Whores But Virgin
big decision

One word from Yana's lips made Jonathan's heart stop beating.they did have some problems to this back.

But this was not so serious that Yana could express those forbidden words.

Jonathan tried to persuade ya son not to do what he said. Yana's hand was tightly grasped and she tried to caress a flat stomach for Yana to think about their child.

What would children be if they were born without a father.

"honey, why are you saying that? it's not true, are you kidding me, right? hehe don't joke with something like this anymore okay. It's not funny at all" Jhonatan said.

Yana did not refuse to hold her hand nor did she refuse to be hugged by Jonathan .He just felt like these times would no longer exist in the future. What's wrong with enjoying it while you still can.

"Joni what do you think of my dad hary?"ask Yana seriously.

Jonathan doesn't understand why the divorce issue is linked to Ginanjar's day .But he honestly said

"I'm not going to hide but I'm serious about saying if he's not a good father because of him you're suffering like this instead then is he the one who asked us to separate ?"

"Don't listen to those words, baby. She didn't raise you well. Not even a responsible father. Forget him and let's live our lives as happily as before" Jhonatan said angrily.

She thought Yana was saying about the divorce due to encouragement by hary Ginanjar .From the beginning Jonathan only knew if the suffering was caused by Hary himself and not others.

Sending her biological daughter to a hellhole and choosing an illegitimate child to raise as a queen in the house.

"what do you think of my father ?" ask Yana seriously.

Jonathan frowned and thought long .He realized something was wrong here.

Yana never said Hary as papa. He always said it as hary.

What's going on ?is yana gone now and forgives the man.

"Papa?you call him papa have you forgiven him so easily?" ask Jonathan who disagrees.

"Yes I forgive him however he is my own father..

"he doesn't deserve you to forgive me, baby, don't be so stupid. With just a few words of apology you've been devastated. Don't you remember how much suffering you've felt over the years, Hem?" cut Jhonatan fast.

Jonatan thought among everyone he was the one who knew the most about the events of that year.

The incident cast a bad shadow on him and forced him to be mentally paralyzed. Jonathan doesn't think this is anyone's fault. Maybe it was just bad luck at the time.

But it's different from what happened to Yana. He was accidentally thrown by his biological father there with no intention to save

nya.

Yana escapes but is kidnapped again to be killed. Fortunately, the kidnapper changed his mind and chose to sell it to pimps.

But it is nothing compared to the futile future of Yana behind the dimly lit world.

All those stains will never be off his body until anytime .Yana struggles to change the minds of many people.

After all that suffering and bitterness that went through now Yana forgave Ginanjar's day with just one snap of a finger.

How is that acceptable to common sense.

Yana just smiled bitterly and asked "Do you think ?"

Jonathan is very excited and he shakes Yana's hand for his wife to change her mind. Hary Ginanjar does not deserve forgiveness.

"If she is unworthy to receive forgiveness as well as you "said Yana softly.

"sad what did Hary say until you changed your mind now? you equalize me and her, heh. Tell me what's the same between me and him, tell me?"tanya Jhonatan did not accept.

"i know you won't understand Jonathan and I don't have to explain why. In short what happened is actually not what we thought before"

"ask this matter at the police station, so you'll understand. I want someone who can protect me from the rain and heat. I want to live in peace even though it's in poverty. Tell me Jonathan can you give it to me?" Yana spoke with a pleading expression as she raised her palm.

"Honey this..

Almost 5 minutes ,Yana is in the same position as the donation requestor at the bus stop. Jonathan could not continue his conversation. Maybe he realized his mistake.

"Hahaha not even?" yana said with tears.

"I.. I don't understand what you're saying, baby .Please explain again. Why don't I understand a little. Do you have any misunderstandings?" ask Jhonatan nervously.

"yes I misunderstood Jhoni. All this time I misunderstood if you would give me protection from the world to the afterlife. In this world alone you can not protect especially for the afterlife later" said Yana disappointed.

"Darling...

"i'm waiting for you Jonathan, tell me what your reason is"Yana was really waiting for him to speak but what reason could Jhonatan make.

"i can't break Mom's words. That night I didn't think you were really in pain.So I don't know" Jhonatan said.

"basically you don't believe me. Don't you, I told you I was sick .But your mama said I was pretending .Obviously you chose to believe in your mama rather than your wife.okay let's just say we're newly married and not so attached. I can accept being let alone?"

Jonathan was nervous again he thought the first problem had escaped.so where did the mistake again.

Seeing Jonathan just silent Yana chose to ask "Three days and three nights I was in the hospital and my phone was on. It never closes at all. Why don't you call me even just to ask, how are you, why Jonathan?" ask Yana again.

"that day Mama asked me to swear not to call you if she wouldn't let me. How could I break that oath. I don't want to be an ungodly child" Jhonatan said honestly.

"Haha your mama again, okay I accept you choose the responsibility as a child but give up the responsibility as a husband hahaha, well I am still at number 2 right" said Yana bitter.

"Sweet that's not true"

Yana raised her finger hinting that Jonathan need not argue. Seeing that Jonathan went straight to silence and did not say anything more.

"You doubt my baby, don't you, the reason?" ask Yana.

Here Jonathan could not say the word.What to say.

Doubting the identity of the baby meant Jonathan also doubted Yana's loyalty as a wife.

How Jonathan could say it in front of Yana.

"Hahaha can't find the answer, right? Okay, well, I need blood, at that time I was in critical condition.Papa has not said you need to donate, anyway from where he knows your blood type. hahaha people haven't asked but you've already refused first, tell me your reason?" ask Yana calmly.

"It's. I'm looking for you everywhere so I don't have time to rest and also skip meals. Not suitable for giving blood, right?"Jhonatan said brick.

"Maybe your condition is not suitable but who asks and who forbids? mama right?"ask Yana.

"think what happens if at that time I do not get blood at the right time.Not only me but also my content will be Jhoni.this will involve three lives at once.Do you think we are not more important than words from your own mama?"

John is confused as to what to answer.

"this is why I say you can't yet assume the responsibilities of a priest in our little family. You're as much of a jerk as Hary Ginanjar hahaha" Yana continued.

Yana said we weren't us.

Jhonatan was shocked to hear her

"Wana..

"i'm waiting for your explanation Jonathan here, right now. Where is your responsibility as a husband.Where is your responsibility as a father.ayo say Jhonatan, not an hour but I will wait for 24 hours, can you answer it?" ask Yana bertubi.

Very dear once, even though Yana waited for a full year.Jhonatan still can never give a good reason.

Yana chuckles to herself.

"I'm wrong Jhoni, marrying you is the biggest mistake I've ever made.I think you're a grown man but apparently still a kid yesterday afternoon"Yana loves Jhonatan this is not a lie.

He is a figure who can penetrate the defense of the heart Yana y6 already in the lock of a meeting.

Yana received a lot of seduction and flirting of the men .Starting from the handsome rich to the middle-aged man with a mountain of promises even though he has many grandchildren at home.

Yana is immune to good looks and not glare with gold and jewels.But she is destined to fall in love with Jhonatan who is thought to be different from other men.

Yana does not doubt jonathan's love and affection as she doubts another man's false promise .

At that time he thought marrying Jonathan was a gift worth being grateful for.

But he was wrong.

"Jhoni, you never loved me at all .It was just a mere impulse of lust, but I also felt that the feeling I had was not love but attachment to the past"

Yana was not aware of this before. He thought it would be hard to say divorce. But once those words were spoken there was no objection or regret in the heart.

It is more about disappointment.

Doesn't this imply that his love for Jonathan isn't so deep either.

So Yana concluded, this feeling arises only because they have experienced the same thing in childhood.

This is not love but an attachment from the past.

"Where can we try again let's start from the beginning, okay" said Jhonatan.

" it's joni I don't want to fool myself. There is no good thing if this marriage continues .While I'm sane I'm gonna let go of this marriage"

"Until whenever you hurry, the real father of my children will not change. I would raise him and tell them they had a great father. If you want I will also mention the name aldelis behind their names but to be together again it will not be possible.So Jhoni, let me off peacefully" said Yana.

In the future Jonathan will still meet someone could make Jonathan more responsible.But that is not him.

After the divorce they can still be good friends even though it would be a little awkward.

"can't this be bargained for anymore?"

ask Jhonathan quietly.

Guilt and remorse were quite great in Jonathan's heart. He did not even have a reason to keep Yana by his side.

He's not worthy.

"But what kind of child?"

" you doubted it from the beginning. Now suppose it was, was it difficult?" ask Yana.

Again Jonathan was silenced by the words of Yana . He didn't think Yana was so good at finding out where her fault was.

But how would mom feel if she knew the expected granddaughter would never drop by in the arms.

"Yan, these twins can you give me one ?" jonathan asked doubtfully.

"I don't know Jonathan at the moment it's unstable.It's hard for me to accept this fact. They'll be born without a father right.How can I just separate the two of them?"

It is easy to say two children should be separated for 2 people who are divorced .How the kids feel when they grow up.

Didn't they ask why I was taken by father.The other asked why I was taken by mother.

" jonathan let's think about this next time. Right now I'm not feeling well, come back with your family. I'll take care of the divorce, you stay in order" said Yana tired.

His heart was sliced with a knife and it was bleeding again. Not knowing what to cry about but Yana swallowed all those feelings.

He didn't want Jonathan to see it.

If asked if he regretted marrying Jonathan. The answer is no .

This marriage failed but behind it she also got her reward. Two small babies now growing in her womb.

Yana does not know what will happen in the clear future she has to do a lot for the baby.

But the beginning of all this is bad news for both of them. Before birth they actually had no father on the side.

Not because of my dead dad .This is because Mama and Papa are choosing a divorce.

Jonathan was still silent when Yana said so .But he could not find good words to deny what Yana had said.

Not long afterwards Jonathan with a giant step came out of Jana's room. He was no longer as cheerful as the beginning of his arrival.

"Sister"Who Reno

"Let's go home" said Jhonatan lethargic.

Papa Jonathan is like getting a bad feeling with this change in Jonathan's face. He wanted to ask a lot but it seemed like those words had to wait for the right time.

Likewise with Mama Jonathan who felt a little uncomfortable to see the change in the look on the face of his eldest son.

Liliana was happy to see the change in face, she thought Yana had decided to split up.

It's hard but Yana's not alone.