Timeless Love's
All My Heart's

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Loving you is also the most painful and happiest destiny of my life

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When I realized it was too late, but being able to see you near me was enough for me

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Gentle trickling wind this morning, the sun was still shy out of the dispute making some people in Hanyang still covered in thick sheets in their respective homes, but not with Hagi after the letter he delivered to the King this morning Hagi could not close his eyes at all, even though the wound he had required him to rest a lot. And here she is now waiting for the sun to shine on her cooling body behind the mistress's brothel Young ae.

The simple house he had the result of being a palace guard he rarely occupied. Alone will only make him miss his family even more even in Joseon itself Hagi has a family of Lift. As the sun began to shine on his body, Hagi raised his head while closing his eyes trying to enjoy the calmness after the last few weeks filled with missions and his heart wobbled.

"You're prettier than I imagined." The words made Hagi open his eyes and stand up from his seat.

"Your Majesty..." Hagi sat down to pay his respects when he found out who had come, it was still early in the morning and the king had already come here.

"Ne, I was curious to see how you were after writing me that letter. It turns out you're okay." Hagi smiled wryly, he couldn't say he was fine after crying all night. Hagi is not a girl who cries easily but just because of a man she cries all night when Hagi knows she won't be in Joseon for long.

Slowly the King approached Hagi the closer the King knew that his beloved bodyguard was not okay. Earlier after receiving a letter from Hagi, King Sejong went straight to Young Ae's mistress's Embroidery House with only a few of his personal bodyguards, even Eunuch Choi had persuaded the young King to at least wait until the sun rose a little, but King Sejong remained stubborn.

"Are you busy regretting your request? Look how cold your hands have been, how long have you been outside? You know you just escaped death. You want to worry me again?" King Sejong clasped Hagi's hand tightly after seeing Hagi's frozen face up close and scolded him like a child who had just been angered by his father. Hagi just smiled awkwardly feeling uneasy as well as guilty to his King.

"I'm sorry for Your Majesty." Hagi could only duck a little as his apology. King Sejong again occupied Hagi on the porch of the pavilion and he also sat opposite Hagi.

"You don't have to apologize, you just have to heal and again it's too late if you regret your request to me." Hagi looked at the King before him confusedly, understanding with Hagi King Sejong's gaze calling Eunuch Choi closer while carrying a few scrolls in his hands.

"I summed up a lot this morning when I received your message. So I immediately made a warrant that I will issue this afternoon, it means that what is in this scroll is no longer contestable. I even had to wake Queen Seoheon up to give me permission about your plan." Hagi was just stunned and almost out of words when he heard King Sejong saying he did not expect his King to make such a quick decision.

"But Your Majesty, why didn't His Majesty discuss it first with the Mahkama in the palace? It's possible that they don't agree with His Majesty's plan." King Sejong smiled understandingly, Hagi always thought about everything in the long run. Of course the Mahkama in there must be those who disagree on his decision.

"I know your concern, but what I'm doing is my right as King of this land, well I want to see if this order suits your wishes?" The king handed the scroll that was handed over by Eunuch Choi to him with a little hesitation Hagi opened the contents of the order one by one, after finishing reading it Hagi could only smile sadly.

"What I see is that you don't seem happy with my decision?" The king asked Hagi who only shook his head lightly.

"No, Your Majesty, of course I am glad that Your Majesty is willing to carry out the plan that I recommend. But Your Majesty knows this isn't hard for me either." Hagi looked sadly at the King before him who could only sigh softly.

"Then I can change my decision about him. Hagi you are my bodyguard too, but I will never be happy to see you sad like this." Hagi dropped his tears, the first time after living in Joseon anyone saw his tears, Hagi felt weak in front of this King and somehow when King Sejong hugged him the cry last night that Hagi thought was done back in his arms.

"Say something Hagi, don't make me look evil in front of you." Hagi only grew more and more crying then shook his head weakly, this once alone he wanted to cry in front of someone after this Hagi would attempt to endure it later on.

The king, Hagi and his entourage did not know that since Kyuhyun had been watching the second interaction, Kyuhyun could not hear the words of the two but could feel the sadness that Hagi showed King Sejong.

The pain gathered in Kyuhyun's heart and head made him unable to move and difficult to breathe, again Kyuhyun could not do anything for Hagi and it was always King Sejong who paid attention to Hagi. Kyuhyun was eager to do what his King did for Hagi, or at least he wanted to do something to ease the burden that Kyuhyun did not know and tried to hide from him.

"What is it that makes you so miserable Hagi_ya.. Can't I even be a backstop for you?" Kyuhyun muttered softly, and could only clench his hands tightly as he slipped he could hear Hagi's sobs getting louder and painful in his ears.

After feeling enough and embarrassment started to seep on his face Hagi kept a distance again from King Sejong who saw Hagi with a funny expression as it looked awkward after crying in his King's arms.

"I'm sorry, Your Honor, I made Your Majesty's clothes dirty." The king only smiled a little and then shook his head slowly.

"Why are you sorry, I hugged you so it's okay." Hagi bit his lips even more awkwardly making the King not strong enough to hold back his laughter.

"You're so funny, Hagi, I didn't know you could be like this wearing a girl's outfit. I will miss the time when I see you wearing women's clothes. Or do I just raise you to be my concubine?" Hagi looked at the King while rounding his eyes in surprise and it made King Sejong laugh even more.

"Your highness..." Hagi seemed nervous and frightened when King Sejong did not stop laughing, but finally the King stopped his laughter when he saw Hagi lowered his head.

"I'm just kidding, I won't half lock an eagle in a golden cage." Slowly Hagi looked back at her King while sighing softly.

"Your highness..." The king smiled slightly then looked towards the pond in front of the pavilion

"Yes... Although I really want you to be my concubine, but if it doesn't make you happy and feel locked up I won't do it. I'd rather see you free and always give all your intelligence to the people." Hagi lowered his head when he heard the words of his King, making King Sejong feel the awkwardness.

"Ah let's just say I didn't say that, if it makes you uncomfortable." Hagi just smiled awkwardly then gave a small nod making the King just sigh. The king again gripped Hagi's hand and looked at Hagi dearly.

"Listen, I'm fine if you can't give your heart to me, but don't ever hold back from making me your back when you want to cry like that. Youunderstand?" Hagi was finally able to smile a little despite the guilt in his heart for ignoring this good King.

"Thank you Your Majesty." The king simply nodded his head and prepared to leave.

"So you agree with my word?" Hagi just gave a small nod and then stood beside his King.

"Don't you just stay here, don't drive me. I want you to be really healthy." Hagi only smiled slightly then sat back down on the veranda.

After that the King returned to the palace, he would announce his decree today to all his ministers. The king hopes that the reaction will be as he wishes.

Seeing the King leave finally Kyuhyun dared to approach Hagi who was standing on his back to face the pool, without thinking Kyuhyun hugged Hagi from behind making Hagi surprised. Hagi was ready to turn around but Kyuhyun's voice stopped his intention.

"I miss you. I'm so worried about you." Kyuhyun's words suddenly made Hagi stunned.

Hagi's body even now stiffened as Kyuhyun gave a small kiss on his neck and then slowly inhaled a deep breath in the curve of his neck.

"Kyu.. kyuhyun_fr..." Kyuhyun turned Hyun Mie's body back and looked at Hagi's eyes looking at her in confusion.

"Do you still think I still love Hyunmie? Anniya. I fell for you before I even knew you were a girl." Hagi could only close his mouth in surprise he did not expect if his love turned out not to clap one hand.

Kyuhyun hugged Hagi tightly and the small whisper of Kyuhyun managed to make Hagi cry in Kyuhyun's arms.

No, none of this can happen. Although Hagi was happy that Kyuhyun loved her, this still could not happen, Hagi slowly took off Kyuhyun's embrace and looked at Kyuhyun with all the pain he endured.

"Don't, don't love me. I beg you.." Kyuhyun's heart was again hurt, even more painful this time when he saw Hagi in his King's arms. The girl even begged him.

"Why? Anni do you love the King?" Kyuhyun's question only Hagi answered inwardly, Hagi yelled in his heart if he could not love any man except Kyuhyun. But her mouth was locked tightly and Hagi had to do it.

Hagi's silence makes Kyuhyun aware, if it turns out his love claps one hand but with confidence in his possession Kyuhyun grasps Hagi's hand tightly.

"It's okay if you don't love me. Just so I can still see you and near you is more than enough for me." Kyuhyun's remark again made Hagi helpless to hold back her tears, in her life Hagi was never this crybaby she was a strong girl from the Kim family, but the namja before her was like intent on draining her tears.

Kyuhyun shook his head then hugged Hagi slowly.

"Don't doubt.. Did I burden you? I'm sorry..." Hagi tightly hugged Kyuhyun stunned Kyuhyun for a moment but quickly Kyuhyun also returned Hagi's embrace tighter.

After feeling better, Hagi took off a hug from Kyuhyun whose body was still not fully recovered suddenly suffocated from crying. Hagi even forgot that sick people should not cry. Seeing the pale Hagi back Kyuhyun sat Hagi on the veranda.

"You want to go back inside? Looks like you should get back to rest. I don't want to see you sick anymore." Hagi only shook his small head then leaned his head on Kyuhyun's shoulder. Again Kyuhyun was stunned to stare at Hagi, but he didn't say much Kyuhyun just let Hagi off the hook.

"You don't seem to have changed your clothes yet. Shall I get it at your residence? It would be better if you wear men's clothes as well." Kyuhyun's remarks made Hagi look at Kyuhyun in surprise.

"Don't get me wrong, I'm just afraid I can't help myself around you if you're always dressed up as a woman." Hagi lowered his small head then biting his lips nervously the movement was clearly visible to Kyuhyun making him shake his head strongly. It seemed that Kyuhyun also wanted to bite him. As his subconscious continued to provoke, Kyuhyun finally gave up and stood before Hagi.

"I'm taking your clothes now." And after that Kyuhyun just left without hearing Hagi's words at all.

Hagi could only stare at Kyuhyun's passing, his head dizzy now his heart was eager to say if he also loved Kyuhyun but his thoughts and reality snapped at him not to say that.

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Kyuhyun went straight to the Hagi residence, where there was only a male servant standing guard. Because Hagi himself rarely returned home that residence, he, more often spent time in the palace or in the brothel of the mistress Young ae who would kindly give a pavilion for Hagi because he wanted to teach various musical instruments to his Gisengs. But Hagi himself did not keep his clothes in the pavilion, Hagi would change clothes in his residence.

Kyuhyun has been to Hagi's residence twice and remembers Hagi's room quite a bit, as this place is not too big either. After making a stale conversation with the waiter, Kyuhyun went straight into Hagi's room. There was nothing special there, only a few paintings in Hagi's room. Kyuhyun went straight to the closet that had indeed become Hagi's only clothes storage there.

Kyuhyun gave a small breath, when opening the closet and there were only men's clothes there, don't blame Kyuhyun just yet for thinking Hagi is a man. Hagi is always suitable to wear men's clothes and will be very beautiful if using women's clothes.

Kyuhyun immediately brought enough clothes for Hagi, until his gaze was fixed on the letter neatly stored on the cupboard, in view of the paper seal can be guessed if it was a letter from the King. Kyuhyun knew this was not good, but Kyuhyun was very curious about the contents of the letter. After all, whatever mission the King gave Hagi, Kyuhyun always knew. So what if I look at it for a moment???

Slowly Kyuhyun opened the letters one by one, as his guess was that almost all of the letters were the last few missions that Kyuhyun also knew about. Feeling nothing suspicious Kyuhyun intended to end his sass show on the letters but the last letter Kyuhyun saw made him again want to know the content, if Kyuhyun did not guess wrong this letter was about the mission of Hagi yesterday.

But the contents of the letter that Kyuhyun read made him frown a little and then Kyuhyun went back to reading the letter and gave a small smile. Kyuhyun remembered the moment Hagi indirectly rejected him earlier making his smile dim.

"Am I late?" Kyuhyun went back to reading the letter, he wanted an explanation from Hagi about this letter and hoped that maybe Hagi would still give him a chance.

After returning to packing some clothes for Hagi, Kyuhyun left from there, he wanted to ask Hagi directly about the truth of the contents of the letter.

But on the way the maid from Kim's residence was waiting for her in front of the brothel, minister Kim asked Kyuhyun to come right now. Kyuhyun initially requested that the maid wait for him but hearing Hyung also came Kyuhyun finally just handed Hagi's clothes to the foreman of the Embroidery house and went to the Kim family home.

Kim's residence was suddenly crowded by ministers from the western Faction, the meeting room used to gather suddenly noisily with various questions. Minister Kim still closed his eyes trying to calm down and waited for his two sons to come.

"What is the King's Word about Hyung?" Minister Kim's sister-in-law was getting impatient when the meeting had not yet begun, minister Kim just looked at his sister-in-law with a flat look made Minister Ahn speechless.

Actually no one was at a disadvantage from the King's decree that Kim had just received, it's just that there must be many who disagree with this King's decree because all are too profitable for Kim's minister.

Once again minister Kim stroked the decree of the King who had just arrived at his house, surely this afternoon will be announced directly by His Majesty.

"Actually what is His Majesty planning?" Minister Kim wondered, if he thought again that the King should now be angry because his favorite bodyguard was hurt, minister Kim clearly knew Hagi was not an ordinary bodyguard, at first minister Kim was also a little worried when the arrow hit the other day was Hagi not Young ae's mistress. But King Sejong unexpectedly gave him many gifts and decrees that Kim said were very profitable for him.

It was not long before Kim Jong Seo and Kyuhyun came to sit next to their father. That's when Minister Kim opened his eyes and began to read the King's word.

"Today the King sent an edict to my house, stating the appointment of Kim Jong Seo as deputy prime minister." The speech suddenly made all members of the faction noisily, Jong Seo himself seemed surprised by the words of his father. He did not expect the King to give him such a great gift.

"I know for sure you're wondering what the reason is. I also received one more decree from His Majesty. That is the appointment of the concubine of one of the daughters of our Faction." This time a noisy voice was getting heard from everyone, wondering who would be made a Concubine by His Majesty.

"Later noon Your Majesty will announce it directly to us. But the essence of all the King's edicts is, His Majesty wants us to keep supporting the crown prince to remain on the throne even if the King chooses the crown princess of the Southern Faction." This time the situation was instantly silent, it was obvious if they did not agree with it.

"Some of you have also been promoted to 4-star. Do you disagree too?" Minister Kim's speech this time suddenly made the situation back noisy, it seems like today is a big day for the western faction.

"We follow all the decisions Mr. Kim has made." All members of the faction immediately joined in support of the Kim minister, making the Kim minister smile happily.

"Well you can prepare to come to the palace. Don't be late. Ah minister Park can you not go first? There's something I want to talk to you about our daughter's son." After saying that, all members of the faction's permission to go home except for Minister Park who was deliberately asked to stay.

Now in that room only Minister Kim, Kyuhyun, Kim Jong Seo and also Park's minister. Everyone waited until Kim began to speak.

"I want to cancel Hyunmie and Kim Jong Seo's wedding." The speech immediately made Park's minister and Kim Jong seo surprised, Kyuhyun also he was surprised to hear his father's sudden remarks.

"Aboeji!!! What does this mean?" Kim Jong Seo seems to disagree with his father's decision. Park is still waiting for Minister Kim's speech.

"This is because in addition to His Majesty giving me the word he also asked me to marry Kim Jong Seo to the older sister of Crown Princess Shin Min ah." This time Park's minister was in shock, while Kim Jong Seo was at a loss for words when His Majesty himself asked for it.

"Then what about my daughter? She'll bear the shame of staying in her fiance." This time another scroll was handed over to Kyuhyun by Kim's minister.

"You don't have to worry that Your Majesty has already come up with a solution for that, your daughter can still marry my son, but not Jong Seo. Your daughter will marry Kyuhyun and as a gift Kyuhyun will be appointed the head of His Majesty's personal bodyguard." This time minister Kim's remarks made Kyuhyun even more shocked that the scroll he was reading fell out of his hands while Jong Seo threw his face away not wanting to see it. His heart ached now that he would be separated from the girl he loved.

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