Because Matchmade
Know Yourself

"Important she said" Ayana murmured inwardly after sitting in the bonnet of Ezra's motorcycle.

Kaivan's words were still ringing in his ears. So there was no meaning to her in the eyes of that guy. Yes, of course, only her boyfriend Jessica is a priority. It must not be him who is only a forced fiancee. He should know himself.

It's not easy for me

I don't want to breathe anymore

Stand in front of you now

The pain is piercing this heart

Against the love that is in the heart

And my employees know themselves

Not always successful

When you keep showing up like this

Without ever being together

Just go missing again

(Maudy Ayunda - Know Yourself)

Maudy Ayunda's song as if to describe the condition of his heart at this time. Really he did not want to get carried away with the feeling for something impossible to happen. Although Kaivan's body may be bound by their engagement later but not with his heart. His heart belongs to someone else.

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After today's lecture schedule, Jessica immediately invited Kaivan out of the classroom.

"Gue blom satisfied with the same elo, still curious about the incident this morning. Elo should clear everything up," Jessica demanded as she looked into Kaivan's eyes deeply.

He did not want any dishonesty between them. Relationships that have been established for four years must be maintained with all their might. Jessica loves Kaivan. The man is his first love and he hopes to be his last love and companion in life.

"What else do you want to explain? I'm clear, there's nothing else I have to tell you" Kaivan replied as he left.

She didn't want to be stared at by Jessica for long like that. It was like being exposed to his lies. What happens when Jessica gets suspicious. Especially if you find out he and Ayana will be betrothed. It could break out a world war. Kaivan knows how his girlfriend is. A bold and reckless type.

"Heiii..... There's something you're hiding, right? Come on, honestly, I can feel that someone does not want to tell me the same story. It's free four years we're close, so I know how you're lying again," chased Jessica while pulling hard Kaivan's arm to stop walking.

Kaivan breathed a long breath. I don't think it's possible to cover all of this anymore. Jessica was already suspicious and would not stop asking questions before the girl was satisfied with the explanation.

"We go first, find a good place for the story. All of you eat yuk, I am very hungry," Kaivan finally invited.

Jessica was forced to comply, it was impossible to have a serious conversation on campus like this. He held her tightly to Kaivan's arm while trying to calm his increasingly unpleasant heart. His intuition told him that there was something crucial that Kaivan was hiding.

Unwittingly by the two, there was a pair of eyes that saw a friendly scene when Kaivan put a helmet on. Ayana accidentally passes through the parking area on her way to the library building. He turned his head towards them just as Kaivan was tidying Ayana's hair in a very close position.

"It's the same girlfriend very friendly, my turn was the helmet was just thrown like that," complained Ayana in her heart.

Quickly he passed from there, not wanting to be more hurt to see the affection of the two lovebirds in front of his eyes. He should be able to erode this sense that is starting to appear because it is not supposed to exist.

"You should know yourself Ayana, don't miss the moon like you do" she murmured again.

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After choosing a cafe that is not too crowded, Kaivan and Jessica sit face to face. They ordered food first.

"We eat first yes, later after eating I promise I will tell all to elo. But you also have to promise not to overreact to hear it. Believe me, I love to die with elo" said Kaivan, clasping Jessica's fingers tightly.

The girl nodded, it was better for them to have lunch first. Although actually his heart was very worried waiting for a story from Kaivan about what really happened.

After they finished eating, Kaivan clasped Jessica's fingers tightly. He stared at the two eyes of the girl sitting in front of him lovingly.

"Ayana is actually not my brother, she is the son of a close friend who lives in the city of P. Mama and her mother Ayana used to be in this J town and they were like siblings so close by. Although eventually the mother's best friend moved with her husband to the city of P, but their friendship was never broken even more tightly entwined."

"But a month ago, the news came, the friend of the mother and her husband died in an accident and their actual child was also a survivor despite the injuries. Mama I heard the news immediately invited papa to go to the city of P, because the friend of the mother had no close relatives, so my mother was the one who took care of everything until finally both parents Ayana buried."

"Because Ayana was already an orphan, my mother decided to take her to the city of J and stay at our house. I don't know where the idea came from, but it turns out my mom insisted on matching me with the girl. Even next week we'll get engaged........."

"Apaaaaaa.." Jessica screams restrained while covering her mouth with both hands.

In a flash his eyes were already filled with tears rolling down his cheeks. Jessica didn't expect to make it this far. He realized that from the beginning of the introduction, Kaivan's mother did not like him but did not think that Kaivan would be betrothed this way.

"Darling, please don't cry.... Forgive me and my family but I promise, I won't leave elo because of this. I love elo very much. We've been dating for four years and I'd like to get married just as elo.." said Kaivan.

She moved to sit next to Jessica and grabbed her boyfriend's body into her arms. Jessica's hair was deeply kissed. The guy also felt sad to see Jessica cry. Her memory goes back to Ayana.

"If Ayana hadn't stayed with them, this wouldn't have happened" he thought.

After a while, Jessica's cries finally subsided. Stay sedu sedan that sounds heartbreaking. He looked at Kaivan's face.

"But how can you refuse? Isn't this the wish of mama and papa elo, there is no way elo fight," sobbed Jessica softly in a desperate tone.

"Gue does now blom know how, but I will try to refuse. Maybe not by fighting but I will make Ayana who will give up and beg my parents to cancel everything."

"Gue told him from the beginning that I had a choice of heart and could never love him. Elo himself can see, where maybe I can be interested in girls like him. Far from my dream type. I used to love what I like like elo Jes," Kaivan replied at length trying to calm Jessica's heart.

Though deep in the corner of his heart, there began to be doubts about it. Somehow little by little the charm of the spoiled girl actually began to tempt her heart. There was a kind of protective sense that she never felt for Jessica to appear against Ayana. Because indeed all this time he saw his girlfriend as a tomboyish girl and always looked tough. That was what made him fall in love.

It was only this time that she saw Jessica crying in front of her and strangely it did not shake her heart. Only he has already said the promise that they will one day get married, it is impossible for a man to deny his own words.