At the End of Bullet 4 (Next Generation)
27. It hurts a lot to feel.

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"Mas, since choosing a household like this.. Bian has thrown everything. Including if Mas has to be with Gita. Bian said he wanted to get closer to God. What Bian can't do, let Gita do." Said Bian.

"It's not that easy deck. You know the profession of Mas also does not allow soldiers to marry again. We are also an example in society of upholding loyalty to a partner." Replied Bang Dewa although his heart still held thousands of anxieties.

"Find Gita Mas..!!"

Bang Seba approached Bang God. He did not expect his emotions to bring this much doom in his sister's household.

"Dewo, I'm sorry..!!"

There was no answer from Bang Dewo's mouth, his heart was already crowded.

"We're home..!!" Bring the God Bang.

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Another in the mouth another in the heart. Bang Dewa leaned his tired back. Since Gita's departure, not a day has he missed to find his second wife. All the ways he has taken to ask for the help of outsiders who can be trusted but all nil. His smart wife had already removed the traces very neatly.

The God Bang took out a piece of paper to spill out his entire heart, at a time when everyone blamed himself for this incident might just be this piece of paper capable of reducing his inner burden.

Gita..

The wind blows breezy brings the coolness of the morning, but as usual my heart feels empty alone. The rising sun brings a bright light also cannot give me any news of where you are.

Gita..

Are you okay there?is our little one growing healthy in your womb? Why sweetheart? Why don't you say you want to and vent your anger at me?

Gita..

Bian once cried because of the loss of her womb and baby. It hit me so hard that I didn't dare to hurt her heart. At the moment that God set me to meet you who actually saved Bian from the crazy rules that should not have happened, at that time my heart still wanted to please Bian without hearing what you wanted. I hurt your heart for not wanting to hurt Bian when I knew your feelings were as soft as snow.

Gita..

Now I realize I hurt your heart.I put him in your womb but all to make Bian happy. It may be true, a woman can be far away and live without her man but a woman, a mother, cannot be far from her child. Later if you do not give the child to Bian, I will never blame you because I understand how you struggle.

Gita..

Thank you for being willing to carry her, even if you know that her father is being bad to his mother.

Greetings from those who love you

Captain Sadewa.

Bang Dewa rubbed his face then closed his eyes facing the ceiling of his study.

"O Allah, O Lord, it is very painful. Where else would I go to find Gita."

Eight months of searching were fruitless.

tock.tok..

"Who?" Bang Dewa rubbed his face again.

"Djin Dan, there's someone who put the baby next to the chivalry. The baby box says 'Owns of Sabian Tunggadewi's mother.'

Instantly, the God Bang ran towards the knight.

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The cry Bang God broke seeing the baby boy very much like him. His nose was sharp, his lips thin, his hair thick, even his shoulders were very similar to his. Bang the God hugged and kissed her. Her cry grew even more tight as she opened the covering cloth. The umbilical cord is still wet, which means the baby has just been born.

"Find hospital information, practice midwives even to maternity shamans all over this city..!!" The Lord Bang's.

"Ready Dan.." The members immediately carried out Captain Sadewa's orders.

"One more.. close the access out of the city for anyone who has just given birth..!!! Now also..!!!!".

Bian was very happy when Bang Dewa came home to bring a baby boy. The smile seemed to answer his sadness all along and it might be true, only the baby was the only thing that made him happy. He immediately took care of her while Bang Dewa was busy calling here and there to find Gita.

"Ijin. was there a silver mini bus put the baby box and the equipment on the side of the road." Bang Jazwan.

"Where's he going?" Ask Bang Dewa.

"Ijin.. enter the village Bang..!!" Answer Bang Jazwan.

"Okee.. You come with me..!!" Take Bang Dewa and grab his car keys.

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Bang Dewa entered the settlement which was a good distance from where he served until he found an old house on the hill.

Slowly but surely Bang God stepped in, from beside the window he peeked at the conditions around.

"Moe.. Gita can't stand the pain." Gita's spirit was still full of sweat on her face and body.

"Patience yes ndhuk. indeed this is the nature of women." persuaded the mother.

It was really surprising that Gita had been living with her mother and father on the hill. Mom wiped Gita's tears.

"Great girl, wonderful mother, I will curse Dewo if you dare to hurt you again. Gita's already given a child to Dewo and Bian."

Gita fisting felt her chest hurt so much. When the other mother held her baby after giving birth, but Gita could not pet her and did not even have time to give her ASI for fear of not being able to let go of the baby.

"Tomorrow morning Gita said to go, Mom..!!"

"Where are we going? Gita's not well." Said mother.

"Gita wants to go far away so as not to remember the child and Mas Dewo again. Gita's job is done Mom, Gita does not want to be a thorn in the household Mas Dewo and Mbak Bian." Answer Gita.

Dad sat in bed. "Are you not thinking of us as your in-laws?"

"Not dad.. Gita is female, and Gita doesn't want to love people's husbands. Please let Gita go. Gita has self-respect too."

Mom and Dad hugged Gita tightly. "Thank you very much, you have given the most beautiful happiness to our family." Mom kissed her daughter-in-law's forehead.

Bang Dewa returned to his car and prepared to pick him up tomorrow. She could not leave Bian for too long because her baby also needed to be examined post-natal condition without the help of medical personnel.

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"Has Gita been found?" Bian asked after they came home from the pediatrician.

Bang Deity was only silent but a handsome smile adorned his happy face upon the birth of his son.

"Whose name is Mas?"

"Raden Mas Suthang Angger Argoranu." replied Bang Dewa. She painfully breastfed her baby.

Bian smiled with satisfaction at hearing that.

"Mas, put Gita's name on her birth certificate." Said Bian.

"There is only your name under the name Mas in KK. The Gita is not in our family." Heavy Bang God said it even though that was the reality.

"Pity Gita Mas."

"This is the destiny of life we choose." Replied Bang Dewa when in his heart also hurt.

Bang Dewa put his nose on his son. "Papa's champ." Mumbled.

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