At The Moment
27. Feel Guilty
At school
"Duh, mampus ! I forgot to call Farel after coming home from the mall. Ah he must have been more cranky, ah I wait for him in his class aja", my mind when getting off the car at the school gate.
Well, I feel very unsettled because only this first time I was negligent. Neglectful? Selebay that? I think "Yes". I never forgot a day to tell Farel. When in the condition as before, even usually I immediately contacted him again. My feelings are really not calm.
I also walked alone to the classroom and chose to take the escalator instead of the stairs or the elevator. It is still a bit early, so it is not too crowded so I can use the escalator.
Arriving at the 2nd floor I headed straight to Farel's class. Yeah, without putting my bag first in class, our class is next to each other. When the bell rang I could immediately rush out of class without having to be late.
When I arrived at Farel's class, I sat down in Farel's chair. Farel's classmates saw me confused when they saw me in their class, not a few of them then greeted me. They know I must be waiting for Farel or Lashon. I just sat down to play my HP until Raid, Dane, and Gab came.
"Widih, why are you Li in our class? Tumben", asked Dane and sat down next to me playing the phone.
"Hooh tumben really. Find Lofa what is Liquid?", asked Raid to make me look at him.
"No, you can call them like that, who can call me just like them" I said firmly.
"Iya-iya sorry, funny after all their calls" said Raid.
"Trus, what are you doing Li? Had breakfast?", asked Gab, looking at me.
"Udahhh", I nodded. "I'm waiting for Farel, he's craving me. Very sad", I said, then pouted.
"Tumben the Farel can be angry with you Li, why?", asked Gab.
"She was angry because I forgot to tell her, and made her worry" I explained, and then why I felt so guilty and then felt like crying.
"E-eh, don't cry dong Li. Ntar we are lectured with pawang lo" said Raid.
Why I wanted to cry until my tears just flowed. No, I don't think Farel will lecture them because Farel is angry with me.
Ah, I think I want Farel to scold them.
"La-la lah. kok lo even cry Li, we will tell do not cry" said Dane stammered.
"Don't cry dong Li, we are confused about what to do. I don't know how your cup-cupins are usually Farel's like Lashon's" Gab said.
"Huuaaaa, what should I do? Farel was angry, huaaa", I said in tears I didn't care if Farel's other classmates looked at me strangely.
Their classmates were already looking at me who was suddenly crying. Not even a few of them whispered to each other about me, I know but a fool about it. I just want Farel right now.
Not long after I cried as I pleased, Dane patted my back. Dane tried to calm me down, give me a sense of comfort and calm. But it didn't make me stop my tears and my unsettled chest. Upon arriving there were 2 people who were chatting into the classroom and then looked at a woman they recognized, crying on the desk chair at the very end of the class.
"Come, Li.. Lo why?", asked Lashon running towards me as he was walking with Nizar into the classroom.
Nizar was also face-to-face worried like Lashon, but he kept going as usual just a little quickly.
"Huaaa Liquid huaa toll-toll-hiks"
"Tol-tol what the hell Tis, do not cry first. I so think it slobbery if you say toll-toll", replied Lashon.
"Hiks..hiks.. ko-kokk think jo-jorok? E-either ap-a hiks?", I asked.
"Y-yeah yeah I think that toll-", Lashon's answer was cut by Nizar's toyoran from behind Lashon.
"L-yes! Why the hell is this Lian Dane?"
"So don't know me, we-we just asked why you're waiting for the same Farel here. Uh he's a mewek", replied Raid.
"That's asked who answers who" Dane murmured.
"Lian said he was waiting for Farel" replied Gab.
"Hiks.hiks.. Where's farel hiks? Hiks", I asked because usually Nizar and Farel come together.
"Not the 'Farel" Lashon's answer was truncated.
"Farel will be allowed to return to Russia Li, monthly", replied Nizar who I knew Farel was on a mission.
"Stupid kept him every month, astonished me", chirped Dane.
"Hiks.why Lofa hiks do not torch the license of the same hyx I did. I'm a very evil hysterical yes same huaaaa"
"Cup cup Li, don't nangisss. I can't smell you carelessly in class, it's not good that anyone reported to Chala. Ntar aja ya continued crying at home lo, I nginep deh long also I do not nginep at home mamah. Sleep together with the two of us, hand over what you want in me. But don't cry" said Lashon.
"Hiks..Lofa is angry with me Cair, hiks hiks he must be disappointed with me. Lo-Lofa said Me-Metiss beberubb huaaa", I replied.
"No, he's not that. So far Lofa is the most care lo, he if angry because he loves lo Metis. He doesn't want to know why" Lashon explained.
"Hiks but hiks he aja hiks go not saying hyks, pa-when the anger he is the same I hyks hyks hyks he must always say hyks hyks"
"Udah Li, maybe he's spitty" Nizar calmed me down.
"Yes really" said Gab, Dane, and Raid.
"Hiks wants to torch Farel now"
"Lofa goes baby, yes, wash your face, ashamed to be ignored" said Lashon.
"Yes Li, back home from school we call Farel yes" said Gab.
"Well, I washed my face in the bathroom" said Lashon and pulled my hand out of class to cover my face with a large body (like my memiting).
I just followed him to the bathroom, washed my face. I'm not relieved, it's not even more because of the taste. This feeling is like unpleasant, uncomfortable, and plus worry because Farel is on a mission when he is emotional. I'm afraid something happened to Farel.
I washed my face in the toilet, slightly fixed my makeup as well with the powder and liptint I always carried in my bag. Not to forget I wear my reading glasses that I use while studying at school. When I finished, Lashon finally took me to my bench. He also left me with gangs of my class. My class had asked me why I was crying, but I paused to answer their questions considering that this was my business and Farel's.
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