A Series of Dreams
The Remaining Self-Esteem

The discussion still takes place in the main room. Kenanga insisted on canceling the wedding at the last minute for no reason. The woman who had been dressed up beautiful with white kebaya pleaded while crying, asking Sandi's policy to end the marriage that was not a hundred percent wanted unilaterally.

“Pak, I beg you. I don't want to marry Aa. I don't love him.” Kenanga squashed, clenched her hands on her chest. Traces of tears spewed makeup on her face.

Lasmi who was listening on the edge of the bed so full. From the beginning, she had disagreed with the marriage that occurred due to pregnancy. Her dream is still the same, ushering the princess into the daughter-in-law of a wealthy family in the capital. Swallowing her saliva, the old woman also voiced her heart. Kenanga's wailing was too pitiful, she couldn't just ignore it and assume the past wind.

“Pak, we still have a chance. Mumpung, the new janur will curve. We'll just cut it. Call Caraka's parents, tell them that Anga can't continue this marriage.”

They talk while whispering. Unwilling to have their voices swept away by the wind and heard all the way to the living room, where Wisely and Seruni were left in awkward twists.

“Don't talk weird, Mom. So far, just want to be canceled? Where would Kenanga's stomach be thrown? How pregnancy? If she doesn't need a husband, the baby needs a father. You have the heart to let this disgrace embarrass us?” Sandy refused.

Lasmi grunting.

“Eating him from the beginning I forbid you to meet the Caraka family. This is what I'm afraid of. The baby was aborted. Just a few months, not a few days. After all, it is not necessarily the fetus that survives until childbirth. If Anga miscarries, it's the same as tying her to an unwanted marriage.”

Pair of eyes Sandi patterned. Breathing up and down held back the upset. Unable to speak, the old man struggled to temper his emotions so as not to throw a punch at his wife.

“Sin, Mom. Being pregnant outside of marriage is a sin. Add aborted again.” The head shook, throwing a glance out the window. Hopefully, the trees that swing in the baby can calm themselves who are swept away by emotions.

Honestly, he was confused by the mind-line of the mother and child before him. So one-to-one that leaves no room for a chunk of conscience. Common sense is mortgaged, leaving a body without atma and succum.

“You know how much money we spent on this wedding?” Sandi reminded me again.

Lasmi put on a flat look. There is no guilt in ruling there.

Sandi's right hand had been lifted into the air, ready to be anchored on Lasmi's cheek which was always acting arbitrarily. However, before the violence actually happened, his common sense returned. The palm with the fingers is unraveled, slowly clenching tightly until the veins bulge out.

“Bu, poor treasure is indeed destiny, we cannot refuse. But, poor heart ...” Sandi shakes. “We can dodge and choose not to be private like that.” Sandi softens. His fist slowly unraveled, he sat down beside his wife.

Lasmi.

Silence enveloped the narrow room that became the resting place of the homeowner. Every now and then, Kenanga sobs, slipping into the debate of her parents. He was determined to cancel the marriage. Wisely's good looks opened her eyes. The man's appearance and luxurious car also changed his purpose. The old man with a fat stomach, the bald head that had been in his mind was knocked out when he accidentally saw the handsome and dashing figure behind the wheel of a luxurious mount.

“Why is the world always unfair to me? Why the Union always gets the best and I ..”

Sandi smiled and began to understand the bride's mind.

“Because you didn't make yourself deserve all the best. All this time, what are you doing? If you can keep your honor as a woman, you will marry Wise, not Uni. Now, think ... does Wise want to accept you who are already pregnant? Does his family want to accept you?”

Kenanga. The circle of tears that had stopped, now shed wet the cheeks back.

“Think and ponder. There are all partners and partners of each. From the beginning, I have been reminded many times. We are not from a wealthy family, the only precious treasure we have is honor and self-respect. If that's all you don't have, then ..what can you be proud of. Beauty?"

Lasmi shut up, Kenanga fell silent.

“You will still be married to Caraka, the Union who will be married to Wise. It's all like this, at least keep your remaining pride. Don't embarrass her in front of everyone.”