BACK (IN LOVE)
Dulu

I was shocked to hear Irwan's statement. Right now not only my legs are limp, but my whole bones, my muscles all feel dysfunctional. Lunglai, no focus.

My eyes are empty, tears are flowing.

Efrian quickly caught me before hitting the floor. Efrian took me to sit beside her while being hugged tightly.

I still saw Irwan sitting down and looking down. Seemed to regret what had passed.

I was waiting for you who never came. Waiting for you to be heartbroken with that woman. Waiting for you to come back to me. Whine, apologize and promise never to do it again.

Once upon a time, when I was still stupid. When I haven't opened my eyes to see so many other men in this world who are so much better than you. Now you're easily asking me to come back.

The sizable palm of Efrian's hand rubbed against my back. Provides a sense of comfort and safety. I heard his heartbeat was racing with time. I think his breathing is heavy. He angry? But he was silent.

#Flashback

"*l*granddaughter yes, someday, I have a large flower garden, with lots of flowers, I want to, I'll make you a handsome gardener who is the attraction of women who come to my flower garden.trus you bargain them, selling it is expensive to be bought", I said as the afternoon breeze accompanied us walking down this sizable flower garden.

"spouse exploitation is his name!?", replied Irwan who was now hugging me from behind.

After that we laughed together. Spend the afternoon with a blue sky and an orange sun ready to go home.

'good evening princess', the incoming message is so laughable. No, but romantic. Which woman does not like, if she is considered a princess by her man.

'no reply? I'm in front!", he said again sending a message.

I woke up from my soft bed. Open the door for him. Daaaaan, what's going on?

She's so well dressed. Like going to a party. It's so much different from me, my pajama, the messy hair and definitely the face of the plate without makeup.

"*ah lamaaa, change clothes there!", while pushing me he told me to change clothes. I honestly still don't understand. But I just follow his will.

After changing, I went out of the room and met him. His eyes said something meaningful but his lips were unable to say.

After walking far enough. We arrived at one place.This is Villa, in front of which there is a high wooden fence, with an entrance enough for 2 people. After entering, in front of the door there is a yard that is not so wide, there is a swimming pool and a large gazebo at the end there.

Light that night. The star shines but cannot illuminate my front.

along the edge of the pool there is a small candle whose fire refuses to die even though blown by the wind.

In the Gazebo, there were two chairs and a table filled with red black white roses on it. There was a pink candle with a burning fire. Then a bottle of white wine complete with a glass.

"waw", I said, holding her and walking a little faster to reach the gazebo.

"this is all??", I pointed and looked at him. He nodded his head in the sign that he prepared all this for me. For our.

He knows I love roses, especially black roses. He inserted it among them 2 other rose colors.

"in. maybe candle light dinner looks so cliche, old school, but if it's romantic and you like, I can make it every night for you. In, from the long journey we. I who previously did not dare to say that I like. tonight I will state. yesterday I was guilty. left you without any status. when long enough we walked together, I admit I was stupid, but this time, I don't want the stupidity to repeat itself and I won't let you go" his words touched me. He gave her a bouquet of flowers, signifying that he was giving her love.

My decision is to accept it. Because that's what I've been waiting for a long time.

We spent 1/4 of the night together. Happy with a status that can be accounted for.

Three days, then four days. Still not pressuring either. He began to break his promise again.

My parents asked me how it was. Haven't been home in a long time. It usually brings laughter and daily stories.

I called her parents many times. Not getting an answer even getting the question 'are you two okay?'.

Such a long distance made his parents not always able to keep an eye on Irwan. You could say he lives alone. His heart goes anywhere.

I have no other answer than to say that everything is fine.

A few days later. Kulihay Irwan's friend who is also my friend posted a photo.

There's Irwan in the picture.

'hy leo', I said in a short message on social media.

'uh hy, in, what's the info?' his soft tananya replied.

'behind dong, I should have asked', I replied again.

My fingers are shaking. Hot cold taste. Because it's not just Irwan in the picture. But also his personal secretary at the company where he works.

Before long a cell phone ring sounded. From an unknown number. But I still lift.

'in', said the person on the other end.

'i.iya', I replied nervously. I know it's Leo.

'In, sorry, but I can't take long, are you still the same Irwan?', he asked.

I answered yes. Without me covering up, I still feel like I still have a relationship with him.

'I'm sorry, but, I didn't mean to make you misunderstand. Irwan', sounding nervous, Leo was still trying to explain.

'not what Leo, obviously!', I said, which has now flooded with tears.

Leo, my friend since Junior High even though we have different classes and he belongs to my upperclassman. I'm pretty close to him. Especially when the problem of love is complicated because it is separated by a religious wall. Makes us support each other.

'2 days ago Irwan invited me to Derawan, he said the same you as well. I immediately did so because I also long did not meet you in. it turns out time arrived, it was time until, I instead met Nia, her secretary at the office, he explained

The sobs I can't stand anymore.

The night we were together. I took him on vacation to Derawan. Island that I want to go to because there are many turtles there.also clear water, other things because I want to see jellyfish without sting.

Not go with me. He chose to go with Nia.

'In, are u okay?'

'i'm okay, go on',

'i don't feel good about you In. I feel betrayed by you', a regretful voice sounded at the end there. I can't even blame Leo. This has nothing to do with Leo. He is only the third person who has friends and friends at once.