At the End of Bullet 4 (Next Generation)
5. Repairing a relationship with you.
Bian was stunned to see the way Bang God defended himself. His cry broke, he stood up and hugged the God Bang.
"Let people look down on Bian, as long as Bian's husband never looks down on her."
"What did you say????? I will live you, I will love you, and I will protect you for the rest of my life. I will not let anyone humiliate you because you are my wife..!!!!!!" The impact of Bang Dewa makes anyone guts to hear it.
Bang the god remembered his dream back then. The dream when he saw Bian was not wearing clothes and now he felt the pain continue to pierce his mind. The pain was even more painful than seeing Melani married to Bang Tono. There was a sense of unwillingness and unrequited when his wife was humiliated like that. Her tears were dripping but she immediately wiped them off.
"Ndhuk. cah ayu, don't mind much. Pity the baby in your womb..!!" Persuade his mother then bring Bian into the room because he knew his second son would come back to beat his first son mercilessly as usual.
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"Don't think things through. Mas Dewo was a gentle man, he was very patient. Only his mouth was sometimes very sharp. I'm not defending a mother's child, but Mas Dewo is not an easy man to break a promise."
Bian hugged his mother-in-law. He was crying as if he was spilling a feeling that was so piled up in his heart.
"What's wrong? Tell me mom. I'll listen to all, for mom.. Bian is also Mom's own daughter." Said mom accompanying Bian in the room.
"Mother, frankly we got married because we didn't want any courtship." Bian's reason for not being too rigid and confusing. "Maybe we can say our hearts are still floating together. Mas Dewo is not necessarily the same love Bian. Bian also can't love Mas Dewo." Bian admitted all. "Sorry Mom. I'm sorry Bian."
"Owalaah ndhuk, Bian is a very nice girl I've met. Your steps are right, sincere to be the key to everything but sincerity is only a little less. Legowo and resigned in the marriage. Father and mother were also married but we can live happily until now. When your stomach is visible. This child has been born into the world. Love will get bigger." I patiently counseled Bian. "Mom knows Bian may still be heavy with Mas Dewo, sharing a bed together also share sweat together, but remember ndhuk. if a woman opens her body to her legal husband. The path of God will not make you sick..!!"
Bian nodded at the advice of his mother-in-law. "Let's understand Mom."
Bang the God leaned squeezing his chest. He also felt the same pain as Bian because love was not there but he was the leader of the household so he also had to firmly bring where the household would go.
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Father and mother saw the awkwardness between the son and his daughter-in-law. Bang Dewa and Bian looked down at each other, there was no communication and conversation between the two. Everything feels stiff and distant.
"Are you married or not??" Reproof Dad.
"Married."
"Married to me." Reply Bian was afraid.
"If you're married, it shouldn't be like this. Bian is less spoiled and Dewo lacks attention. Your wife is pregnant, go anywhere. Afraid slipped..!! Pray at all times for the baby in your wife's stomach to calm down." Reproof Dad.
"Yes Well. Pardon..!! Dewo will pay more attention to his wife." Promise Bang Dewa.
"Bian too. Must be spoiled by husband. The husband's heart will be calmer if his wife is spoiled. Because that's our sign the men are still useful, still considered there." Imbuh Daddy.
"Bian knows yah. Bian will try to change his attitude..!!"
"It has to be Bian. Give your husband peace. The inner key of your husband and you should be able to..!!!"
Bian nodded at the advice of his father-in-law.
Bian is enjoying his dinner. Sambal, lalapan with salted fish made his dinner this time so greedy. The mother-in-law smiled at the simplicity of her daughter-in-law who was actually very classy.
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"Father and glad to have a granddaughter." Bian said while sitting on a small hut in the middle of the rice field.
"How the hell. such a thing is not a game and do not play around about children..!!!" Said Bian loudly reprimanding said Bang Dewa.
"You think how. I have a wife but I don't want to be with a child. Masa Masa had to rape his own wife. If the wife is unwilling and unprepared, what will she have to force?" Reply Bang Dewa.
"Yes already, for the sake of the grandchildren for mother.. Bian wants to." The voice was soft but barely audible.
Bang the God smiled meaningfully hearing him. But there's no way he's showing his feelings for Bian.
"But not anytime soon. Bian's scared." Pinta Bian's.
"Why indeed?"
"First.Bian association is so free that Bian knows the glitter of the night world. Since Junior High, many Bian friends have sold themselves. The money is used to buy cell phones, shoes and to please yourself. Right one day.. Bian puts up a profile on an app, but since Bian is still scared. Bian just waited not far from the hotel......" Bian's story comes to a halt given his dark past.
"Then?????"
"Friends Bian back in a mess, in between his thighs torn, he bled and........... Then go crazy. He blames Bian, his family is also still giving terror to Bian because of this incident Mas and this problem Bang Seba and Bang Rawa are handling to the end." Bian's Story on Bang Dewa.
"That's your past. Your stinking past. Now don't you remember anymore. The past let it pass. Everyone has a past."
"If such a thing hurts so much, why would a woman still open her thighs?? Wouldn't that be done by a woman for life during marriage."
Bang the God wanted to talk but his lips felt locked. The woman beside him was a very smart woman but also very innocent. How could yesterday he almost ruined the first night while the wife experienced severe trauma in her life.
"Mas, can we have a child without doing it. Take a baby tube for example." Ask Bian.
"Sir.The goal of marriage will never be achieved if you do it with the wrong person. Getting married means that we give and take each other, can be in shortcomings also in all limitations. Tell me if your heart is ready.. I will teach you a form of love in other expressions." Reply Bang Dewa.
"Is it possible when we don't love each other."
"Depends on our struggle. Do you want to continue, or end up here." Said Bang the God looking into Bian's eyes.
"If Mas?? What is Mas's wish??" Investigate Bian.
Bang Dewa looked up at the sky full of flickering stars scattered in space. "Want to live with you all the breath, to die even if God allows.
"Is it because of mom?" Bian asked doubtfully.
"No.."
"For what reason?"
Bang God smoked his cigarette then exhaled it originally, he broke down a meaningful smile.
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