Blind Date's
63. Graduations

...63. The Stranger at The Day...

Spending time in his apartment made him remember Gama. In the end, going away becomes the right choice on her wedding day to reduce the grief that strikes.

Rent car. Towards the north of Jakarta.

When he came here several times with his family and friends. This is the only time he came alone.

Like a stranger. Don't know anybody. Confused where to go. Because the goal is just looking for something else that can distract him. Yes .. shouldn't today be her wedding day.

Sasmaya buys regular tickets. Enjoy some extreme rides. From kora-kora, car bombs, hummingbirds to ontang-anting located on the west side.

Seeing children who play enthusiastically, laugh loosely and scream hysterically makes it the same thing. Effectively. At least the issue of marriage was distracted for a while.

It's just the difference that these children are accompanied by their families, their parents. Someone's with the group. While himself, several times asked by the officer, “Mbaknya himself?”

He nodded. Dim in his eyes.

Switch to more extreme rides. He ventured to ride a hysteria. Very challenging test of courage. In the past when he was with friends and colleagues he never rode rides that were too extreme. Fearful. Nyali. Including the vehicle in front of him. Moreover, the murmurs of the visitors who said he said his heart was going to come off. Thinning. His stomach and stomach are like being squeezed.

Now, that courage was suddenly present. Being in line before entering actually made his courage erode slowly. After the few people in front of him declared retreat. Surrender because his guts are slack.

He made a determination. Plus a strong push. This time he should try. When again! Although the cries of the participants on the hysteria bench were heard to his ears.

Turns off. Sitting on the hysteria bench. Officers ensured his safety. Then the sound of warning sirens sounded. Up here he was like a defendant who was about to be tried.

The first pull catapulted his body. It made his heart startle as if it stopped beating. Hysterical he yells, “Aaaa ..!”

I haven't lost my first shock. The next surprise came very hard.  Suddenly he was lowered downwards. It felt like his body and soul were scattered in the middle of nowhere. He shouted loudly, “I hate you!” His eyes widened, as loud as he shouted, “really ... really .. hate youuuu!”

Where does the next courage come from. Although his voice slightly changed, due to spontaneous screeching and shouting. But did not stop his desire to try tornado rides. Which he always avoids when in this recreation place.

Body whirring. As the beginning of the introduction. The rounds are getting louder and more horrible. It was soon overturned many times. Slammed. Raised. Then left for a long time in the position of the head of the head of the head under the feet above.

Tired screaming. He's silent. Closing eyes.

“Because I love you.”

Net is back open.

“I hate you ..”. “I'm tired ... it really hurts—” hasn't finished his mutter, his body is back playing. Ousted. Crashed. He resigned. Choosing to close the eyelids. Until the body is no longer able to resist the treatment of this vehicle. Completely surrender.

The tornado stopped. Some of the participants who were still sitting shouted, “LAGI! AGAIN!”

He shook his head, “Enough, Mas! Thats enough. I don't want to!”

Down from the ride, his body staggered. Allegedly missed. It turns out that tornadoes are scarier and more terrifying than hysteria. He could no longer speak. His stomach suddenly became nauseous and wanted to mutate. He ran to the bathroom.

As the vehicle's cover, he ends by riding a reanglala. A game that he never misses every time he visits Dufan.

Being above altitude. Look at the sun that is starting to slip on the west foot. While enjoying the afternoon breeze hit his face. And the view of Ancol beach from a distance.

He's pensive.

The universe is not good for him. Test it again and again. He felt like an unworthy human being.

Many questions have so far been unanswered. What, why, the owner of this universe wants himself in solitude and sorrow. And that's until when?

Showing the fate of his love so tragic, it feels very difficult. But this isn't a dream. While dreams about happiness, about love and his future seem to be getting farther away. Or .. he'll just be a dreamer.

Sasmaya. Along with water drops from the corner of his eye. In the end, he was disappointed again.

...***...

The decision of the Sasmaya family to the disappointment of the delay of their marriage did not get a good response from Ranti. The mother of Sasmaya chose to leave her sister's house.

While Eyang Sulasih always mediated any tension between his family and the Sasmaya family appeared. Moreover, papa asked that all decisions be handed over to Sasmaya and Gama.

“What if Sas does not delay, but refuses to marry Gama?” ask Tirto.

“We will accept,” replied Sofyan.

“So you mean, we should bear the shame, if their marriage is void!” ketus Ranti's.

“We're sorry, sir. There was not the slightest intention of me toying with marriage. From the beginning I asked Sas to be my daughter-in-law. From the beginning, I never forced Sas. Even to this moment. We are very happy when we hear and see Sas-Gama close and loving each other. I hope they get married today. Unfortunately ... I think Gama's trauma is gone and healed. In fact ...” Sofyan shook his head in a doldrums. “I am also disappointed with Gama, I am angry at my son ..but I can what. The one to blame for this is me. I want them married.”

“Already. This marriage decision is void or postponed, it's all with my granddaughter, Sasmaya.” Eyang. “We as a family can only wait and pray. Praying the best for them. If they are in a match, God will give them a way. If not, we can't force it. Let Sas be alone first. Find the wound remedy,” break up Eyang.

No more objections from the 2 family parties after deciding.

He and his wife and father. Leaving the residence of Eyang Sulasih.

“That I'm afraid happens, Fan,” complained papa. He thought seeing the interaction of Gama and Sasmaya like a couple able to dismiss his concerns. In fact, he was wrong.

“I also think so, Pa.”

“Mas Gama only takes time,” Widiya chimed. “We've heard Lyvia's description. Mas Gama loves Sas. But on the other hand he has not been able to let go of his fears.”

“But resulting in trauma,” sergeant Widiya.

“What does Gama tell you about Cyntia's death, Fan? What Papa doesn't know,” asked Sofyan.

Non-rigid. Affan.

The car they drove back to Banyu Mili.

“I can also feel his position Sas at this time,” Widiya said. She put her head on her husband's shoulder. “Sas sure is sad, disappointed, angry, and hurt.” A woman's partner must have the same intuition.

“Gama where?” asked Sofyan who was sitting in front.

Affan replied, “Have returned from the hospital. Waiting for us at resort.”

After arriving at Banyu Mili, he, Widiya and papa immediately met Gama. Her brother was seen pacing in front of the room. Awaiting arrival.

“How?” ask Gama to worry. His left arm is digips, cradled. The other hand had rough hair. Seeing the reaction of papa and his sister was not excited.

Papa breathed until his shoulder was lifted. Then shake. While he and Widiya were staring at Gama.

His position is difficult. If, his brother was a healthy man who hurt women, right now he would definitely give 4-7 punches on his face, stomach, legs and hands. It doesn't matter if you have to bleed.

Unfortunately, he faced his siblings who had psychosomatics. Anxietas disorder which is now fatal hurts his physique.

Sofyan hands up, “This time Papa won't help you. Pursue Sas, if you really love him.” Passed away from them.

“Fan, I—”

Affan attacked, “We've tried to make the Sasmaya family not cancel your marriage. But ...,” is heavy. Restoring faded trust will be more difficult than building trust from the start. He shook.

“I'll marry her, Fan. Will marry her!” tangkas Gamma's.

He patted his brother's shoulder. Choose to go with his wife.

...***...

I decided to go back to Jakarta at night. With Dani sitting next to him. The two have been silent since they left Banyu Mili.

It should only be tomorrow that he is allowed to travel far away, given the wounds on his body. However, being at the resort even added to his guilt many times.

He took a deep breath, slowly breathing it out. If conditions allow it, he will usually exercise. Throw away the negative energy that has been present lately.

For some reason, ahead of the wedding, Cyntia is often present. Even when he was driving the car at the time. Until he had to slam the steering wheel to the left. He hit an empty semi-permanent building.

God is still protecting her. Even for the second time.

“Return to home what hotel, Sir?” dani asked after a long silence. He did not know percis, why the marriage of his boss was not so held. In fact, just waiting for the day. Although many questions, of course as a subordinate he did not dare to reveal. Especially this private area. All he knew from Ferdi—secretary Pak Sofyan and his cousin—that their marriage was postponed.

“Apartment,” says Gama.

Dani's forehead wrinkled. The apartment here must belong to Sasmaya. Who else.

Arriving there, he told Dani to wait for him for a while. “Not long,” he said.

Having the same building user access makes it easy to enter the Sasmaya apartment. Access to the unit. Hoping that Sasmaya has not changed its smartdoor lock access code.

Dreary.

Only bias ambient light from kitchen cabinet set kitchen and balcony lights.

His feet went to the balcony with the door open. Sasmaya's guess there. Although he knew if the woman knew of his presence, it would definitely anger and hate him even more.

But the voice of his heart led him here. See Sasmaya up close.

Justright. Sasmaya fell asleep on the swing. With a tired face and sad gurgles left behind.

Then he came back in. Towards room. Carrying a blanket and covering Sasmaya's body slowly up to the chest.

“I felt regret ... I'm sorry ..” omitted. He looked at the face he missed so much.

He bent his legs. He looked down and rubbed Sasmaya's hand.