Anisa the Sinner
Chapter 55
Anisa yawned, drowsiness now approached her and now she fell asleep in a position facing each other with the man in front of her.
The banner slightly squirmed, his hands hugging the body of the woman in front of him. The body he thought was a bolster pillow. Panji opened his closed eyes because he felt strange about what he was hugging.
Deg.
When those eyes opened and he saw the face of the girl he always said snot. The fierce leafat made Panji unable to instantly close his eyes back. However, the hand that had already been coiled around the waist of the girl was also not immediately able to pull. For a moment he felt the girl's body in his arms and then the hand he took off. Panji then confirmed his sleeping position by turning his back on the girl.
...****************...
Two months later.
"Non, I peeled the melon for Non," said mbak Asih by thrusting the melon at the table.
Anisa turned to the fruit that had been peeled and sliced by mbak Asih.
"Thank you Ma'am" said Anisa but her eyes refocused on the phone screen.
"Used Non,"
Anisa nodded.
"Lately, the portion of Non food has been reduced" said Mbak Asih.
Anisa's hand stopped surfing above the phone screen. He was silent to hear Asih's words that were indeed true.
"Sorry before Asih spoke presumptuously. Non relationship with Mr. Panji may be not good but Non also should not forget, Non still pregnant, there is a baby candidate in the stomach Non. He needs enough nutrition."
"Me, a_I'm fine. Only my portion of food is now reduced, maybe this is congenital from the baby," said Anisa gave an excuse.
"In this house I am indeed only a Non household assistant but if Non wants to pour out the hearts of Non, just say let the plong be the heart."
Anisa remained silent. His eyes are now in glass.
"Shall I just leave this house, ma'am?" anisa asked started to open her voice and let out what was in her heart.
"Non, what the hell is that not talking about?! Don't you ever say that!" refute mbak Asih was not happy to hear the question sentence that was thrown from Anisa's mouth.
"Mbak Asih still clearly remembered the last message uttered by oma. He asked Non to take care of the master. Perhaps the intent of the oma, he wanted Non to always be beside the master. Oma knows, Mr. Panji will live alone without direction and Non who can accompany him, directing him in a straight path, stepping with Non to achieve happiness, true happiness until the afterlife," terang mbak Asih's.
"Non spoke carefully with the master if there was a problem. If you just silence each other then there will be no meeting point," continued Asih.
"Mbak Asih hope that what Mbak Asih said is a consideration for Non. Go to the kitchen first."
Anisa nodded and without feeling the tears of Anisa flowing. However, his hand immediately wiped away those tears.
"You must be strong Anisa! Can't be whiny! Can't be weak! Time is going on! Get up!" inner exclaim Anisa. He stared at the melon slices on the plate, his hands grabbed and then put one by one into his mouth until the fruit was toilet.
(POV Anise)
These two months, Panji's been cold to me. We only interacted in the morning when she had breakfast. He always comes home at night. I don't even know what time he came home because when I woke up for the night prayer he was sleeping next to me.
I want to protest her silence but I haven't been able to express what's wrong with my heart. It's not like I'm alone! Because I usually won't be able to bear not to convey what's stuck in my heart. I have always been principled 'if it is not in accordance with the heart to convey so as not to be a burden of thought'. But again, it's not like I'm.
Maybe because we were determined not to interfere with each other's affairs. Maybe because I was determined to be careless to him. Uh! Stupid time with everything!
Our marriage was only a cover for her parents! Maybe that's his thinking. During this marriage, either I increase in sin or something! But clearly it must be a sin because undergoing marriage is not like a marriage. Yep! I am the sinner, the more sinful man I become!
These two months, I've been through so hard. Is it possible that I was too shocked by the attitude of Brother Panji? Is it possible because I feel like I lost the figure of Kak Panji whom I have known all this time? Maybe because of me? No way! I can't possibly have any other feelings for Kak Panji! I can't possibly get swept away in the atmosphere we've been through all this time.
I was just thinking too much about why Kak Panji was so cold and too indifferent to me. Yes, maybe because Kak Panji was angry because of that event. The event that morning, where I refused to accompany oma at home because I wanted to check the pregnancy and after that the fateful incident happened to oma until oma died. Is that because of all that? But.but Kak Panji should know! I did not think much about the safety of the oma because there were also oma guarding. Kak Panji should also know that I also have concerns about the baby in my womb! Is my baby candidate okay, is the development appropriate, is the weight is right? He must understand me too!
Huh! for free! I am free to complain to myself! It is true what Asih said. I have to speak to Panji. I have to speak from heart to heart with Kak Panji.
(POV 3)
The clock has shown at eleven o'clock in the evening. One last week Anisa accidentally sleeps on the sofa, and later when she wakes up for evening prayers she is already in the bed. However, this time Anisa tried not to close her eyes. He deliberately waited for Panji's arrival because he had to talk to the man.
The sound of the bedroom door opening and the sound of feet stepping in. Anisa is still in a position to pretend not to look at the presence of the man in the room.
"You were waiting for me on purpose?"
The voice instantly made Anisa speechless. There's a swish for what makes Anisa's heart pumped faster. Anisa swallowed her saliva with difficulty she would answer the question of the figure of the man she had been waiting for but her mouth that had been opened choked to hear the continued words of the man in front of her.
"I cleaned myself first," said Panji then stepped into the toilet room.
Anisa regulated her breathing, occasionally she took a breath then let out slowly.
The figure she was waiting for came from the bathroom. As usual, he was uneasy just wrapping a towel around his waist. Panji then put on his clothes. After she put it on she walked to the sofa and sat down beside Anisa.
"Tell me what you want to say" Panji said flatly.
Anisa was silent, self-regulating, venturing to open her mouth.
"Sir Panji is angry with me?" ask Anisa later.
Panji immediately looked at Anisa feeling surprised by the question throw.
"Do you feel that way?"
"I asked why Big Brother turned the question over to me!"
"I don't understand what you mean. I'm mad at you for what."
"Because of that time I didn't want to take care of oma! I'm going to the clinic!"
"I was really angry with you, but after that I realized that I was wrong if I was angry with you. The death of oma has nothing to do with you. That's already the fate line."
"Then why did Brother silence me! Brother is cold with me! Brother is cute with me! Why!" Anisa began to be unable to control herself, her tone raised, her voice was raucous and her eyes were now filled with clear liquid.
"So don't know, I'm so tormented by Big Brother's attitude. I'd better say Kak Panji the sloppy girl, scolded Sister, cursed Big Brother than I silenced Kak Panji," Anisa said in a weakened tone of voice as her tears shamelessly flooded her cheeks.
"Then what brother means! Brother in one week is carrying me to bed! Why doesn't Panji just let me sleep on the couch! What is the form of caring Kak Panji?! Please don't confuse me with all of Brother's attitude!" cecar Anisa's.
Panji is still silent. He breathed his breath rough.
"It's night, you'd better do it" Panji said.
"I was deliberately waiting for Kak Panji to finish all this!" screeched Anisa with a sharp look towards Panji.
night say hello 🤗 like, comment, comment, vote gift also mau🙏😍😘🥰