Assalamu'Alaikum Pak Policeman
Not Because of Old Taste

Meidina was present, in a monthly routine, teaching and study between relatives. All her gathered, Meidina who felt inferior preferred to separate herself, and arrange food. Anisah approached Meidina, and helped arrange the cake on a plate.

"Why not join? " ask Anisah.

"Here you go, I'm ashamed. "

"So why? they are your brothers too."

"Here you go, while listening to her studies."

"Have a tube, many cousins who want to know you closely. "

"That's it. "

Meidina's phone rings, a call from Radit but Meidina lets it go. Until it appears, message notification.

"Why not get picked up? " Task Anisah.

"Not what" Meidina answered briefly.

"Sir Radit, do you like it? "

"I don't know, I don't want to know."

"Why don't you accept it? he's good, you know. His son is Kapolres, his mother is a doctor. "

"I don't want to, and don't want to be close to a man. "

"Why? "

"It's okay - what. "

"Is it because of your heart, still the same Bagas? "

Meidina stared intently at Anisah, and slammed the lap on the table. Anisah looked back, towards Meidina.

"You why the hell? always hooked me up with Bang Bagas. You should know Anisah, I'm the same Bang Bagas has not communication for a long time, just limited to say hello. Are you suspicious of me, if I do not want to accept other men, because of Bang Bagas? no Anisah, no..!! " meidina said in a loud voice.

Up to those in the living room and guests, heard Meidina's loud voice. Abi Mulia also approached her two daughters, even Bagas, Mumtazd and Alif also approached her.

"What's this about? "

"Sorry Abi, this is a misunderstanding" Anisah said.

"It's not a misunderstanding, but an accusation. By Allah, why I reject Bang Radit, not because of Bang Bagas. But I am ashamed, I am self-conscious. If I have a bad past, Bang Bagas is not necessarily willing to accept me, he accepts not necessarily his family accepts. I am self-conscious, self-aware that I am a former man. Just the last man I ever loved, Bang Bagas. And now, I have no more taste. Free to defend, sick. But I refused it, not because I still love Bang Bagas. But I'm ashamed, I'm dirty, I'm self-conscious. That's what I'm going through now. Why, I split up, I'm ashamed, ashamed of you. "

Meidina left just like that, Abi Mulia was chasing after her daughter, Anisah was staring at Bagas. And Bagas prefers to go, Anisah died.

"Mas."

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"Abi never, ever, ashamed of Abi's child's past. You are Abi's son."

"I am ashamed of Abi, I am not fit to live with Abi, let alone loved by a saint. "

"That man, not all of him is holy. Abi too, is not a holy man. Abi also never, admitted Abi never committed sins. All must have been, only sometimes not aware of the sins we commit. "

"I like men, just like Bang Bagas. But I refuse, I know what Anisah means, I do love her husband. I refuse does not mean I still like Bang Bagas. But I'm ashamed, I'm dirty, I don't deserve it. That's my reason why I refused him. How should I say honestly, if I have no intention of damaging their household. "

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"Mas."

"How many times, don't bring Meidina again. He doesn't know what, it's not his relationship either. Don't you trust your husband and your brother? "

"I'm sorry, sorry. I don't mean that. "

"Continue what? if again - again, in the open? "

"I'm afraid, I'm afraid Mas died me. "

"Astagfirullah, you're the brains where Anisah is. When I have an intention, you die. You're afraid, I'll marry Meidina. Ok, I'll marry Meidina tonight, if that's what you want. Let your dirty thoughts come true. "

"Please, let us not fight, just because of this problem again, this again. We think mature, when you think bad only. I admit, I loved Meidina once, but I've decided to forget her. He was like that, not because of Mas, but because he had such a nature. She was thinking ahead of her how, and rarely would her man and family accept her. Maybe here, only the new Mas who accept what there is. But I do, I have you. He also realized, Mas is yours. "

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"Why open Meidina? " Tanya Radit to Bayu.

"Sorry Commander, this is between couriers. " Answer Bayu.

"Yaudah, thank you" said Radit and directly contacted Meidina.

"Assalamu'alaikum."

"Walaikumsalam, Mei why don't you deliver by yourself, instead ask for a courier? "

"I'm sorry Bang, from now on couriers only yes. "

"You stay away, what. 'cause yesterday? "

"Bang, please throw that flavor away. My brother likes me wrong, there are still many beautiful women, and women who have high degrees. Not me Bang, I don't deserve it. "

"Abang does not look at people, want rich poor just the same. "

"I don't want to, you're disappointed with me, and your family will be ashamed. Do not let, in public, your brother as a leader was even embarrassed, because he married me. "

"Then why Mei, you're good. You are the son of an educated man, your family is clear, devoutly religious. Especially Mei, let alone try. "

"What's wrong, don't look at it."

"Abang loves you Mei. "

"Before going too far, find out who I am, lest you regret it, one day."

Meidina closed her phone, by the time Bagas was already standing behind Meidina, Bagas approached and sat down beside her.

"Why are you here? don't let Anisah get angry Bang. "

"I'm sorry Anisah, sorry if she's presumptuous. "

"Not anything - what Bang, it's common. "

"Keep, how do you feel about Radit?"

"Nothing, I will keep trying not to love men. "

"Don't you, will you get old, will continue alone. "

"It's better, it's better. No one will be hurt. "

"Thank you, you know me very well. "

"I thank you, Brother, if I can be like this because of Brother."

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"Bang Radit's. "

"May, please don't avoid me. "

"Bang, sorry yes, I can't. "

"May, explain. Wh why? I also marked the question, if you say find out about you, what was it like? I don't care, and I don't mind that. I am, sincerely love you. I love you so much, as it is. "

"Does Brother still want to? if I was a former night woman, addict, drunkard, even had slept with many men, even my last victim was*******sa."

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