although actually Kyuhyun is still a little disappointed in Hagi who is still not sensitive to his feelings especially when he knows from other bodyguards if Hagi had asked for time alone with the King, making Kyuhyun must withstand every emotion that sprung up in his heart.
But Kyuhyun wanted to once again confirm Hagi's condition even once, but again King Sejong tried to make him unable to see Hagi.
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The sinking sun quickly made the mistress's brothel Young ae back as crowded as yesterday, from a distance seen someone riding a horse into the backyard of the Embroidery house mistress Young ae. After knowing what the need of the person was, foreman Kang immediately drove the person to the pavilion where Hagi was, there was Ma's uncle and aunt who just found out if his adopted son was injured.
"Miss Hagi, there's an emissary from the palace delivering something from Your Majesty." Hearing that Hagi who was still being advised by his two adoptive parents breathed a sigh of relief.
"Send him in." That was when Hagi saw one of his escort friends come in and sat down before him.
"Oh, Changmin_it..." Changmin immediately clasped Hagi's hand then looked at Hagi anxiously.
"I heard you got hurt? Why didn't you tell me?" Hagi smiled wistfully, while uncle and aunt Ma smiled happily, a lot of people turned out to care so much for his adopted daughter.
Shim Changmin was one of the bodyguards after Nam Young who was close to Hagi, Changmin was also the first to realize Hagi was a female among the other bodyguards.
"I'm sorry I couldn't tell him back then, the welcoming event was very important to His Majesty."
"But still, you can only tell Kyuhyun and Nam Young once." Changmin started to put on a different face when he first entered, to be honest Changmin was very jealous because Hagi was very close to Kyuhyun and Nam Young.
"Sorry.. ah you brought something for me from His Majesty?" As if he was aware of his arrival here, Changmin immediately gave a parcel to Hagi.
"Say you need this document, the King asked me to give it to you." Hagi opened the parcel in which there were indeed some documents he had been looking for lately.
"Thank you, tell His Majesty I'll return it as soon as possible." Changmin nodded slowly then started to tell him whatever happened in the palace during Hagi's leave. Changmin was so excited to tell Hagi, especially about the crown prince who had stolen the time to see the crown princess candidate at his residence, also Changmin said about Nam young who had officially escorted the crown princess candidate to the palace.
After feeling enough to talk at length with Hagi, Changmin came back to the palace and left Hagi to rest. Ma's uncle and aunt also went straight back to Park's ministerial residence after being convinced that Hagi had improved.
When Hagi felt alone, Hagi quickly opened the document that Hagi had wanted to read, Hagi carefully read all the data. His eyes were rounded when the name of the sister-in-law of the crown princess was read by him.
"Shin Min ah..." Hagi seemed stunned when his guess was correct if his ancestor was one of the nobles related to the kingdom.
But Hagi's gaze fell on the other documents beside him, Hagi quickly reopened them after reading the short message that King gave on the main page of the document.
That day until midnight Hagi was busy reading all the documents over and over again, Hagi also seemed to think hard to find a way out that was profitable not only for him but also everything.
Several times the mistress Young ae asked her to rest but as usual Hagi was always stubborn. He would only eat and drink the tonic he had prepared for him.
Actually Hagi had found his way out, only his chest felt tight every time he thought about it. He is unable to carry out this plan, but Hagi must do so if he does not want Hagi to disappear.
With trembling hands and tears in her eyes, Hagi began writing letters to His Majesty. When he finished writing Hagi started sobbing unable to bear his cries. His heart could not hold back the reality if forever his love would never come.
"Why my love should hurt this..."
In the morning, the letter and the package from Hagi arrived at the King's room, without waiting for a long time the King opened the letter from Hagi, and the, the young King's face turned cloudy and there was a sense of disagreement with the contents of the letter that Hagi gave him, even though what Hagi wrote was so reasonable.
The king also opened the package that accompanied Hagi's letter, there were two packages the first was the document he came to give to Hagi and another was a note that looks still new. Slowly King Sejong read it
"How can he be this smart? This record is very valuable to Joseon." After he finished reading the note, King Sejong looked back at the letter that Hagi had given.
"Why did you hurt yourself just to help me?" The king muttered sadly as he read back what plan Hagi had made to solve the problem he was currently facing.
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