To My Youth
CHAPTER 59

Kirin school Jakarta Hall, where the vocal solo and duet competition was held.

As soon as Andheera entered the hall, her search was immediately set on her duet friend who was none other than Jaehyun, who apparently took a front seat not far from the stage.

While Jaehyun who was focused on listening to the participants in front of him, until he did not realize that Andheera was now beside him.

                “you won't make a mistake.?” said Andheera who started the conversation between them, as well as making Jaehyun aware of his focus.

                “i've been singing a lot every weekend at church, what about you who never even did anything right.” His eyes are still focusing his eyes forward.

                “cihh.!!” Andheera only replied with a shout eoh while folding both hands on his chest.

10 Minutes passed, now finally their turn to perform on the stage that has been prepared as grand as possible specifically for the annual event.

[Andheera] Weroumi..

pieoitneun i garden gashituseongi..

moraeseonge and nal maeeosseo..

[Jaehyun] Neoye ireumeun..

gal goshi itgin hanji, Oh could you tell me?

jeongwone sumeodeun neol..

[Jaehyun] And I know..

neoye ongin modu da jinjaran..

pureun kkocheul kkeokkneun..

jabgo shipjiman's..

[Andheera] Nae unmyeongin geol..

don’t smile on me, light on me..

neoege dagaseol and eopseunikka..

naegen bulleojul ireumi..

[Jaehyun] You know that I can’t

show you me, give you me..

chorahan moseub boyeojul sun eopseo..

gamyeoneul sseugo neol ga..

But I still want you..

The translation.

[Andheera] In silence..

this flower garden is blooming..

full of thorns..

I stayed in this sand palace..

[Jaehyun] What's your name..?

do you have a purpose to go..

can you tell me..

I hid to see you in this park..

[Jaehyun] And I know..

all your warmth is real..

I want to hold your hand..

and picking the Blue flowers..

[Andheera] This is my destiny..

don't smile at me..

don't shine a light on me..

I can't come near you..

there's no name I can call other than me..

[Jaehyun] You know..

that I can't show myself to you..

give myself to you..

I can't show you the weak part of me..

I put on the mask again and went to see you..

But I still want you..

A glimpse of the past appears unexpectedly in the shadow of the current Andheera who is focusing on singing also mamandang towards the bench of the audience that is none other than his own friend, his friend, Hanyoora and Yerim who had come first, then followed by Vivian because he had to finish watching basketball first.

- Flashback 4 years ago backyard Andheera house.

                “ANDHEERA SARANGHAEEEEE HUUUU.!!” keenan's cheers sounded so loud as he swayed more frenzied than Andheera who was singing in front of him.

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A warm smile, cheerful laughter and the fat face of his little friend can make Andheera really live the song that is being performed at this time, he said, likewise, all the audience who memorized the song unconsciously sang.

As if they were conjured with the full power sound that Andheera released, they enjoyed it so much that they felt that this competition was a concert Andheera and Jaehyun.

The atmosphere in the hall returned to greatness as Andheera and Jaehyun finished their final temple, a standing applause that was not only from the audience as well as from the judges who did their sign standing applause greatly admired the performance of the two participants of the race.

Before they both bowed to the judges as well as the audience, Andheera felt there was the face of her little friend in one of the spectators, she also showed a thin smile, she was, even though he knew it was just a delusion of himself but at least he was happy.

***

Back to Shinwa High School Yogyakarta.

Now Keenan began competing in basketball with his team, like a prince who came down from a white horse, all the students shouted hysterically when Keenan was deliberately showing his charm of unsurpassed good looks.

Meanwhile, on the bench rested the players, Joe who was sipping a bottle of mineral water immediately vomited it back, because surprised by the handsome behavior of his sidekick.

                “YEAAAHHH RAY KEENAN.. !! RAY KEENANN.!!” all the students cheered increasingly enliven the atmosphere in the basketball court complete with a large banner that read RAY KEENAN, which read, poster photo of himself is quite large also do not forget pom-pom which has become mandatory accessories to watch the basketball team game.

After a few minutes he played, the same thing with Andheera who saw his presence shortly after Andheera appeared.

Keenan also found Andheera in the crowd, making him unable to hide his big smile.

                “you've made plans for your long holiday.?” joe asked, taking off his basketball uniform.

                “aku will directly move to Jakarta.” His mouth while sipping several times the mineral water and still sitting on the bench watching his other friends who were changing clothes.

                “before I want to take you on vacation to korea.”

                “you should also be busy preparing for your lecture there, you think there will be time for vacation, is your English really fluent?”

                “surf dong, not in vain I tutored private English for 3 years huhh. hence I want to rest my brain with a vacation.” Closing her locker after she finished changing clothes.

                “iya you have your own vacation.” Said Keenan while putting his mineral water bottle down then rose from the seat to start changing clothes.

                “hey come..! vacation itself will look sad not.” dejected and then sit in the place of Keenan just now.

                “iya. yes.. in Jakarta alone no need to go to.”

                “AGREE..!! the day after, there will be a concert in Jakarta, although there is no IU but there is no harm in watching another fandom concert hahaha.” Her chatter with a radiant face as if imagining a beautiful KPOP idol.

                “magic.!” firmly Keenan while closing his locker with a little dings.

                “Hey..! you said you wanted a vacation together.!!” joe who does not accept.

                “but not for the concert, you want me to look like a fanboy like you, I don't want it to be so embarrassing.!!” after he finished changing his clothes Keenan intended to leave first to leave his friend.

                “this time aja okee. yaa..yaa come on Rayyyyy..” whine like a boy while following Keenan step out of the dressing room and still continue to mengeledotinya.

While Keenan only responded with a crisp laugh, and tried several times to remove the hook of Joe's hand from his stocky hand.

***

In the afternoon at Kirin school High School Jakarta, the sky began to dim along with some matches that had ended.

Escape from his three friends who continue to stick to him, Andheera prefers to walk alone, while circulating his gaze as if looking for something in the middle of the many food stands and drinks.

A wide smile was immediately engraved with his thin lips when he managed to find his favorite drink.

                “yogurt strawberry 5.” pinta Andheera on the guard stand.

After getting the drink he wanted, the girl walked back while sucking one yogurt and the rest he put into a small plastic bag.

When he looked at it he threw it in any direction he found someone he knew was hanging on the roof of the school.

Andheera was silent for a moment before she finally decided to continue her steps, swinging her small plastic bag.

Wailed.

Srekk.srekk the sound of small plastic friction disperse Brian's daydreams as he turned his body.

                “what are you doing here.?” ask Andheera who is still sucking her strawberry yogurt as she walks over to Brian.

                “nothing, just.”

                “are you okay..? something's going on in your agency.?” guess Andheera made Brian reflexively give his boxy smile.

                “hey..! why do you always know my mind, what is the sign that we are really a soul mate.” Brian chirped with a soft laugh.

                “cihhh..! if brother Brian wants, brother Brian can try to audition at the agency where my brother works.” said Andheera while leaning against the wall just like Brian was doing.

                “what does that mean I give up.?” lirihnya while bowing his head.

                “kak Brian knows right.” Andheera took out one of her yogurts from plastic to give to the poor man beside her.

                “the road to success is not easy, you have to go through a lot of failure and pain, brother Brian stopped there does not mean brother Brian gave up on your dream, just change the process instead of changing the end goal.” Andheera, who is now both sucking strawberry yogurt.

Hearing Andheera's long sentence made Brian sigh for a moment, before he responded back to Andheera's words.

                “from the wise sentences you often say, you are like an adult who has lived many lives, you know, you are not like teenage girls in general who only know shopping, make up and play around.” Brian glanced occasionally at Andheera.

                “kak Brian is right, sometimes I also forget that I am still 16 years old hahaha.!!”

The two of them laughed together enjoying the cool afternoon atmosphere accompanied by a refreshing cold strawberry yogurt.

                “sister Brian, do you really like the taste of strawberry or because I like it?” the question suddenly popped out of Andheera's mouth as she watched Brian continue to suck his yogurt until it was gone.

                “you're PD once..! hahaha I do love strawberries, you know. I can even spend 1 basket full of strawberries.” His appearance still ended with his smile box smile.

                “so yes..” sahut Andheera slowly.

                “why..?”

                “no.. hehehe..” reply Andheera.

flashback 4 years ago on the back of the Andheera house.

Both Andheera and Keenan were sitting on the grass near the lake still in school uniforms that had not been replaced, while sucking strawberry yogurt he bought on the way home.

                “you sure love strawberry yogurt because you like it, not because you follow me.?” asked Andheera while glancing towards Keenan.

                “what if I follow you..? can't.?” say it with his song.

                “hey..! you must have your own stance do not always follow me, even until the food and drink I like, is there nothing you really like yourself.?!”

                “no tuh. besides strawberry yogurt is delicious anyway.” he replied while continuing to enjoy the fresh strawberry yogurt cold. “uuhhh... fresh.!” again with a really convincing expression.

Meanwhile Andheera just smiled at the behavior so cute his friend.

***

-Yogyakarta's.

When Keenan came home and passed the basketball court in his home complex, he found a stranger sitting alone while directing his gaze toward the sky that began to change color.

Wanting to confirm his conjecture, he tried to park his big motorbike, then walked up to the girl.

As if knowing the presence of his friend, Eunjiso immediately greeted him without looking.

"i've been waiting for you for a long time, every day when I wake up, I always wish you could see me and call my name, even when you're with Jennie, I think later.. yes later you will also give me a chance." he explained still with a view that focuses on the night sky.

Keenan finally tried to sit next to Eunjiso who still wanted to express his heart.

"but you know.." Jiso glanced at Keenan who was just sitting next to him.

"there's a funny thing I just found out, the relationship you had with Jennie was fake..! you guys are just having fun with the status you have..! hahaha.." he added again complete with bitter laughter at the end.

"in the end I must give up, because I cannot beat Andheera in your heart.

I've used too much of my time to like you, maybe it's time I learned to love myself" she concluded with a smile.

Trying maybe he tried to be okay, and continued to wipe away a few drops of tears that he could not control.

But all his strength collapsed when Keenan who suddenly hugged himself tightly, as if he had a lot of guilt on the poor girl, Keenan was unable to stop the tears.

"forgive me.." Those 2 words were all Keenan could say to Eunjiso.

Maybe that's the end of the first love story of a girl named Eunjiso. However, he must respect the wishes of Ray Keenan who still wants to wait for his first Love.

Eventually Eunjiso gave up and tried to love herself. Because all this time he continued to ignore his heart that was often injured, for the sake of being able to continue with Rak Keenan.

***