Well with you
CHAPTER 1
It's been about a month they've been under one roof. But the atmosphere hasn't changed. It was still frozen and no one dared to melt it. They will chat if there is something very important, the rest they do activities without talking at all.
A house filled by two people is like an empty house. There are two human beings, but there is no life in them.
Today is the third day of Ramadan. The hour hand still shows at 03:30. As usual, Fahmi wakes up to perform tahajud prayer first. He opened the door of the next room that was fused with his room. Apparently, Fira was still sleeping.
Ah, the habit, the inner Fahmi who then approached Fira in his bed.
"Saur hey, sauurr!!!" yelled Fahmi expressionlessly. He stood beside Fira's bed. Dare not touch or approach Fira one bit. The last time he got close to Fira was when there was a family event at Fira's parents' house. Indeed, even that he did with a sense of force.
Fira tries to open her eyes slowly to regulate the light entering her retina. "Heh, what are you doing to my room?" Fira was shocked when Fahmi stood in his special room.
The problem is, they have agreed to limit the place, even though these two rooms are only separated by one door.
"Thankful I woke up, yesterday not built a day of rampage continues to complain of hunger during the day."
"Yes yes sorry."
"Wudhu scum! Tahajud first, then later saur," said Fahmi who then moved away.
"Males ah!" Fira is indeed rarely praying tahajud, because he always feels sleepy if praying before dawn.
"Sholate! Let your business today God be easy. Let you be thankful. Let not many complain about the same favors of God. Scribbles!"
"I'm still sleepy. How do you try if later in the morning I fall asleep because of lack of sleep? It's not funny." Fira pursed her lips.
Fahmi breathed out a rough breath. It must be extra if it reminds humans this one. "Why do you feel like your life is falling apart? It could be because you don't start the day with tahajud. I was horrified that night that God came down to earth, to see who His servants worshiped to meet Him."
"Bright?"
"Not only that. If you ask, God will allow. If you ask for forgiveness, Allah will forgive you. Meet God in tahajud prayer, pray to Him, that what you hope will be fulfilled."
From Abu Hurairah, Rasulullah shallallahu ‘alaihi wa sallam said :
“Rabb we tabaroka wa ta’ala down every night to the sky of the world until the last third of the night, then He said: Whoever prays to Me, I will allow his prayers. Whoever asks of Me, I will surely give. And whoever asks Me for forgiveness, I will surely forgive.”
(CHR. Bukhari 6321 and Muslim no. 758)
Fira paused over Fahmi's words.
"Don't think much! Sami'na wa atho'na!"
"But why the hell, do I feel males? Please, how should I do, Nurse?" ask Fira who still has not risen from her bed.
"Satan was shackled in the month of Ramadan. If you are still lazy, even though the devil is shackled, it could be because you are too good to follow the lust that comes from the devil. Naudzubillah."
Fira was aghast and then ran towards Fahmi. Fahmi immediately moved away. "Ett, what are you doing?"
Fira who was intending to hug immediately undoed her intentions. "I'm scared."
"Not be afraid! Fear is the same as God!"
...وَإِمَّا يَنزَغَنَّكَ مِنَ الشَّيْطَانِ نَزْغٌ فَاسْتَعِذْ باِللهِ إِنَّهُ سَمِيعٌ عَلِيمٌ ...
...“And if you are hit by any temptation of Satan, take refuge in Allah. Verily Allah is All-Hearing, All-Knowing. [Al A’raf: 200]....
...وَقُل رَّبِّ أَعُوذُ بِكَ مِنْ هَمَزَاتِ الشَّيَاطِينِ وَأَعُوذُ بِكَ رَبِّ أَن يَحْضُرُونِ ...
...To You from the whispers of Satan. And I take refuge (in the same way) in You, O my Lord, from their coming unto me”. ...
...[.Al Mukminun 97-98]...
...Fahmi started his tahajud prayer and let Fira who was still busy wearing mukena. Fahmi did not intend to congregate with Fira, so he prayed alone....
In a special room Fahmi, Fira also berakbir to start tahajud. His position at that time was behind Fahmi. Exactly like makmum, but Fahmi who was in front of him had prostrated. It feels painful indeed, if neglected by the husband himself. But Fira doesn't make that a sadness.
At the end of his prayer, Fahmi raised both his hands to pray.
اَللّهُمَّ لَكَ الْحَمْدُ أَنْتَ نُوْرُ السَّمَاوَاتِ وَاْلأَرْضِ وَمَنْ فِيْهِنَّ، وَلَكَ الْحَمْدُ أَنْتَ قَيِّمُ السَّمَاوَاتِ وَاْلأَرْضِ وَمَنْ فِيْهِنَّ، وَلَكَ الْحَمْدُ أَنْتَ رَبُّ السَّمَاوَاتِ وَاْلأَرْضِ وَمَنْ فِيْهِنَّ، أَنْتَ الْحَقُّ، وَوَعْدُكَ الْحَقُّ، وَقَوْلُكَ الْحَقُّ، وَلِقَاؤُكَ الْحَقُّ، وَالْجَنَّةُ حَقٌّ، وَالنَّارُ حَقٌّ، وَالسَّاعَةُ حَقٌّ،
اَللّهُمَّ لَكَ أَسْلَمْتُ، وَبِكَ آمَنْتُ، وَعَلَيْكَ تَوَكَّلْتُ، وَإِلَيْكَ أَنَبْتُ، وَبِكَ خَاصَمْتُ، وَإِلَيْكَ حَاكَمْتُ. فَاغْفِرْ لِيْ مَا قَدَّمْتُ وَمَا أَخَّرْتُ، وَمَا أَسْرَرْتُ وَمَا أَعْلَنْتُ، أَنْتَ الْمُقَدِّمُ وَأَنْتَ الْمُؤَخِّرُ، أَنْتَ إِلٰهِيْ لاَ إِلٰهَ إِلاَّ أَنْتَ
"O Allah, praise be to You, and the light of the heavens and the earth, and whoever is there. Praise be to You alone, You rule over the heavens and the earth and all who are there. Praise be to You alone, You are the creator of the heavens and the earth and whoever is there. Thou art most righteous, Thy promise is true, Thy word is true, the meeting with Thee is true. Heaven is true, hell is true, and the apocalypse is true."
"O Allah, to Thee I give up, to Thee only I believe, to Thee I trust, to Thee only I repent, only with Thy guidance I argue, only to You do I ask for a decision, therefore, forgive me for my sin that has passed and that is to come, that I do in secret or that I do openly. You are the first and the last. Thou my Lord. There is no god but You."(HR. Muslims, Ibn Majah and Ahmad).
After carrying out tahajud, Fahmi again left Fira who is still praying. Feeling neglected, Fira immediately folded up the mukena and cleaned up her prayer equipment. Then she followed Fahmi into the kitchen.
"What do you eat the same?" tanya Fira who saw Fahmi was opening the refrigerator.
"What do you cook?" ask Fahmi.
"Special omelet."
"I thought you had a new menu besides omelet."
"I can't cook." Fira lowered her head in disappointment.
"Yes, let me cook! Just wait while watching TV!"
"Well, why bother?"
"Are you here to help?"
"Adzan shubuh tuh. I'm ah, let me cook an omelet. Don't cook other cooking styles very much."
Fira immediately took teflon and two eggs for her to cook.
تَسَحَّرُوا فَإِنَّ فِى السَّحُورِ بَرَكَةً (البخارى ومسلم)
^^^“Eat sahurlah you because in eating sahur there is blessing.” ^^^
^^^(HR. Bukhari and Muslim)
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It was just their lives after about a month together. Together but not together. Every day, Fahmi must have a schedule to go to the hospital. If not morning, then noon. If it is not day, then night. When Fahmi works, Fira just stays at home. Unless he has a schedule to go to college.
Currently, he only had to wait for the graduation time because his thesis and various trials had been completed. Much earlier than the others. Sometimes, he goes out for a walk with his best friend. Fahmi never came. If there is time, Fahmi just take the pick up and do not pay attention to what his wife does during the road with his friends.
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