BACK (IN LOVE)
Finally, come again!

"yes, wait a minute" I half ran from the room to the main door after hearing the loud sound of a car horn in front of my house.

However, my steps came to a halt right at the doorstep of the house. Look at the car parked in the yard and it's not Efrian. My eyes are still trying to figure out who's inside. Before long his owner came out and showed his face. Irwan's? That's Irwan?

I quickly turned my body. I want to get inside the house and close the door. Apparently, my pace was less fast. The man was right behind me and held the door I wanted to close.

"In, it's me" he said

I still don't want to turn my body around. Hiding my face from him. I really don't want to see his face.

"In", he said again, this time twisting my shoulder so inevitably I turned to face him but still with a face I did not want to show.

"In, I'm coming" he said again. It was as if his lips could not calm down if he was silent.

"a. a. I", I said. It's not over I said what I wanted to say. Irwan hugged me tightly.

I who was still surprised could only peek in his arms. Until, I saw the man standing right behind Irwan was looking at an unpleasant show when seen in person. Your eyes meet, I can read the disappointment there. For some reason, this feeling, this heart, did not want to disappoint him.

"i don't know you" I said as I pushed his chest away from me.

"Irwan In, I'm Irwan, lying that you don't know me!", she replied reassuringly.

Obviously I've been lying, I even remember the face of the person who made me unable to eat for days because of his loss.

My feet ran after Efrian who had run first after seeing that disgusting hug scene. But, Irwan continued to chase after me and managed to pull my hand.

"it's a lie that you don't remember me!", he said loudly.

"yes I lied, but since then, I don't remember you anymore. In my life, you've even died and been cremated. there is only dust left that has begun to settle and cannot be cleaned again", I replied as I released his hand.

I hope, with my words, Irwan understands, I don't want to be disturbed anymore.

While I ran after Efrian who was actually no longer visible. Irwan passed from my house.

...***...

I reached the hospital and walked quickly to Efrian's mother's hospital room. Arriving there, I did not find Efrian's mother and even the bed and all the rooms were clean.

I went out and went to the receptionist, asking about Efrian's mother why she wasn't in her room.

Information from the sisters that her mama Efrian just came out along with Efrian.

With half a limp step, I tried to get to Efrian's house.

"loh In, what's here?", the man was in front of his mother.

"let's go in first mas" his name says then

I went in and sat in the living room of the house. With Efrian and his mother. For a long time, there was not a word I could say. Confused where to start.

"mama wants to rest first, while waiting for aunt to come please make her own drink yes In" said her mother gently. Then stand up and leave us. Efrian swiftly followed to deliver his mother to his room.

While waiting for Efrian to return, I tried to compile the words. To explain but do not let it be seen that it is a defense. The sound of a foot swing approaching me. With 1 tap, the move stopped just as I raised my head towards him.

Ciut it feels, the guts I gathered from earlier, tetiba is gone.

"In, I have to go to the office. If you can ask for help, you're here until aunt comes, but if you mind going home right now, that's okay", he said in front of me but didn't look at me at all.

He dodged, threw away his gaze, busied his eyeballs to look elsewhere. And I was in front of him.

"i want to talk Ef", I haven't finished my words yet, it's already passed from before me.

...***...

"oh, uh yeah, auntie, sorry", I said

"just move to the room yeah, maybe mas frian came home a little night" he said

"where's aunt tan?", I asked again

"it's in her room, it's been the night aunt also needs a break, let alone a long trip" he continued

I, I've run out of energy waiting for Efrian to return. I decided to just go home. But, whose name is parents, definitely do not want girls to go alone nights. Then I was forbidden by this gentle woman to leave the house. Even if I want to go home, I have to wait for Efrian to take me home. I walked into the room I had slept in before.

the clock shows at 02:00, I heard the sound of a car that had just been parked in the garage of this house. Sure enough Efrian came home.

Immediately, I went out and asked for help to be taken home by him. But at the reject. For the reason that he was tired. Just like that, and he left me pecking at that place.

...***...

"that's nobody", I started my conversation with Efrian who from last night was very indifferent to me.

"whoever is okay, my business is also not", he said while cleaning up the plant fertilizer that has been delivered from this morning.

"you shouldn't go" I replied again

"you should have gone with me, but I went by myself, as from now on I can no longer play at your house" he replied, still busy with his sack of fertilizer

"i should have gone with you, had you not left me" I continued. This time he looked at me and took off the sack of fertilizer and approached.

"you shouldn't have received his embrace in front of me", he insisted, leaving me again and again.

...***...

The sound of my cell phone is very noisy and builds me up.

'In, where are you?', he asked.

"at Al's house, what's wrong?"

'where are you?', he asked again

"efrian's house, drove his mother out of the hospital, what's the matter?",

'you must be surprised, yesterday Irwan came to the shop and bought flowers', he explained with great enthusiasm.

Alena, the one who might know everything related to me, it's impossible if she doesn't know Irwan. The one who made me end up being a florist.

'today you go to the store yes I want to tell you'

after that, I closed the phone and rushed to the bathroom to get ready.

After entering the shop, Alena immediately attacked me. Attacking with questions how I feel now. Honestly, ever since Irwan left, I've changed my world. I've started a new one, throwing away all the memories of him. Trying to step without his shadow. Being a strong woman who can move on even without her.

Meeting Irwan, it's not fun. Not what I wanted, but he came. Who is inviting? There aren't. Who misses him? There aren't. But why did he come, when there was someone else I was fighting for. Who else if not Efrian.

"said you'd love to meet her In" said Alena

"it used to be Al, not now!", I replied. I saw Erwin watching the two of us from the decor table. What does Erwin want to know? our conversation? for what reason, he did not even know Irwan.

"why are you Win?" just sooooo gaiety

"no In, I just wanted to say that the man who came yesterday.", the answer made me just fall silent.

...***...