Zehntara
Chap 46 (The Heart That No Longer Beats)

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"Who are you looking for Tar?" asked Maya when her best friend had been crying, observing one by one the students who had come in and out of the canteen.

Tara let out a lethargic breath before her question got the slumber of her three best friends. "Don't you see Zehn?."

"Rightly not look? Where else is the child, his HP is also not active," grumbled Tara.

"It's a real pleasure to say Do'i lo Tar" Gery replied with a mouthful of meatballs.

"Just go to her class," said Chika with focused hands opening one by one kuaci. That tiny little food could make a Chika fall in love.

"Yes, who knows, don't go in" Maya replied.

"Is he sick? Because yesterday it was raining after my home."

"Yes could be," Chika replied nodding a nod to her head.

Tara observed the Chika's late lamat that was busy peeling off the skin. Chika who realized that also immediately raised one eyebrow. "Why, would you?."

"Maauu," Tara cheered immediately picked up some of the quaci that Chika had peeled off earlier.

"Ck at best if I eat again continue pura nawarin, uh you guys even want," sumpul Chika again pulled her quaci from Tara.

"Yhee basic Chiki! Who was wrong" Gery replied.

"Slightly enough Chik," said Tara pursed her lips.

"Yes-iya sincere!," said Chika forced. Hard to peel, uh play ask. It takes a struggle, even if it's a small meal like a kuaci. Tired peeling, uh not making full.

"Tar's like Gio deh's brother, Zehn's friend," Maya points to a group of guys not far from their desk.

"Oh yes, I often see Brother Zehn as a guy," said Gery.

"Really?."

"Yes, do I want to ask?" replied Gery got a steady nod from Tara.

"Okay, wait here."

Gery went to some of his senior brother's groups. After a little while talking with Gio's brother, he returned his best friend's shirt that had been kepo. "Why Ger?" Tara slurried before Gery sat down her ass.

"He was sick."

"I guessed it, it must have been raining yesterday. Why don't you worry, make people worry."

"Yaudah will go back to school to her apartment, Tar" Chika replied.

"Yes, I'll stop by."

"Why don't you ask Dirgo? Isn't she also living in Zehn's apartment?" asked Gery.

"No, last night bang Dirgo slept at home."

"Have you finished the punishment bang Gogo?" asked Chika in response to Tara's nod.

"He's finished, the man wants to get married. The bride-to-be is not in her own home, as the bride is running away."

"Well, do you want to marry Tar?" asked Maya.

"Yes, fooled by your father."

"Hmm, there's still a match. Kayak era siti nurbaya aja," reply Maya lethargic.

"Yes. Like I'm an example," said Gery ended the oddity that sounded bitter.

Everyone fell silent, somehow an awkward feeling suddenly enveloped.

"Ekhhmm.to the class aja yuk, already want to bell in," Tara asked to move from her seat.

"Eh Tar is a very nice necklace, from whom?," asked Chika full of twinkle to catch a beautiful perch necklace on Tara's neck.

"From-," pause Tara with a shy smile.

"It must be from Brother Zehn, right? Ngaku do not lo!," seloroh Gery added red curls on both cheeks Tara.

"Your son became lo Tar, already a queen. The important thing is that your feelings also do not clap one hand," said Maya with a tone that is difficult to interpret.

"What a hell, I've come to class!."

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Ting

The elevator opened, the footsteps slowly walking towards the apartment door that he had not been to for a long time. With one hand menenteng kresek contains fruits as well as chicken porridge that he bought earlier.

After twice pressing the bell, the figure expected to open the door never appeared. A few minutes later, the door finally opened.

The tall figure with boxer pants is also a white t-shirt emblazoned in front of him. The wide seyum of Tara he could not smile. A feeling of relief enveloped his heart now.

"Hi, why don't you tell me you're sick? Yesterday was not shady, right? I told you that it rained shady first, don't play Nehn's nerobos. It's hard to tell, it's a sneer," Tara's cerocos.

His hands were raised to check the temperature Zehn had allowed, his forehead creased as Zehn's temperature did not feel hot. "Well, isn't it hot? He said you were sick, what was sick?," asked Tara again worriedly.

This figure in front of him could only be silent, listening to every chatter of Tara. "Zehn!?," snapped Tara when she saw Zehn's response that was just silently sculpting.

"Ah.iya had already dropped the fever earlier," replied Zehn.

"Is it really okay? Have you taken the medicine yet? Or is your body still jolly, hm? We'll check 'em."

"That's okay," Zehn lightly cut. Her flat face made Tara wonder, but did not blame her. At the moment, Zehn is not feeling well. Perhaps because of that, Zehn's response looked like a dazed person and did not respond to Tara with joy.

"A..I'm interrupting your rest huh?," asked Tara, fearing that she would disturb the sleeping Zehn.

"No, let's go inside."

Tara followed the host until in front of the television room the two sat down. The awkward aura that Tara felt made her strange herself. Though just last night he and Zehn were like people who had been close for a long time. Laughing without caring around, even the two of them had already done that. His second first kiss.

"Ekkhhmm.want to drink what?," asked Zehn trying to shift the awkward situation.

"No, I can take it myself if I'm thirsty...."

"....Oh yes this is me buying fruit with chicken porridge, want me to prepare the porridge?."

"Not per."

"There is no reason, you have to eat a lot to get well. I'm bribing ya?," asloh Tara opened the Chicken porridge package. He sat down next to Zehn.

"Come Aaaakkk...."

Inevitably Zehn opened his mouth, taking a bribe after a bribe from Tara's hand. Since then, the most frequent sound came from Tara. Usually the most enthusiastic looking for the topic of conversation was Zehn, but why did he have to shut up so much?.

"You why Zehn? How come you've been quiet, something's wrong?."

"No, no more hoarseness, no more," Zehn replied with a faint smile.

"Geez, I'm going to want that flu, I made ginger first."

"No need, it will also heal itself if you have taken medicine."

"Ck, it doesn't have to be stubborn if you say it. This used up the porridge first," replied Tara to feed a spoonful of porridge.

Tara looked at Zehn with a look that was hard for the guy to interpret. Somehow the Zehn netra spotlight that Tara saw this time was different, usually her heart rate will race faster, but this time why is it different?.

"What's the matter?" he asked Zehn, astonished by Tara's gaze.

"Ah no. I used to be kedapur, yes" said Tara went kedapur make ginger wedang for Zehn. Even though his mind and heart were at war at the moment, somehow the strange feeling continued to make his heart unsettled.

Anxiety, anxiety and discomfort for whatever reason.

Netra Tara caught the device that she searched last night, and strangely the device is now irregular in shape. His hand moved to take the device on the dining table.

Soon he returned where Zehn was with the cracked screen, almost filling all the flat screen.

"This is your HP why Zehn!?."

One expression of Zehn that Tara could capture, was surprised. Just like him who sees the condition of the device.

"Why can it be broken like this? Wasn't yesterday still okay? This is what you like, huh?."

"That's..."

"....falling in the rain yesterday."

"Well, how can you?."

"Time falls behind there's a motor, so miss it."

"Geez, your panties don't give you any news. So, it can't be used anymore, can it?."

Zehn.

Tara's gaze was sidetracked, staring at the wonder of Zehn's hair that was different from last night. Now the man's hair is very neatly arranged with a Korean-style model, also the color of his hair is slightly brown.

"Kok something strange about your hair?" asked Tara, still observing Zehn's hair.

The man's hand reflexively touched his hair. His face pias not when Tara Hand spontaneously dropped HP in his grasp. "There's a phone for a minute" said Tara taking her car from her pocket. Walk away Zehn who breathed a sigh of relief.

"Luckily," he murmured stroking his chest.

"Yes, hello Chik what is it?" asked Tara when the phone connection was connected.

"Heh Tara you know that today the Saniya is an operation?," chika.

"Huh, surgery? What operation? That's obviously dong Chik."

"Yes, I saw from Adit's story. Ask her prayers for Saniya's smooth operation."

"Let's ask Zehn first, not matiin."

Zehn who saw Tara approaching again sat up straight. "Zehn do you know that Saniya is operating today?."

"Yes, he said Saniya wanted the operation. What operation is it? Is it possible to have kidney surgery?."

Deg

The memory flashed across Zehn's brain, a wry smile etched on his face. Now he knew who Tara meant.

"Yes, the operation is over."

"Huhh?? I'm done?" surprised Tara. Chika also listened.

"Serius Zehn, When? What operation?."

"So early in the morning."

"Saniya has just been able to donate a kidney," Zehn continued, looking sad.

"Thank God, I'm glad that Saniya has a kidney donor" Tara replied with a cheerful smile.

Zehn who saw that, retorted with a glare. There's a scar there. I don't know what he's feeling right now.

"Yaudah yes Chik I matiin his phone, bye."

Tut

"Oh yeah, Saniya got a kidney donor from whom?," Tara's spontaneous question made Zehn stunned.

Tara frowned waiting for an answer that never came out of this guy in front of her. "I don't know," said Zehn, turning his face in another direction.

"It doesn't matter who the donor is. It usually comes from someone who has died, right?."

Deg

Again the look on Zehn pias' face was instantaneous, Tara's speech was like a dagger that pierced his heart even more. Wanting to scream as loud as possible, but let out a sound as if stuck in the throat.

"What if we look at Saniya, hm!?."

"Je. jenguk?" asked Zehn to confirm.

"Yes, you don't want to know what Saniya is? We look at Ziro."

"Ah yes.ayo."

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The sound of screams mixed with hysterical cries rang out until the ICU waiting room. Tara who just wanted to open the door to Saniya's room was surprised not when Ziro's figure was so heartbreaking with Jez pushing a wheelchair. Random hair scrambles, sad facial features, black eyelids, black color clothes worn very shabby. To Tara's amazement, why is Ziro's appearance so messed up with clothes like in a state of grief?.

"Tara," call Ziro limp. Her net turned to stare at the guy next to Tara with a difficult look to interpret.

"Saniya why Ro?," asked Tara while peeking at some doctors who were handling Saniya who was still rummaging indistinctly.

Ziro did not reply, only remaining silent with both hands covering his face. "Just in! I brought Ziro back to his security first," Jez said, hailed by Tara.

One by one the doctors and nurses came out of the room, slowly Tara entered the room full of medical devices. "San, it's me Tara" said Tara, taking Saniya's palm to hold.

Saniya's gaze looked blankly at the sky, though it was no longer stirring but the mouth did not stop saying the word 'I hate life' repeatedly.

Tara was surprised by what Saniya said, not that she should be happy and grateful to be able to get a kidney donor. After this the activity will return to normal like others who have complete kidneys.

"San," Tara's call this time made Saniya turn her head.

"I hate this body of Tar," Saniya muttered staring at Iyu Tara.

Saniya's gaze turned to look at the figure behind Tara, just then a drop of liquid managed to come out of her eyelids.

"Don't give me life if you give me a part of your life. Zehn," continued Saniya.

Tara turned her head towards Zehn who was staring flatly at Saniya. I don't know what's going on right now, Tara is really confused. Saniya's words that made her have to think hard to understand, but what Tara caught at this time was only one. His feelings are not okay now.

"I hate it when I look at myself."

"Don't say it like San, you should be grateful to get a kidney donor," said Tara stunned the mind that began to whip.

"Thankful?...."

".....for what?."

"He's not here anymore, Tara."

"H.huh?."

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After returning from the hospital, a feeling of dread still haunts Tara's mind. Several times the eyes wanted to be closed, but the shadow of Zehn's figure always came like a big screen that filled his vision.

Never mind, it can't be explained anymore what Tara's feeling right now. All like mixed, want to push away the unpleasant feeling but free. His feelings and thoughts could not stop him.

"Aaarghhh what the hell is going on?" cried Tara stomping her feet on the mattress.

"There's something strange about Zehn" muttered Tara.

After tired of wrestling with her heart and mind, the girl began to fall asleep. 

The next day bright can not cover the look of the face of the girl who is now pensive in one of the school park benches. The clap from behind made him aghast. "It's a dream, you" exclaimed Anna sitting her ass next to Tara.

"Oh yes Tar, my goodness you have to hear my story. It should have happened yesterday, but I forgot the same story, lo" continued Anna bergebu.

"What story?."

"Inget not yesterday if it is not wrong on the 25th day of the week is it really raining?."

"Heemm," replied Tara.

"Good God don't know what I dream is malemnya, good taste in the role of the store eh arrived with my own eyes, I saw aawwhhh scene horrified Tar..."

"What's clear dong An, see what?."

"There was a tragic motorcycle accident with a car!."

Deg

Tara's heart broke, not knowing why her heart was pounding. His body felt weak, but he did not know and saw the tragic incident.

"If you look at it, you might have fainted on the spot. Lo know not the victim who rode a motorcycle to float, thrown, toppled, tertragis ter anyway I.ihhhh me if inget the incident that night felt pain alone. Plus the rain again, the puddle of water until it turns red."

"Te..how are you?" asked Tara, her voice sounding stout.

"I don't know exactly how it is, but immediately taken by ambulance to the hospital really."

"Eh sister Zehn tuh Tar," continued Anna pointed to the man who was still holding her bag.

"Samperin gih!," said Anna nudged Tara's arm that did not respond.

"After a break, I'm going to go in too. Yuk to class," Tara retorted ahead of Anna.

A few hours passed until the break bell rang. But since the lesson half-day, Tara's mind has never been focused. And that strange feeling he still felt. Even now he felt a lot of longing for Zehn, but it was strange to see Zehn this morning like there was no sense of his usual heart blowing.

Differ.

Tara and Anna walked leisurely into the canteen area. Hustle and bustle of students who were waiting in line filled the room that was enough to accommodate all Adi Bangsa students. A glance at Tara leads to a group of guys, and one of them is Zehn.

"If you dare to samperin dong Tar, be invited to eat together," exclaimed Anna understood the direction of Tara's view.

Tara ignored, sharpening her vision when something had just entered Zehn's mouth. Well, the food that Zehn had just eaten made Tara's eyes glare. As fast as lightning he ran towards Zehn.

"What the hell are you, Zehn!?" cried Tara, seizing the peanut bread that had just entered Zehn's mouth.

"Didn't vomit!?" said Tara frantically as she struck Zehn in the neck.

The five guys on the desk looked confused by what Tara was doing. Zehn just kept quiet with his flat expression.

"What's the matter?" The two words that came out of Zehn's mouth immediately made Tara stunned. What was? Is that a question that should come out of Zehn's mouth? Oh he thinks now that Zehn forgot his memories, he dared to kill his own life.

"What's up?....."

".....You want to die if you eat the peanut bread," continued Tara Lirih, looking at the figure of disbelief in front of him who is now like a dazed person.

"Hhh.haahh?."

"Look at me Zehn" said Tara with a hoarse voice.

Anyone, please keep away the strange thoughts that Tara is thinking right now. He does not want what he has in mind and his heart is right now. Seeing the Zehn he was now looking at felt foreign to him.

"LOOK ME IN THE EYE!!!."

Shouting Tara hysterically made several pairs of eyes turn their eyes towards her. Clear circles have been pooled in his eyelids, his hands clasped tightly trying to calm themselves even though now the anxiety is increasingly inflamed.

The two look at each other. "Why do you eat peanut bread?" asked Tara Lirih. His gaze drew out into the net, the eyes that had made Tara aware. Not the beautiful Neutra that Zehn had known all along.

Zehn. His voice felt choked, swallowing his saliva just hard he did. Looking at the eyes of Ime Tara who made the guilt even more.

"You know-."

"The zehn I know is a peanut allergy" Tara continued. His eyes warmed until his vision blurred.

From a distance, her three best friends and Anna were still quietly observing what was happening. He wanted to get closer, but his steps were heavy. Letting what his best friend would do.

"Who are you!?."

"I'm Zehn, Tara."

"No. You who!? Where's Zehn!?" said Tara, who did not feel clear circles began to flow on his cheeks.

A drop after a drop of liquid kept coming out of his eyelids. His hands clenched even more tightly until his book of nails turned white. His shoulders began to begetar accompanied by sobs, staring fixedly at the man who now looked at him with a look of pity.

"You're not Zehn!."

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Huhuhuhuu not strong nulis this Chapter until the endr😭