WHEN LOVING YOU A MY DESTINY
THE WLYAD 61

"Bee, that woman.?" Aretha said as she looked at her lover's face.

"That woman is Yoona Kartika Moreira, she is the woman who gave birth to me. She is my Mommy." cried Azura quietly.

Deg.

Aretha's heart immediately rumbled, she was still glued in place. He was confused, not knowing what to say. His eyes continue to blink to digest the words of his lover as well as the reality that exists. His heart felt so sick to find the reality that existed, at this time. I wanted to be angry and cry right then and there. But the sense in his heart and body became out of tune, he was like very shocked to find that Mommy his lover was the same Mommy from a little friend who had left him.

Aretha continued to repeat series after series of Azura's words from earlier.

"The ring." said Aretha weakly.

Azura tried to grab Aretha's hand, she felt guilty towards the girl. But instead the girl let go of Azura's hand, like avoiding that touch.

"Ayca Berguzar Bareesh. That means." she said mutely as she recalled the ring and the name she thought was also Ezra's grandmother.

"Turns? Which means it's Ezra Azera Eglar Albareesh. Which means his best friend.

"Died." now Aretha cried out very slowly while shedding her tears.

Aretha looked back at her lover's face with a look of disappointment that was hard to decipher. Laughter and crying, she felt together today.

"Ay," Azura again clasped Aretha's hand.this time she did not dodge or let go as before. Aretha simply fell silent with her pushy gaze.

Azura who came back saw a deep sadness at the look in the eyes of the girl she loved. Even the eyes are getting hurt. As soon as Azura's heart was hurt, there was no more hurtful wound than she was staring at the disappointed look she was currently seeing from her lover's gaze.

"I want to go home." he said, standing up and leaving.

"I'm sorry if I hurt you. But this is the reality that I have to say, I don't want you to know this from anyone else. Even when the relationship between you and me with a long time. I don't want to lie to you for too long, so I try to tell you all this as soon as possible. No matter how angry you are, I'm just trying to be honest and not lie to you. Really, ay. I love you so much regardless of who Azera is to you. Despite your bad times, I just want us to live this relationship without any guilt towards you. For your anger towards my twin. I want to end this and I want to love you completely. Sorry if I'm being too selfish." Azura tried to give her understanding even though she knew it would be in vain. But at least he explained what was in his heart.

"SINCE WHEN? SINCE WHEN DID YOU FIND OUT THAT MY BEST FRIEND IS YOUR TWIN BROTHER? SINCE WHEN IS AZURA?" yell at her while crying.

"Yes, please. Don't cry like that. I can't bear to see it. (Ay, please. Don't cry like that. I can't see her.)

"SINCE WHEN? SINCE WHEN IS AZURA?" Aretha shouted back.

"Mm, since Wilhelmina hospital." Azura replied quietly, but Aretha could still hear.

Aretha smiled bitterly, as she continued to shed tears. "Why did you say everything today, why? Is this what you told me not to lie to me. But the truth is you've been lying to Azura for too long. Why don't you say the day you believe it, if you don't intend to lie."

"I've been trying to say it. But it's not easy for me to convince myself to be straight with you. It really makes me, it's hard. Moreover, I love you, I have to choose the right time so that you do not feel disappointment and I am not ready to be left for the third time. I'm not ready to be left behind by someone I love Aretha." Azura said while holding back her cries.

It hurts to make the decision that he has to hurt the person he currently loves. But her heart was also angry to remain in the same room as Azura. He immediately ran out of Azura's apartment.

"Wait for Aretha" Azura ran after Aretha and held tightly to the girl's hand, as she managed to find her. "Let me remain responsible for you. I don't want to let my girlfriend go alone at night even though I'm angry, I'm taking you home to your apartment, at least I see you're doing fine." Azura paused a bit of her speech and took a breath. Then back to saying. "I will give you your own time to think about what things in the future you will choose. And I'm trying to accept whatever your decision is. I'll always be waiting for you, so just let me drive you home once."

Aretha just fell silent. He did not want to deny it either. Then, they enter the elevator together towards the basement and Azura still treats Aretha the same. He still opens the door for his lover to enter and return with Azura splitting the road at an above average speed.

The roar of the car engine that sounds smooth, then covered by the chant of the song played on the head unit in the dast Azura car. It seemed, Azura did not want the atmosphere in the car to be uncomfortable. Silence remained as Azura's messenger split the streets of the capital. Yeah, on the way to Aretha's apartment. Azura gave room to Aretha to think.

Aretha just silently pondered and leaned her head against the window of the car. There seemed to be a lot of things he was thinking about right now, occasionally his shoulders looked up and down. He was crying, not Azura not caring about him. Precisely at this time Azura just did not want to make things worse. He did not want to add any more disappointment to Aretha. Said resigned to reality, make Azura no resignation before he struggled at his weakest point. It was just that he gave a little space for Aretha to be able to think about this wisely enough.

After almost a few minutes of traveling. Finally Azura's car arrived in front of Aretha's apartment parking lot.

"Ay, it's here." he said as he tried to open the seat belt on Aretha's body. Again, Aretha refused.

"I can do it myself. Thank you." immediately he got down and walked into the lobby of his apartment without saying goodbye as usual to Azura. Azura who found it could only sigh, then drove back her car.

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Azura tried to stay focused on the path that was ahead of her. But now think of it so terribly chaotic and chaotic. He pulled his car over on a slightly quieter road and drowned his face on the steering wheel. He did not want if the events he had experienced would be repeated again. The accident happened when he was in trouble and drove very fast.

Azura tries to contact Ammar, maybe Ammar can help her and calm herself down which is not necessarily the direction. He took the phone in his jeans pocket, then pressed the phone number that read brother Ammar. He kept calling the number but there was no answer from across. Press the number a second time and there is still no answer. Repeatedly, but still no answer.

Finally he sent a Whats*pp message to Ammar but also did not get a reply. Azura got increasingly upset and slammed her original phone. He doesn't care if the phone is broken or the screen is cracked.

"Akh, b*ngs*t." sorry.

The handsome man leaned his body and rubbed his face roughly, his emotions he could not control. Azura tried to take a deep breath and exhaled slowly, hoping to control a bit of her emotions. After succeeding, Azura was forced to return her car to the apartment.

On the other hand, Aretha was crying while hugging her knees on the bed. Her heart felt so sick to find the fact that she loved the older brother of her past best friend. Not just his brother, but a twin of his best friend. Why is his destiny so narrow and complicated. For almost ten years he tried to suppress his longing as well as his pain. When he met Azura he tried to forget her until finally he managed to put the name Azura on his heart, although he had not completely forgotten his past, but at least he had managed to love someone. Fate is playing tricks on him. This fact seemed to be creating new wounds in Aretha's heart