Under the arms without certainty
Musing

Those who have never been in love, young and old, have always felt it. When love is present no one can dodge it, because it all comes from the heart. But remember, be clever in managing the heart when the soul is stricken with love, so that you do not fall and fall into a deep feeling of love. When you've fallen, no one can help you except yourself against that feeling.

Years of love with a young man who does not give status in the relationship, only capitalized on love and affection, not demanding each other, but when needed always there. There is never any suspicion and fear of leaving each other.

However, in a condition when they graduated from college, the two were separated, the relationship was still established, until an uncomfortable moment came to him. Aira Dzakiyah was still focusing on typing in front of her laptop screen. He must finish his final training report. Suddenly his phone rang, displaying the name of the youth he had always been in. With a smile on his lips, he immediately picked it up.

" Yes why?"

" Ai," Call the young man across the phone in a soft voice.

" Yes, what's up?"

"Ai, I.."

" Did Abizar, you want to get married?" suddenly Aira said that, out of nowhere she could-can just say this, either because of her feelings as a woman or just guess.

" Yes" he answered.

Instantly, Aira was stopped from her activities. He began to fall silent at the reply from the lover without this status. He began to catch his breath.

" Explain." Reply Aira.

" I'm going to marry a woman here, I'm sorry for you, I hope you're sincere."

Hearing the words of Abizar, his tears flowed on his cheeks, his chest tightened, there was no wind, there was no lightning he got bad news. His soul seemed to float.

" Aira I'm sorry."

"Why did you marry her?" With a stifled voice, Aira tried hard to hear all the explanations of Abizar.

" His parents asked me to ask him, I knew him a month ago. He's an orphan."

The more he heard Abizar's explanation, the more his chest tightened, now Aira just silently held her voice so as not to sound like she was stripping. Phone calls switch to video calls. Aira was silent.

" Let me see you Aira" Abizar said.

"For what? don't you have to see me again?"

" I don't want to hurt you"

" Once, there's no way I'm not hurt."

"Forgetit." Said Aira hung up her phone and took off great.

His life seemed ruined, and now the call came again, Abizar called him many times. Aira kept her quiet not picking up her phone at all. His heart was broken into pieces, never thinking Abizar would leave him.

His eyes were softly staring at himself, he lost himself, tired of it. His gaze was empty, complaining to the creator to be given great sincerity over all that befell him. There was no stopping day and night he poured out all his pain, all his sorrow to the Owner of the heart.

A year later....

It was not young for Aira to forget the incident, when she was in the most devastating destruction. He's trying to build his prison again. Now he is staring at a rapot that reads Emilia, a student of his building in science class X. He read the bio of the student and looked at the photo that was there.

Now Aira, is waiting for a guardian for her students to take the rapot of the student. It was seen the schoolgirl holding her phone restlessly as no one had come to pick up her rapot. Every now and then Aira glanced at him and sighed. Emilia is one of the students who are a little naughty, rarely do the task, likes to just preen, selfie and play ticktock, there have been many scolding and reports from teachers who reached the ears of Aira as her helper. Look out there Emilia snatched.

" Come on, help me out, brother, grab a rapot it's doang."

"*Why not tell me from yesterday right now brother is babysitting you!"

" Yes who will take it, come on, brother. nantu papi angry again with me."

" Yes, look forward to you!"

" Yes indeed*!!!"

Aira saw the ABG student was looking excited, it could be predicted that the child managed to seduce someone to become her guardian. Aira again pretended not to pay attention to the child's behavior. Aira again saw her phone staring at the clock there it was 15 minutes to wait for the parents of the student guardians. He started tidying up two rapots that had yet to be taken.

Aware of his lap, Aira stared at the roof in the classroom, the flash of bad memories sometimes came to him, the longing to say hello sometimes ranted. The bad breakup with Abizar made him never communicate again since Abizar's marriage. Aira is no longer friends in Abizar's social media, not the intention of deciding on her friendship but all for the sake of Aira's mental health who is almost depressed because of the incident.

After a year passed, Aira's feelings began to accept that what happened to her was indeed a destiny that must be passed. No one in this world wants to be abandoned by a loved one but sometimes someone has to separate to find a better one.

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The sound of footsteps entering the classroom made Aira aware from her daydream, she turned to the arrival of the sound of footsteps, her gaze fixed on the black-clothed man accompanied by the ABG girl who looked happy to cuddle her. The cloaked man was seen casting a smile towards her, the face was clearly recorded in the sight of Aira who was frozen silent.

#connecting.