Young Mama
Chapter 55: ~Susan, you're Susan~

"Shill, so you're really going to Japan?" Rayna is currently in Shilla's contract with a sour face. He had no idea that the information he had given Keano could separate them. If he knew Keano's plan beforehand, he wouldn't have given Shilla a picture with Devan. Rayna is really sorry. If Shilla is in Japan, then what is the fate of his values. Shilla is the brain, without the girl, Rayna can only resign to her values.

"Yes. Thank you for making Keano angry. So he applied for leave for a student exchange there." Shilla smiled winning. Actually he would scold his friend who had been carelessly into Keano's eyes. He had not expected, his best friend could betray him like this. But the anger faded away instantly. He is very grateful with his best friend, so he can follow teaching and learning activities at his dream campus.

Rayna was desperate. He sat helplessly. Even Kenzo ignored it. His face was moody, his mouth was pursed. Like a child whose mother wants to leave.

"If you knew this would be the case, I wouldn't give you a photo." Rayna slapped her head on the table. I think he just wants to go with Shilla. But here he's his brain. Especially abroad. I can talk thankfully too.

"Eat him don't rest. Know for yourself the consequences." Shilla arranged the food they were going to eat tonight. "Kenzo don't eat the crayon, baby." Shilla immediately took the crayon brought by Kenzo. Even though the child is an intelligent child, the instinct for growing teeth remains. When his gums itch he will bite whatever he holds.

"..." - ".Kenzo just smiled apologizing to Shilla.

Shilla sat down next to Kenzo who was coloring his picture. "Who's this, honey?" Shilla sees Kenzo drawing a woman and two men of different ages. A simple scribble. But in it is full of meaning.

"Papa." Kenzo said while pointing at an image of an adult male. "Mama." The index turned to the picture of a woman holding a child's hand. "Kenken." Kenzo grinned as he pointed at the little boy who turned out to be him.

Shilla admires Kenzo's picture. He praised his son's work for the first time.

"Who is this?" Shilla pointed to another image that was not so clear.

"Auntie's pretty."

"..." - ".Kenzo's answer doesn't understand Shilla. Who does Kenzo mean with a pretty aunt. Looks like Kenzo never met a woman he called a pretty aunt. Kenzo could already recognize his mother's friends. He also has difficulty remembering his name. But no one has ever been called a pretty aunt.

Never mind. Shilla did not want to ask further. He didn't want to ask his son questions. Maybe it was Kenzo's imagination.

Shilla got up and continued to prepare her dinner. He just shook his head seeing Rayna still faithfully slumping her head on the table. Even occasionally he banged his head slowly on that dining table.

"If you want to kill yourself, don't be here, Ray. My contract will be a horror." Shilla put the grilled fish on the seasoned soy sauce. It's really appetizing.

"Sheila...." Suddenly Rayna whined. His face was like it was going to cry. He made it look as cool as possible so that Shilla would not bear and not leave him.

"Gga plan!" Shilla cuek with Rayna's absurd behavior.

Rayna's getting sullen. He got up and approached Kenzo who was still cool with drawing. Another picture again. He seems to have found a new hobby.

"Kenken, persuade mama dong, don't go ninggalin Aunty. Aunt is here alone." Rayna crouches down in front of Kenzo begging Kenzo to change Shilla's mind.

Of course Kenzo who did not understand Rayna just looked at her. There was no response from Kenzo.

"Aiiiish this boy." Rayna's desperate. He invites to talk to small children who do not understand the purpose and purpose. "Mama's going to leave Auntie." Rayna patiently explained to Kenzo to understand.

"Mama left?"

Rayna nodded at Kenzo's question. "Yes. He'll go far away auntie." Rayna put on her sad face.

"Mama! mama's going?" Kenzo asks Shilla a little tight because Shilla is still in the kitchen.

"Yes dear." Shilla returned to the dinner table with a glass of milk for Kenzo.

"Kenzo invited?"

"Of course Kenzo was invited." Shilla smiled looking at the plain face of the child.

"Then let mama go Auntie. Kan Kenzo was also invited, so no papa if mama left." Kenzo gave a conclusion to Rayna who immediately fell down. The only hope is unreliable.

"Kenken can't play with aunty anymore." I hope the little boy changes his mind.

"Without papa, there's still mama."

"The one with Kenken?"

"Papa."

"What is Ice Cream?"

"Mama."

"Who's playing with horses?"

"Papa."

The question and answer between Rayna and Kenzo lasted quite a long time. Kenzo's answer remained the same. Although there is nothing else, as long as there is a Mama and her Papa, she doesn't want anything else.

"Papa's coming, ma?"

"Of course, baby."

Rayna's surrendering. Kenzo was very consistent with his answer. His stance is very firm. Although he was still young, he was able to make firm decisions. Rayna sometimes confused herself. What age is that boy. Why his intelligence is above average for a child his age. Totally fit to be Shilla's son.

Seeing the interaction between his best friend and son, Shilla was eager to laugh. Moreover, Rayna who sulked at a small child, really Rayna style once.

"You are studying diligently. If you don't learn don't pass." Shilla. But the advice was only in response to Rayna's grunts.

"You've eaten first, you're ready." Shilla raised Kenzo to eat together. " Work on the picture later, baby."

"Waaaaaah." Rayna's eyes sparkled at the food on the table. For a moment he forgot his fear. "So get your rich girlfriend some nutritional fix huh Shil?" Rayna seduces Shilla.

"Just kid." Shill licks Rayna a little hard. Makes Rayna grimace. "It's purely my salary. Well, a secretary's salary." Shilla chuckled remembering from the beginning her odd job. But now a secretary at a large company. What an amazing experience. He can also sharpen his abilities to be sharper.

"Then when you left no one filled the position of secretary?"

"none. Seeking workers."

"If I get the list, don't you?"

"If you're accepted, it's immediately destroyed the company."

Rayna's mood was instantly destroyed. He is lazy to learn. The value is also ugly. But he's a hard worker. Ja. Hard worker in spending his parents money.

Today Shilla invites Kenzo to return home. In a few days he had to go to Japan and could not visit his mother's grave for some time. He wanted to say goodbye to his mother. Also reminiscing about the memories in the modest house where he grew up.

He still remembers the house he left a few years ago. The dust is piling up, but the situation is still the same. A house full of memories of him and his mother. Where her mother raised her alone. Back here Shilla can't hold back her tears.

Shilla was still standing in front of the door holding Kenzo's little hand. He was still reluctant to open the brown wooden door in front of him. He still imagined the figure of the mother would emerge from behind this door.

"Why ma?" Kenzo breaks Shilla's daydream. He was amazed by the mother who was still standing still. "Mama?!" Kenzo shaking the hand Shilla was leading made him aware of his daydream.

"Sorry baby, mama got carried away." Shilla smiled slightly. Her free hand wiped away the tears that were accidentally spilled. He misses his mother so much. Missing the hand that used to always hold her. The older hands are getting more and more clenched, but the warmth in them never decreases.

Shilla hugged Kenzo suddenly. In his heart he promised to be there for him. She'll be a good mother to him. Which he can always be proud of.

They hugged for quite a while. Although Kenzo did not understand why his mother hugged him all of a sudden. But their activities were interrupted by the sound of footsteps of someone approaching.

Shilla's head turned to the source of the voice. Looks like a tall, straight man. His face showed firmness there. His eyes were full of hidden mysteries. About half a century old. The same age as his mother if only he was alive. But that face, it seemed like a stranger. The japs? The korean? I don't know. Shilla got up letting go of Kenzo's embrace and approached the man who kept staring at her from a distance.

"Who are you looking for?" Shilla asked in English knowing she was a foreigner.

"Susan?" The man calls Shilla his mother Susan. Shilla's getting confused. He had never known this man if he knew his mother.

"Who is it?" Shilla looked at him confused. In his head revolved around various questions.

"Susan." Without excuse the man hugged her.

Although it was not very clear Shilla could hear a small sob coming out of the man. Of course, it makes Shilla more confused.

Shilla encouraged the man to let go of his embrace. "Sorry sir, but I don't know you. Don't suddenly hug like this." Shilla tried to be patient. Usually, if there are people who are insolent, the kick just drifts towards the person.

Wh why? Why Shilla remained calm. I don't know what makes Shilla feel that the person in front of her is not a dangerous person. It's not that he doesn't want to hurt old men. But from the look of his eyes radiated sadness and longing simultaneously.

"Suhan. You're forgetting me?" The man is getting sad. A look of disappointment filled his aura.

Shilla understood this situation. The man thought he was Susan the mother.

"Sorry sir. But I'm not Susan. You've mistaken people." Shilla carefully explained to him. He did not want to add disappointment to the man's face.

"Not Susan?" The man stared fixedly at Shilla's face. He was absent from the tip of the foot to the tip of the head. It does. This is the look of Susan when she was young. Beautiful and graceful. And they haven't met in over twenty years. There's no way her Susan isn't getting any older. She stroked Shilla's cheeks gently. He smiled calmly. "Then who are you? Why does this face look like Susan?"

"Susan is my mother sir. So it's only natural that our faces are similar." Shilla slightly rewinded her body. It's uncomfortable to be touched by a stranger.

"Ah, I'm sorry if I was presumptuous and made you uncomfortable. I just thought you were Susan. It's been a long time since I've seen him." The man kept the hand that had just stroked Shilla's cheek in his pants pocket. He's really sloppy. I thought the young girl was Susan. "Where is your mommy son?"

Hearing the question from the person she did not know, Shilla's face again grieved. If only his mother were still by his side, he would have been in his arms. But Shilla did not want to be dissolved in grief. His mother would be sad to see him sad.

"Mama is on God's side." Shilla smiled loudly. A smile reminiscent of a young Susan. So pretty.

"So..."

"Yes sir. Mama's been gone a long time. But if I may know, who is the real master?"

"God. I forgot to introduce myself. I'm Mamoru, a friend of your mother's when she was young." The man who turned out to be Mamoru introduced himself.

"Ah well mamoru. If you'd like, I can take you to mama's grave."

"really?"

"True sir, mama's grave is not far from here. Mama would love to see her old friend. As far as I know, my mom never introduced her friends when she was alive."

"good. Then take me there."

Shilla nodded in response. "Kenzo baby, let's take this Master to see Grandma." Shilla waved her hand at Kenzo who was still observing them from the porch of the house.

Hearing his mother's call, Kenzo immediately ran over.

They visited Susan's grave. There are so many questions in the mind of those who are reluctant to be asked.

They walk in tandem. Mamoru offers Shilla a ride. Of course, Shilla politely accepted the invitation, after all they would go to the same place.

It didn't take long. Ten minutes later they arrived at the public cemetery. Shilla led the way showing where Susan was resting.

"Siang ma's. Shilla's coming again. Guess who's with Shilla this time." Shilla immediately crouched stroking her mother's headstone.

"Grandma, Kenken is coming." The child's babble invited their smile to expand.

"He is the master of Mamoru ma. He said it was your friend, so Shilla brought him here to see you. Mama's a grin, right?"

"I'm sorry ma, Shilla can't stay here for long. Shilla's here to say goodbye, maybe one or two years in the future Shilla can't meet mama, Shilla got a chance to exchange students to Japan. So soon Shilla has to go there." Shilla was sad to have to leave her mother. But he also has to pursue his goals. That was Susan's last message when she was about to leave.

"So she's still a student? Taking care of kids? But why don't I see her husband." In Mamoru's mind wondered. But it would be presumptuous if he asked personal things to the child of his friend.

As Mamoru lingered in his mind, Shilla was done with his affairs.

"Please sir, but I'm sorry I can't accompany you." Shilla smiled feeling guilty.

"What's wrong. You seem to be busy."

"Then I go first sir."

Mamoru. After Shilla's death, Mamoru crouched down and kissed the tombstone of the person she missed so much. She had missed Susan so much for over twenty years. He lost contact with the woman. He did not dare to look for her. Once he was brave, even what he met was his tomb. Mamoru was truly sorry.

"Sorry Susan. Really sorry. If I had known you were pregnant then, I would have prevented you from leaving. Sorry Susan." Mamoru's cry broke out full of regret. "I promise, I'll take care of her."

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