Touch Me!
S2-Talk About the Past

Ivi clenched tightly and grew stronger until Nathan felt the pain of his hand as it continued to press. His eyes were sharp looking at Silvi who had said all the things that led to the confession of her mistake. Angry, of course Ivi is very angry. Whereas as a sister, she always tried all the ways to make her sister feel satisfied. But it seems like it never happened though. Ivi looked back at Salia's bead eyes with an angry look. It's still the same as a while ago. That was how Ivi looked at him. As if hateful, disappointed, sadness became one and radiated from the sharpness of Ivi's eyes at this time. Ivi continued to stare at Salia with the same gaze until the Salia who could not stand it anymore finally shed her tears. He knows and is also very aware of the mistakes he made. But he also could not control the souls of his children back then.

" Silvi, I know I was wrong. Please forgive me. At that time I was really afraid that my love would be divided if you returned. " Salia was bowed lethargic because of course she would not be able to face the face of Mother and her brother. Yes, he knew that they would be very disappointed. But really, he regretted doing that.

" Salia, why? why are you like that? " Task Salied with a look of disbelief. As a brother, he was very disappointed. Though she knows very well how Ivi loves and loves her two brothers. But how could Salia be like that?

" Sister, at that time I felt so loved after Ivi was not with us. I just don't want mom's affection to be divided. Sorry, sorry for my selfish nature this all happened. But really, I didn't expect it to be like this. If I knew all the bad things were happening, I wouldn't have done that. "

" What's the point of talking about the past? I don't care what you're gonna say. Now to me, my family is of course my Dad and my Mom. My brother is just a Dodi. I don't want to talk about anything that's past. Because it feels so painful. And just so you know, not all the painful events I told you back then. Now just be ordinary. Don't show me too many tears. "

The silent mother now started to look back at Ivi. His gaze melas as if so sad to hear Ivi's words. As a mother of course she hopes to be close, share her sorrows together, tell her many things and find solutions together. But all are just wishes that seem to be hard to grant. Showing how sorry he is also not able to change or slightly strengthen Ivi's heart. Now Ivi is actually increasingly fortifying themselves and building a barrier wall that is so thick.

" Silvi, can I visit you often? can I give you love as I should? " Ask Mrs Marhen.

" It's not necessary. I have received a lot of love. I admit, my mother was very chatty and fierce. But she's the best mother in the world. She would absolutely not let me cry let alone reach the humiliated people. He never forced me to cook because I didn't like him. He never forced anything I didn't like. My father, he is indeed a whiny and cowardly father. But, she always loved me even more than her own biological child. She always carried me when I was tired of walking no matter how much I was in high school. My sister, she does have a very spicy mouth and loves to complain. But he always made me strong in his way. He always cheered me through his reproach. Then I have such good in-laws to me. The brother-in-law who loves me too. And most importantly, I have Nathan who will continue with me. So, getting a lot of affection like that, I don't think I need affection from you. "

Nathan gazes in admiration at Ivi who looks very different while talking to the Marhen family. Ivi is like a very mature girl, cold, and looks very smart. But if you can not let Ivi behave so to him. Nathan Batik.

" Are you really not able to forgive Mom? " Tell Madam Marhen again with a voice that sounded trembling. Of course his heart was broken because again clearly Ivi refused to be close to him.

Ivi smiled with her cold face.

Nathan smiled faintly. Don't know why? when the three people in front of him looked grieving, he was happy and proud with Ivi's unusually elegant attitude.

My wife is great, right? great at saying. But I don't know how it's practical.

" Sister knows, but what about the brother who kept looking for you for so many years? can't we start making friends? "

Ivi smiled looking at Salied.

" no. Maybe you don't know, but I haven't had any friends in my entire life. "

Salied was silent again. His eyes were staring down but his brain kept thinking, how can the distance between him and his youngest brother be eroded? how can I get a little bit to accept his presence. Right, some time ago he was indeed living without his youngest sister. But not a day did he not think about his youngest brother. In essence, he was indeed used to living by constantly thinking about his sister. But, are thirteen years not enough yet? do I have to go back to experiencing it again?

" Silvi, you know. Being close to us might remind you of the pain. But let us get a little closer to you. "

Ivi smiled back. Maybe it's true what Salied said. But at this time his heart was so chaotic and difficult to accept all with a spacious chest. Not knowing what to do because anger still rules his heart.

" I don't know what else to say. Right now I'm not in a good mood. You talking about the past only adds to the uncomfortable feeling in my heart. Looks like this conversation just got here. I don't want to talk about this right now. "

The To Be Continued.