BACK (IN LOVE)
GO AWAY

''are you okay?", asked Efrian who was also patting my cheek softly.

I nodded weakly. I saw Irwan still bowed and either felt guilty or not. Now I feel more dislike and do not want him to be here.

"enough is Irwan. The last time you betrayed me, said that you couldn't LDR. But it turns out you went to Derawan with Nia. Nia. Irwan, even until now you didn't explain that. At first I hope you come again to explain what you did when you stayed with me again".

My sobs adorned that sentence after sentence. Efrian who is still faithful holds and rubs my back.

"you come again, just apologize and then persuade me to get back? Hey, open your eyes. I gave you a chance many times. You also wasted that opportunity many times. Leaving me for another woman who turned out to be just messing with you. After you were abandoned by him, then you came back to look for me and pleaded. THE BULLSHIT!! I already have Efrian and we're getting married. Just yesterday you made room for misunderstanding between me and Ef. Now I've erased you from memory, past and history of my life's journey"

"ayo Ef", take me to Efrian. We left the living room of the house and the man was alone. I took Efrian, to the side of the house, where there were a lot of freshly harvested black roses this afternoon.

I saw Irwan come out of my house and go away. My sobs broke again in Efrian's arms. He who patiently and warmly calms me.

...***...

^^^"morning", with a sweet smile she greeted me on a bright morning.^^^

I was surprised to see Efrian who was busy straightening his hands. Doing stretches. Apparently achy. Only then did I realize that hand became my sleeping pillow last night. For the second time, I fell asleep with Eph. But this time on the same bed with a comfortable feeling.

"it looks like someone has to take responsibility for my mom!", he said, now standing open the window curtains. Make the sun enter the room and light it.

"what responsibility?", I was confused

"responsibility because you have dared to fuck the only boy that belongs to mama" Ef joked with his rancid eyes.

Maybe he joked after the pain and uneg-uneg who came out last night full of emotion.

"is today busy?", he asked seriously and was already sitting in front of me.

I shook my head, a sign of not having any busyness.

"i do a lot of work in the office. Mama asked me to shop and take care of the flower garden. If you don't mind...."

"OK", I answered without waiting for him to finish his sentence.

"5 minutes, I take a shower, you go to the kitchen and find some bread or cereal for breakfast, because I definitely don't have time to make you breakfast" I said.

He laughed and left me to prepare.

My morning was so much fun. Before leaving, I took the time to greet Alena and Erwin at the store.

"asik, is it morning?" said Alena when she saw me and Eph who was walking behind me.

"since last night Al", said Erwin.

Alena widened her eyes, a sign she was surprised, while Erwin who felt wrong to speak and I glared at her immediately.I still put up a face with a question mark for Erwin

"that's it, so last night I passed through here by accident. I keep seeing there is a car Efrian mas parked in front", explained Erwin.

"Erwin, you have to confess, you've been a spy all this time?", said Alena.

Clearly, Erwin's nervous face was on. Silent and unable to answer Alena's question. It still speaks a thousand languages. In a moment of silence, we all waited for Erwin's reply. Until the Efrian voice dissolved everything.

"Later to leave for Indira's office" he took my hand and we left Erwin and Alena there.

...***...

On the way to Efrian's house, I still think about Erwin knowing that Ef was at my house last night.

I saw Efrian's face startled when I asked him like that. He did not answer directly. It took me a few seconds to hear the answer.

"yes maybe. yes", Ef's answer sounded nervous. I was confused as to why he should be confused and nervous, or he was thinking about the possibilities.

"maybe the goods are left behind in the store or indeed he accidentally passed by.kan the front road of your house can be passed by many people including Erwin, maykiiiiiin" he explained.

I digest the possibility that Ef says. Not long after, we arrived at his house. Her mother was waiting at the door. Such an important guest is welcomed as.

"Where, don't you go home all night?", asked Mama Ef to her beloved son.

"sleeping in apart ma, it's late if you have to go home, overtime and tired", a lying answer that Ef said.

Obviously, how could he have the courage to say that staying at a girl's house all night one bed anyway. I accidentally threw a little laugh there.

"oh yes ma, Frian has already invited Indi, later Frian is still a lot of work in the office, so Indinl alone accompanies mama shopping?", he asked for the approval of his beloved mother. Of course, it was directly done by my mom.

...***...

"Efrian has told us what In is?", asked Mama Ef while we were watering and pruning dried rose branches.

"sorry, what's aunt about?"

Honestly, I really don't understand the meaning of Mama Efrian's question.

"anything" he answered

"ah, that, actually there are not many aunts. just aunty disease, flowers that aunts like, what he does, just that" I explained

Her mother simply nodded and continued to take care of her rose plant.

"Tante is always impatient, waiting for this black rose to bloom" he exclaimed.

"sama Indi also, always like to wait for this black rose to bloom, happy to be different from others" I said

"Miss can I ask?"

"happy, Indi will answer auntie"

"When did you like black roses?", she asked.

I can't always explain, since when. In my memory is a little boy who gave me a black rose. I promised to meet again at the same place the next day.

After I waited long enough, the boy never kept his promise to meet again. We never got acquainted, but we met quite often before he went missing, left and never came back.

"since childhood tan, because it used to be difficult to get in the flower shop, finally ask your mother to plant a black rose tree in the yard of the house" I explained.

"oh so"

I nodded the confirming sign.

"it looks like Frian is coming home from work soon" said Ef's mother who first washed her hands.

I was still silent and pensive, considering the little boy.

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